SCHOOL IS A BITCH.
sigh.
i cant take it.
soon it be 12 hours of school i can cry.
why is o level so easy yet we have so much to memorise?
it's not like we're gonna memorise PERIOD.
it's gonna be like a week shortterm thingy.
like fck it.
and 1 mth for 5pages+fp?
like fck yeh, i have noo freaking time.
i swear it's impossible.
and if it IS possible, it prob not be perfect enough.
and imma screw up my prelims.
and not get to do DPA.
sigh.
i wanna rant my ass off.
but i dont have anyone to rant to.
in result of being single.
fck this single shit.
i want a fat boyfriend who lets me smoke.
sigh.

MOTHER,STOPFCKINGKILLINGME!!

and im uber happy for you alice and izuan (: <3

add my new msn!
marshmellowsmyhero@live.com

dharshy: fanniemyheronehszxzx.

SEE THIS FANNIE:D
iloveyoutoobellyvellymucheebestflenddddd! C:
i hope you read this.

FANNIEBBY,
i love you as my best friend.
remember best friend day?
17 november.
i cancelled the order.
cause i wanna get something more special.
you truely speak out for MEE.
like.
ugly fat me.
again, YOURE MY INSPIRATION:D
youre my nutella,
my hero,
my best friend,
my sister,
my listening ear who doesnt speak,
my happy pill.
and so much more(:
i know you probably treat me differently.
like, you stop telling me your problems,
we haven't met since,FOREVER.
all that yade yade youknowwhat.
i know you're understanding.
and you even accept it if i throw my temper at you.
you're the longest bestfriend i ever had.
and definitely the BEST one;D
i hope you realise how much you mean to me.
muah!
okthxbye.

THANKYOU FAD FOR ACCOMPANYING ME TOMORROWWW:D

dad, please dont screw this up for me ):

SOO.PREETTTYYYY:D
TYVM ALEX BUBBLES! (L)
















taken from best f's blog.
"fat girls are fucking human so guys who say that they dont go for looks and all that bullfucks can go to fucking hell. cause obviously ALL, i literally mean ALL guys go for looks. i hate guys like that. what do you doods get from getting a hot girlf? what? nice to fuck? nice to look? nice to fucking grope? to hell with you fags.
all you guys care is about looks. why cant you pussies get a life and get a girlf who has an awesome heart rather than awesome features?
its a bonus if you get both but what if you only get a girl who is ugly as fuck but has a heart of gold? would you let her go just cause she's ugly and fat?
if its a YES, ima kill you bullfuckers.
if its a NO, a round of applause for you. all guys should be like that.

so guys, dont be picky when it comes to girls. accept them for who they are. looks arent important unless you're some fucker with a super huge ego the size of the whole universe combined -____-'

guys who m.i.a from the girls after the first meet up just cause of her looks/size, IMA KILL YOU FAGS. people like you dont deserve to live.

cheebye fags/pussies/pervs/bullfucks."

READ IT, SWALLOW IT, BREATHE IT!
ILYBESTF.

THINGS IMMA DO AFTER O LEVELS BITCH.

1. do my hair, dye it jet black/ blonde.
2. go SHOPPING!
3. hang out with everyone and i mean EVERYONE.
4. hopefully i lose fckg weight by then.
5. do a lot of shopping.
6. go out for dinners with friends.
7. have a belated birthday chalet for mua.
8. have a proper fannie dharshy day, i miss those. sigh.
9. get a monroe.
10. have a garage sale.
11. if garage sale not enough, have garage sale II.
12. go boy hunting with fannie(if she's still single).
13. do christmas shopping.
14. go fckg nuts.
15. sheeshaaa(LIKE FINALLY LAH)
16. make nuu friends and hang out with nuu friends.
17. screw my mrajok-ness. HAHAHAHAH.
18. hang out with era, blow bubbles, smoke like a train, and throw stones!
19. just have fun like i never had fun before, well i haven't.

doing blog hopping, i feel utterly jealous everyone's happily attached, everyone's having fun at gigs or hanging out as a matter of fact. fannie, you're right. i'm love desperate. sigh,what is wrong with meeeee. right now, i just need a study buddy from yishun who loves to study and gossip, with MUA. any takers? um, more friends who do nice for me toooo:D i am fat. I AM FAT. hahah.

www.myspace.com/aneveningwiththeplague

check em out :D

STUDYYYY.
okthxbye.

I WANNA HAVE MY PLUS SIZED FRIENDS:D
any takers?
it will make me very very happy i swear (:
imsickoftheskinnyfagswhomakefunofthefatonesandthinkitsOHSOCOOL.
shove it up your ass for god's sakes.

