15.2.10

Chinese New Year. Pfft

every year, chinese new year gets more and more, mundane.
people stop coming.
the atmosphere dies slowly.
Why do you even bother coming?
just to save face?
you barely call this a reunion dinner.
COME ON.
stop lying to yourself.
do any of you bother coming on the eve of new year, for reunion dinner?
do any of you, pray for ah gong?
remember when he passed, every single one of you said
you'd come more often to visit ah ma.
HAH, bullocks.
reunion dinner is only amongst a small group of us.
steam boat, and talk about girl stuff.
what's after that? mahjong? then? over.
that goes for new year's itself too.
so what, now ya'll just waiting for ah ma to pass on as well?
THEN, ya'll will start showing your faces?
i just really loathe these family reunions.
when everyone comes.
ya'll just sit in one corner.
or sit amongst your family members.
might as well save your time.
don't bother coming.
i'm having so much bottled up anger.
about my family.
about everything.
i don't like reunions.
i don't like being with the family.
cancer sticks are my only companion.
they're the only something that will always be there for me.

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