i (used) to like a guy whom i shant name.

i have been since the day i got to know him.

he knows i used to like him.

but he doesnt know i still do.

he likes a new girl from his sch.

& when he told me this.

i got really sad.

soon, imma be the last few in his featured frens.

i wish he knew how much i really really like him.

but i dont wish to see him in 2/3 weeks time.

i dont wish to contact him anymore.

but is it even possible?

maybe i wont talk to him.

maybe he'll just forget tht hug i supposedly owe him ?

& you know what the stupidest thing is,

i have never met him before.

HA!

see how stupid i am.

he'll nvr knw.

how i really feel.

for tht long long time.

im gna tell him to read all these in a mere few mins.

& he prob thinks im some drag!

like those kinda despo bitches or shit.

im not even that close w him!

like wtf am i saying.

im really really sad now.

why the hell am i saying all this ?
i should be feeling guilty & selfish at this point of time.

i broke the most wonderful guy's heart.

i lied to him countless of times.

im guessing my readers can tell.

i broke up w patience.

why?

cus i dn wna lie to him anymore.

he's treating me so so wonderfully.

& im not.

he loves me so so much.

& im just lying to him further & further.

the things i said are not lies.

i meant every single word i say.

but as days go by,

so does my feeling towards you.

im staying single till aft o's.

i hate love.

God save me ]':