WAKE UP DHARSH.
sigh.

i just realise i seriously need to go for some therapy sheet.
sigh.
FANNIE B, LINA C, TIARA, SHERYL, JASLIN, ERA, ALICE, PEEWEE, JULIE, CASSIE, PRIS, SYAZA, WAWA, VERON. if you're reading this, please text mee.
):
i reeeally wanna hang out soon!

fannie i know im desperado now.
sigh.
you just won't understand how FAT feels like.
i really want to mia.
my phone's dead, so is myspace, so is everything.
like, it wouldn't even make a damn difference if i was mia or still alive in egypt or something.
im insecure and you know it.
you even witnessed one of those instances or situations where me being fat becomes the whole issue.
it really stings so badly i cry for days.
please dont make assumptions.
i dont say anything doesn't mean im happy.
and, i know you have your problems.
and i miss you telling them to me!
please treat me like a real best friend,
i still love you bestie.

g, im FAT.
deal with it.
i fell for you and i fell hard.
well too bad for me.
now comes the heartache. ):

era honey, cheer up.
if he's not meant to be yours, he's not meant to be yours.
i know you still ache inside. but you have soo many other good people around you!
the best way is, delete him.
delete stuff that remind you of him, or just hide them somewhere else.
after a few months, you can take them out, and you wont feel a thing.
smile my darling.
lets hang out soon!
think of the henna and the throwing of stones and bubbles.
lots and lots of bubbles!

and to dudes out there, dont gimme bullshit that "oh looks dont matter, we only friends what"
all that motherfucking bullshit. i look different from my pictures. so if you say that sentence or somewhat the same, you better keep to your fucking word. im sick of always being ditched or ignored. eh i have fcking feelings too. i dont give a damn how big your egos are. if it is, than don't fucking ask me out. _|_

i miss you hotcakes, sorry ):
okay thxbye.

imma mia, period.
so if anyone wna contact me, just text yeh.
i'm over with meetups and hangout and shit like that.
i have my reasons.
well for one, i have the shittiest attitude and i think jealousy is gonna eat me up before i can breathe.
another is, it's cus of some people.
sigh.
whatever, imma explain my reasons properly when im so called back.
goodbye bitches.

sigh.
i have no rights to say in this.
but please try to understand him.
dont make use of him.
he's even so nice to actually wait for hours.
dude, dont take fucking advantage.

my whole family is driving me deeper into the ground.
fuck it.

GOODBYE WEEKENDS. YOU

GOODBYE WEEKEND!
hahah
so happy.
weekends suckd.
study study study.
for chinese.
sigh.
hello chinese o level.
goodbye black nail polish.

The rules are:
You enter the letter into the search box.
Get someone you at least remember the face and nearest to the first one.
Answer truthfully!

A is for AliceChainsaw.
1) Do you love this person? as my flend (:
2) Is this person your enemy? nope.
3) Would you hug this person? ^^

B is for Bimbo.
1) What do you really think of this person? awesome to go shopping with :D
2) What’s their favorite color? i'm not sure :/
3) Ever danced with them? nah.

C is for Cassie
1) What do you think of this person? haven't talked to her since forever actually. :/
2) How far does this person live? very very far.
3) How old is he/she? 17 this year.

D is for David Dirwit Rusli.
1) How long have you known him/her? a few months/ a year.
2) Do you like this person? yeh as a friend.
3) Do you hate this person? no?

E is for ERA BUBBLES!:D
1) Have you met their parents? um, no.
2) Worst thing about this person? nothing, she's so darn adorable :D
3) Best thing about this person? she'll listen to my problems!

F is for FANNIE BESTIEEEEE!
1) Have you ever dated this person? yesLD
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? sigh, idk. VERY SOON.
3) Do you go to school with them? Nope ):

G is for Gan Roche Rachael.
1) Have you heard this person sing? yeh, & her voice is gorgeous.
2) What's his/her pet's name? i have noo idea.
3) Will he/she repost this? maybe? :/

H is for HEED! <3
1) What grade are they in? sec 4/ 11th grade.
2) Is he/she your best friend? close friends of some sort.
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? HAHAH, no.

I is for IMOGEN.
1) What is this persons favorite food? i dunno :/
2) How did you meet this person? school.
3) Do you trust he/she? yes and no. heheheh. idk.

J is for Jaslin.
1) They have any siblings? i have noo idea.
2) Do you know their favorite song? nope.
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? YEH, as if.

K is for Karlie
1) How old were you when you first met? when i was really young?
2) Do you like him/her as a friend? yeh, though i only talked to him once at subway.HAHAH
3) Would you go to disney world with this person? hahha, random, yeh ?

L is for LINA CHAN CHAN :D (imy honey)
1) Is this person older than you? yeh.
2) Is this person single? i think so.
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week? rarely now ):

M is for Maha.
1) How old were you when you first met? 16?
2) Whats his/hers pets name? hahahah, haven't though of one yet.
3) Ever danced with this person? nope.

N is for
1) How old were you when you first met the person? -
2) Do you like this person? -
3) What would you do if you had never met this person? -

O is for
1) Are you related? -
2) Could you live with this person? -
3) What school do they go to? -

P is for Prisusu!
1) Have you been to the mall with this person? yeh (:
2) How about a sleepover with them? nope :/
3) Does this person have a job? nope,

Q is for
1) How old were you when you first met the person? -
2) Have you went holiday with this person? -
3) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her? -

R is for Rafael.
1) Have you heard this person sing? no
2) Will she/he repost this? 100%? i doubt it.
3) When does this person look best? err....... HAHAHA

S is for Sheryl Scene.
1) Is this person taller than you? i don't think so.
2) Do you enjoy spending time with them? i have noo idea.
3) Are they your friend? DU-H??

