when you really need your best friend,
or your soul mate.
or someone you can really count on to be there for you.
is he/she actually there?
okeh, dont talk about BEST friends.
how about friends?
what do you call them when they ditch you?
or where are they when you really need them?
they only come to you when you have smthg THEY want.
& just throw you in the dumps when they alr GOT what they want.
& they'll start giving you the lamest & stupidest excuses,
why they're ignoring you,
which somehow or rather,
hurts your feelings deeply.
im tired of alw trying to cheer people up.
or alw being tht pillar for them.
but what happens when the pillar itself
crashes?
if tht pillar is gone, whats gonna support you?
if tht pillar is dead, whats gonna support you?
if tht pillar retires, whats gonna support you?
wheres MY pillar?
best friends claim to be best friends.
but when you really need them.
they're all gone.
my "friends" or "bestoes" or "besties" say they'll
be there whenever i need them.
but are they?
those who read this.
please ask yourself honestly.
in the end ya'll apologise.
& i love ya'll to death for tht.
but thts not the time i really need you.
this is.
NOW, is.
im crying so badly & i dn even know why.
i wish i had friends who WOULD stick with me through
my worst times.
this is post is not going out to ALL of my friends.
just some.
i love you all.
but im not gonna be your pillar till the day i die.
cus the pillar sooner or later, will get worn out.
cus the pillar will need her own pillar.
God all i need is you now.
you seem to disappear when i really need you.
i seem to have lost faith in you.
you never seem to be there.
you dont answer my prayers.
you dont answer my pleas.
what do you really answer.