hello world. i have such high hopes on my future boyfriend. i know, i sound pathetic. but heck. i am learning to control feelings. coz it sucks to fall for a guy who sees you as a friend. im single and i can date whoever i want. right? i miss fags. and you know what? laughing gas don't make me laugh. it only makes me all numb and feel all squished up. though i still get jealous seeing couples, im still in the process of getting used to it. and yes, i DO like malay guys. so what?