gah..

last night i was so darn "emo"

i dunno why

i cried non-stop

thinking bout my parents

last night when i heard their laughter, i felt so odd.

like a third wheel

they were in th room with my sister.

i actually could feel the cold heart turn big bright red

whenever i was/am around them

all i hear is screams&shouting

when i wasn't there. i can/could hear laughter&joy.

i feel so left out&alone&unloved.

i'm constantly expressing my feelings&gratitude to them,

but they don't seem to care much.

sometimes i just feel like i don't belong in my family&

it's better if ran away from home.

gah..

now i feel like crying]':

i guess no one ever reads this dumb blog anws

i just created it for th pleasure of wasting my "precious" time.