T is for Tiara
1) What grade is this person in? poly year one/two :/
2) Would you hug this person? why not (:
3) Do they live close to you? nope ):

V is for VERONINI!
1) Would you do anything for him/her? yes.
2) Do you consider them a friend? definitely.
3) Have you met any of his/her family? kinda :/

W is for WAWA.
1) Is this person loud or quiet? loud! :D
2) Have you seen this person dance? nope.
3) What color eyes does this person have? black?

X is for
1) Is this person taller than you? -
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her?-
3) Is this person your friend? -

Y is for Yakuzi.
1) How old were you when you first met this person? honestly, i've yet to meet him.
2) What do you think of this person? adorably caring.
3) Have you heard this person sing? nope, but i will (:

Z is for zeerotica.
1) Does this person have msn? yep.
2) What is their favorite sport? i have noo idea.
3) When did you last see this person? yet to ):

Now tag everyone you mentioned.
- alice.
- bimbo.
- cassie.
- era.
- fannie.
- gan roche rachael.
- heed.
- imogen.
- jaslin.
- karlie.
- lina.
- maha.
- pris.
- rafael.
- sheryl.
- tiara.
- veronica.
- wawa.
- yakuzi.
- zeerotica.
♥

I made a new friend :D
N, youre different. you know it.
i rather have the old you back.
I have to do my own testimonial,
the one the TEACHER is supposed to do.
June holidays are here. classes everyday.
wth dude.
Chinese is in 2(/less) days. SIGH.
I'm crazy for crabmeat.

ohmygosh cant you fucking respect (quote)HUGE people?
i was blog hopping and saw what you said.
i hate it when people make fun of fat people.
even if they try to cover their tracks up.
like, "oh it wasn't my idea"
like wtf dude?
yeh you're skinny, the whole world's watching.
it's people like you that fucking bring people like me down.
as if you don't have enough attention shown like a spotlight upon you.
does it burn like a b, honey?
i don't give a fucking damn how hot you look.
just save your damn comments, mfer.

ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh!

UPDATES LA DEYY.
1. had fun @ amazing race yesterday.
though the weather was a killer and i enjoyed a little air con and average time we waited for each team to come is 1-2 hours. and the police people were so serious looking.
2. i put on 3 kg since last friday.
fuck.
3. NO FUCKING PROM THIS YEAR.
motherfuck?
4. i have noo idea what to do for my testimonial.
with which a teacher is supposed to do.
5. i haven't talked to you since a forever.
okay fine a few days.
6. i finally got to hear cupcakes voice again.
okay second time. first don't wanna count.
7. i cancelled on fannie again and i feel terrible.
fuck, sorrry babbyyy )):
8. i need a new wadrobe.
& motivation to lose weight.
9. chinese 'O' levels are soon.
i am totally not prepared but i can't be botherd.
10. i'm suprisingly getting lazier to use teh phone & take pictures.
HAHAHAHAH, what is wrong with you dharshhhh.
11. next semester's COACHING SESSIONS are gonna be worst.
go die la school.
12. O levels are approaching and my results still suck big beans.
13. i have nobody to hang out with anymore(apart from my nutellaC: )
14. myspace so dead.
15. i restless ALL THE TIME!
but i lazy to exercise.
16. i dont miss having a boyf for now.
who are you kidding la dey.
17. i miss bubbles.



DARLINGGSSSS.

1. alice im totally winning the bet.
2. era and bubbles and henna. era you're my bubbles!
3. FANNIE BBY! i'm sorry. sigh. i really will try never to cancel on you again.
i'm happy you've got hidayat to enjoy with everyday (:
4. laulau, im supper sorry bout teh piercing ):
5. CUPCAKES! you might probably ask me to hang out soon ehy? and i might probably say yes soon. hehehe. i remember our deal OKAYYYY.

i feel like a total psycho.
zxomg.
):

ohmygosh my life is soo boring.
who wants to hang out at yishun tomorrow
and thursday and friday?
please text me.
i miss playing with bubbles.
i miss mortisha.
i miss nutella.
i miss my future monroe.
i miss my future boyf.
shuddup dharsh.
i need happy sticks.
i need my cupcakes back,
and that wish came true. (:

HIGHLIGHTS OF TEH DAY.
1. unexpectedly, IMOGEN ask me out.
2. unexpectedly, found HAJI LANE.
3. unexpectedly, got HENNA done.
4. unexpectedly, ate A LOT today.
5. expectedly, the answer i got from someone i still have feelings for.
i still cried, fuck.
6. lastbutnotleast, dad's in the hospital.
what happened to my friends when i need them?

ohmygosh best flens la deyy.

hahah, I LOVE YOU WOMANNNN!
*BIG HUGS*
i love love you:D
not in a lesbo way.
so we four are good yes?
he treats us equally.
start talking to him normal again hun.
let's meet tomorrow.
i wanna give you a big big hug :D
ily fannie (: