Twinneh, i hate the way you're treating me now.
i know you have your own life, but im guessing that im not in it.
Youre totally ignoring me yet you have so much time for your other friends & shisha.
If you dont want me as a so called TWIN just say it.
Dont have to ignore me.
Youre just like any typical friend of mine.
Even if you were busy the least you could do to show that you still cared was
to reply ONE text saying youre busy or you'd text me later or smthg.
you dont even bother replying my letter moreover text messages,
or update me on your life.
youre like miss pop star and im some irritating maggot.
if i mean so little to you than what the heck.
im grateful that you helped me get the shorts and mp3.
thankyou.
if youre reading this, or if you STILL realise i have a blog,
please text me.
if youre too BUSY for me, than dont bother.

something seems different. after what arguing just now. i dunno why. i just feel, different. hmm, sorry for cramming you up. sorry for taking up 24/7 of your time. i cant help it. sorry for pissing you off, all the time. sorry for not giving you space. sorry for not robbing your time away from your friends. im sorry im sorry im sorry. i know im a terrible girlfriend. sigh. i promise nvr get too attached to you anymore k? i dn wna get too hooked & end up getting hurt & upset & mad at you for nothing. i love you ma'arof.

I LOVE YOU BOYF!

FOREVER & EVER & EVER!

i love making you jealous.

i love your hot six pac body.

youre absolutely adorable!

you dunno how much you mean to me.

like i said, i dont mind converting for you.

cus i know my love for you will never fail.

& hopefully you keep your promise of never changing, aft 1-2 yrs.

even if you stop loving me, i'll nvr ever let you go.

youre the perfect apple amongst all the rotten ones.

youre that soccer ball that will never deflate.

you accidentally deleted those sweet messages i sent you[:

well i'll try remaking what i said.

heheh[x

youre my darling canvas,

that i drew to perfection.

with each & every colour for a specific reason.

i add a tinge of sparkle to that utter drawing.

& turn it into a master piece, fit for a king.

words cant express how much i love you!

i love your shyness.

i love your sweet tender words.

i love your big secure hands.

i love your boney shoulders.

i love your big smile.

i love your long fingers.

i love your long lanky legs.

i even love your bag!

i love your patience for my nonsense.

i love your drop dead addictive messages.

i love you for making me smile all the time.

i love you for coming down just to see meeee[:

i love you for making me that cute adorable dinosaur.

i love you for willing to spend soo much time for me.

i love you for taking long bus rides with me,

though you really dislike it,

alot.

i love EVERYTHING about you!

youre my one & only.

though you're busy,

though you're mugging for n's.

you still text me to keep me company[:

every morning you never fail to text me good morning.

& every night, you always text me the sweetest messages.

that make me fall head over heels for you over & over again.

& best of all.

i love TONY tooo!:D

contact LOUIS, 94562076, for tickets!

20 bucks per head.

it's a good event!:D

aheheheh.

& for my next post, imma upload holga picts!:D
ahahahahah[:

TALKING & webcamming TO SAYANG NOW:D
ahahah.

i want flowers!

doing project soon.

*gasp.

im sooo enticipating for my hoodie!

ahahahah.

yst was ultimate boredom.

i wna go for a movie w a guy.
zomg.

i cant wait for my bday!

LIKE ZOMG:D
& sayang gna buy me polaroid.
AHAH:D
yay.

& im high on sunkist!

ahahahah.

okeh lame.

webcamming is so fun nehszxzxzxzx.

best friends. HAHA!

it's so easy for you to take me down off featured / top friends.

but so hard to put me back up uh.

gah.

do you still treat me as your bestiee?

yeh i know we have no way of communicating.

well at least send me a comment or smthg ?

i really miss going out w you!

i miss texting you!
i miss us ranting about things/people around us.

i miss our screaming at each other for no reason.

but i guess you don't.

since you're so flooded with your other friends.

thankfully, im not that emotionally attached to you as i was last time.

maybe us being best friends' just a label uh?

every thing you do potrays how you feel.

hmm, well whatever.

meet up soon babe [:

i feel naked.

i feel naked w/o my piercings.
gah.
i have terribly low self-esteem.
im praying daddy hears my prayers every night.
im praying for a miracle.

well the day has been blend.

stayed at home.

with the whole family.

sister is out now.

& im listening to flyleaf-sorrow.

LOL!

i need a phone!

im dying of boredom!
i miss soo many people.

esp twinneh!
gah.

i wna meet up w ya'll soon!

exams are such scumbags.

GAH!

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hmm, i still cant get over piercings!
*SCREAMS!

idk why.

i feel so wrong now.

w/o piercings, i feel so empty.

should i go repierce?

no, i spent too much on em!
SHHHEEEEEETTTTTo.

i dont have that tongue stud to play with anymore.

i dont have those septum & snakebites to express ME!

(wtf am i saying)

im such a drama mama!

i feel a lost of indentity.

people reading my blog probably think im retarded for being so dramatic over piercings.

GAH!

my naval, NO MORE!

whhyyeeeee meeeeeee.

GAH.

i need councelling.

*bangs head on the wall.

should i continue piercing for people ?

should i continue getting pierced & hiding from mom ?

lawl.

i feel so fake.

im so self-concious(however you spell that).

i should walk ard town dressed in pyjamas with bad messy hair.

w/o shoes.

& funky wierd non contrasting finger nails.

& big BLING BLINGS.

& dragging tony around.

AHAH:D

that would be like soo nice [;

if only..

im hating everything because:

1.i missed the best gig of the year.

2.im having problems with my parents.

3.those problems are fucking big.

4.i hate those problems.

5.it's september & ive been screaming myself to loose weight since beginning last year.

6.number 5 really pisses me off big time.

7.if i lost weight, number 5 & 6 wouldn't be there. & my life would have been much easier.

8.i would finally have the courage if number 7 was fulfilled.

9.I DONT HAVE A FREAKING HANDPHONE!

10.I TOOK OUT ALL MY PIERCINGS.

11.when i did number ten, i was crying (again).

12.i dont have any freedom.

13.i have un-understanding parents.

14.number thirteen is the main reason why my life is always so DEPRESSING all the time & depressing enough for people to call me EMO.

15.i still haven't started on any homework.

16.im depriving myself off food till i go down to my wanted weight.

17.im still dying for piercings.

18.im forced to hate piercings.

19.so ninteen is seventeen & eighteen added up together.

20.the holiday break is only ONE WEEK.

21.right after the hols, i have class test & fye. *yay me.

22.i bought stuff online but idk how to pay them now.

23.i shall continue this list next time cus i forget everything. ):

24.continuing..I DONT HAVE FREEDOM!

25.everyone is out enjoying their holidays, while im stuck at home, being oh so grounded.

26.loosing friends.

27.terrible craving for food.

28.missing my grandma D:

29.i regret taking out my septum.

30.i cant study, idk how to.

31.im everything i DONT want to be.

32.life is just fucked.