fannie my dear, the reason i dont wanna tell you is because it IS about you.
idk if you would call it good or bad.
i guess its in the middle ?
you know how it feels when jealousy overcomes you ?
thats how i feel.
its like, youre so darn pretty.
while im that ugly biatch standing beside you.
i hate feeling fugly.
i know i am.
but seriously, i feel jealous.
i might feel a little sad.
i know imma big green eye monster.
somehow, i let you get to know probably all my friends.
than after a while, those friends disappear from my life.
& the next minute you know, they're your good/best friends.
it just feels like MARSHMELLOW that your friends just leave you for someone else.

when i know someone is leaving me & you both are getting closer,

i'll just distant myself.

cus' my instincts tell me that im gna be left outta that picture.

i hate feeling like that lampost.

& i dont want th same thing to happen.

the feeling really just sucks deeply.

its like ure gourging out your own heart alive & whole.

the pain is excruciating.

but its worst than all that.

words cant describe the agony.

i swear it cuts.

example, you know who.
esp, when that someone else is your bestest best friend.
thats why i feel sad right now.
but whatever, after awhile this feeling will be-gone.
i love u darl[: ( in a non lesbo way )
:D

i just finished talk to you.

idk if youre still online.

but i know that person isnt online anymore.

i dont wish to fight with you for something so small.

i know for a fact that him & i will nvr happen.

worst is me & him arent friends anymore.

while you both are together.

idk if you know how all these feel like.

i dont want you to experience how this feels.

talking to you made me tear.

idk why. ]:

i didnt even know i was crying.

i just couldnt stop crying.

secondhand serenade; why.

why ?