im fucking dying without you.
please come back ]':
at least give me a call.
i dont want yet i really need you so so much.
yes i do still go into your account.
i know im not supposed to.
but i cant help it.
cus' i just need a tiny inch of hint, to know that you still love me.
but you don't seem to.
do you know how much i cry every night, cus' i miss you so badly?
every morning, i wake up and the first thing i do,
is look at my phone.
cus' remember, you used to text me morning and night,
the minute you woke up and the minute you felt sleepy.
but every morning when i wake up, i think of you.
when i sleep, i think of you.
when i look at eeyore, i think of you.
when i do piercings for people, i think of you.
when i eat cotton candy or corn, i think of you.
when i go to esplanade waterfront, i think of you.
when i eat long john's, i think of you.
when i see the pouches you got me, i think of you.
when people ask me they wanna get a septum, i think of you.
when i look at that card or your pictures, i think of you.
and mrf i swear the list can go on and on.
but i really cant take this feeling.
i still dunno why you did this to me.
im not sure if you stilll read my blog, i really hope you do.
was i such a bitch you had to do this?
im still not over you.
i still love you so so much, like i always have, like i always will.
i know you deleted and block me from msn.
did you really wanna cut off all our connections?
do you hate me so much?
if you say you meant everything, all your promises.
what about now?
aren't this the consequences of your lies?
your broken promises?
i really don't know what i actually want.
i really want you back so badly.
but i'm sure you like someone else already.
what about all the future we talked about.
what about everything?
i really hate this feeling.
yeh it's been over a month.
but it seemed like just yesterday, you said you wanted to break up.
you gave me 4 reasons to that.
1. you didn't want to affect my studies.
2. you don't know.
3. i've changed.
4. you need space.
which is it?
honestly, or was it cus' i'm too ugly for you?
do you know what i've done/have happened to me after you left me.
i really hate this feeling so so much.
people always tell me, "just move on. only you can do it. no one else can help you but yourself. you gotta be strong" and all that bull.
but i still can't.
no matter how hard i try, i can't.
like today, i went to cityhall, and wanted to esplanade, and i started thinking of you.
and i swear i felt like crying, but i knew i couldn't.
who cries over the boyfriend who left after a month over?
even when i drink MILO, i think of you.
do you know how badly this break up has made me feel?
i really wanna get back together.
but im sure you dont.
idk what you feel about this.
but i really hope you read this.