sigh, im really afraid to show parents my result.

daggers & parangs will start flying.

& the ultimate weapon, the butchers knife.

sigh.

idk why im crying.

cus i nvr studied hard enough ??

cus im alw letting my mom down ??

cus im scared of what they will say & do once they find out my results ??

cus im pretty remorseful right now, that im alw making them sad ??

well all of em's true.

mom called, & i told her i failed my cheena.

& she was like really mad & ferocious(howwever you spell that)

& i told her that i passed my arts, badly.

sigh.

she really sounded as if she wanted to bite my head off.

she asked me if there were any more subs,

i was like, no.

i lied to her.

she wants me to go for cheena tuition.

sigh, im really scared of my dad.

yeh imma chicken right now.

i wna run away!

but i cant D:

cus i have the india trip.

on 24

i wna runaway on 22 night

before 23, ptc.

sadly, i have my india trip on 24.

so i cant runaway.

i dont wanna waste mom's 1k +++ bucks.

but at the same time,

im guttless & scared.

scared - i rather jump down or die in the earthquake that happened in china than face my parents dissapointment.

SIGH!

i really dont dare to tell my mom about my results.

i dont want my dad to go for the ptc.

he's just gna give me a big sigh in the car.

i'd cry.

but i dn wna cry in front of him.

i dont wanna cry infront of anyone.

thats why im crying now.

sigh, daddy God, pls tell me what to do

D':

i want all this to end D:

ppl prob think im being a big baby to cry over small shiat like this.

but its the most important to me NOW.

can i just cut myself & bleed to death?

though what may seem far from possible.

well it's probably what people would usually say.

well just let my bleed till i cant bleed anymore.