i really cannot believe ya'll would do such a thing.

maybe its my fault.

idk.

i never knew you both would have the heart to do it.

but nvm.

its all fucking done&over.

i really dont wann a say this but i hate seeing both of you together.

right now its as if a thousand knives are in my heart.

i know ya'll dont have the guts to tell me or whatsoever shit.

at least spare a thought for my feeling pls ?

you really dont knw how fucking pain it is to see your best best friend whom you thought really cared for you, actually do such a thing behind your back, &never wanted to tell you.

i dont wish to see you in another 3 months.

but i dont think i have a gawd damn choice right now.

during this 3mths we're sure gonna contact in some way.

&darling, you're my bestie.

i wanna say i hate you but youre my bestest best friend&i still love you.

why was i ever so stupid.

pls God just fucking kill me right now.

im fucking drowning myself in pills&liquor&ciggs.

i just wanna fucking kill this bloody body of mine.

noone cares, why should i.

you both dont seem to anyways.

well, i wish you 2 happiness.

&i hope you're fucking happy right now.