& im meeting KIDDI KHAOS my ultimatum bestest bestie & patience boyfie tmrw[:
♥
i've done couple signs alr!
:D
i've been skipping a church alot D:
sigh.
well not exactly skip.
just attending half of it.
what a bitch right ?
gah.


at my cousins place, stoning.
i have nthg to do!
tmrw, piercing!:D
ahahahahah.
idk who still reads my blog.
so dead/.
argh, die dead blog, die.

BANG BANG!
i miss boyd.
i miss cassie.
i miss kiddi khaos.
i miss teehee trasher.
i miss kai slap(kiddi's boyfie siolll.)

you see, i alw start out with the MISSES.
ppl who read tht, ILY:D

&& for ppl to stop asking.
1.my name is DHARSHENI.
it's pronounced as DAR-SHE-NI.
understand?

2.i changed it to dharsh at first.
taking away the ENI.
understand part 2?
if you dont, go bang your head on the wall.

3.but, i decided to change it to dharshy.
its like from point 1, except im taking away NI.
so it'll be dharshe.
but it'll be totally wierd.
but now, come to think of it, it looks nice[:
but no one will know how to pronounce it.
so anw2, its pronounced as DAR-SHE.
so finally understood ??


i have FOOD nicknames[:
dharshy marshy.
dharshy marshmellow.
dharshy donuts.
dharshy fishy.
& my fav, DHARSHY DORKY.
lol:D


& for those ppl who wonder why i look so alien-ish.
its cause im CHINDIAN w a pinch of british:D
perfecto?
yess[:






i miss all the people taking o's lahsxz!
cheeseball, why must ya'll take?
than next year i must.
than year aft tt sure hv another batch.
sigh.
O LEVEL SUCK LAH
cheebai.

HELLO BLOGGEEEE:D
imy.
i miss cassie twinneh!
sigh, i hope you find your darling super sooon laahsxz!
i promise i wont leave you out.
& patience is waiting for you!
imy maansxz D:
IMY!
read this womann.

see you on sunday FANNIE BESTIE:D
you soo hv to tell me about sunday.
must tell me!:D

im in sch,
yes, SECOND/LAST DAY:D
jyeah:D
meeting fannie & billie this friday.
& doing piercings, but i actually lost count.
hmm, i wna set up a P.BLOG:D
ahahah.
it'll be damn fun lah.
can rant like a fucking bitch there[:
tonight, gg for overnight prayer.
hmm, grandmama, IMY D':
i just love typing.
idk why[:
& my tummy is growling.


fannie, im sorry abt yst.
dont get angry k ?
pls tag if u ever read this.
i ♥ you hunneh!
[:


everyone's alw so freaking busy nowadays.
so busy they dont even hv time to reply to my msgs.
these frens i dn wna loose D:
like serious big time.


& some ppl shld just mind their own fucking business.
what i do dont concern you.
since you dont CARE anymore.
why bother screaming at me ?
oh fuck you.


sharul, i seriously dont get your effin drift lah.
TALK TO ME.
dont fucking ignore me.
now you just make me doubt you more & more.


i need a date!
im bored, like ALL the friggin time.


meeting prisusu darl & firrdaooss on thurs:D
preettyy handsome pppl[:
lets go cheenatownnn!:)

last night was terrible!

ahahahahah:D

aft reading cassie's p.blog, i feel so darn stupid.

lol.

imy cassie twinneh!

i seriously do.

i hvn't seen you in somewhat YEARS.

fannie sweetie, i was kinda shock when u said tht out of a sudden.

abt being there through death or life or smthg smthg.

i felt soo touched.:D

i felt like giving you a big big hug yst when i was leaving the mrt.

:D

ohoh fannie, if youre reading this, pls call me asap.

BILLIE BESTIE!

sigh, lets meet up on friday!

i seriously have ALOT ALOT of things to ask you.

dont worry, i'll walk w u through this shiatsxz[:

muaa!

now in sch stoning.

tuition later, zomg, SO TIRING.

so full of crap.

&& hv to stay in sch for 11 hrs.

for today & tmrw.

like wth ?

preparing for my sec3 camp.
WOW.

now i hv absolutely no interest in going.

zero.

four year strong is the best:D

so much for church friends.
so much for being as close to as FRIENDS lah.

okeh, today, CHURCH.
kept dozing off, idk why.
whole day was kinda boring i'd say.
&& all the friggin aching leg.
fannie agrees tooo.


again, im missing so many darn people right now.
no one knows how sensitive abt most stuff.
sigh.
& whats the use of calling people who dont bother answering or calling back ?

today was dead tiring.

slept less than 4 hrs the day before.

sigh.

went ard stinkapore.

was alright, im still tired!

& ive officially lost my voice thankyou.

im dead sick D:

puffy eyes!
argh!

*screams*

& now theres a gig at music garage.

big SIGH.

zomg.

i miss twinneh.

everyday i just think of her.

i ♥ her soo much! (in a non lesbo way)

but idk whats happened.

sigh, i just feel smthg wrong happened.

pls tell me what's happened cassie D:

i wna meet you up!

i promise i'll pay you back your money.

{took last night}

the same thing is happening again.

aft R & P.

now its D & L.

sigh, not like ya'll are gonna read anymore.

so yeh, whatever.

yst was okeh.

met fannie darling[:

the movie was awesome lah[:

kind edmund/edward/ed smthg hot hot HOT.

;D

walked to fareast.

to everyone, cathay to fareast is NOT far.

far is orchard to bugis/haji lane.

orchard to cityhall is still okeh for me :D

muaheheheheheh.

this sunday is soo gonna be a gay day maansxz.

& on wednesday, was FUN:D
i think.

niven, sorry for leaving you out!

ZOMG, sunday, we are soo not leaving you out.

teehee trasher & fannie gorewhore & niven nirvana.

hmm, im soo lazy to do piercings on sunday lah.

moolah! i need em' badly.

now i owe ppl money.

shiatsxz.

& to lina, CHEER UP!

you have meee;D

though we're not close.

& your dirwit is alw there for you!:D

zomg
BREAK LEG BREAK!
i command you to break.
all you've done is give me pins & needles
& friggin cramps.
not to mention TERRIBLE aches all over.
:D

zomg, pls go watch this.

http://www.godtube.com/view_video.php?viewkey=13a4a045cd290bc2ae2d

waiting for time to pass
with which seems so long.

talking to cassie twinnehh & david now[:
& meanie bottom.

today's sooo boring.
gg to clarke quay later.
so hv to get ready at 5.
which seems so far away D:

tmrw gg out!
sigh, w NO ONE.
thankyou.

I MET A NEW FRIEND:D

DDYYAANN!!!

teehee trasher!

:D
today was a lil fun yet boring.
AHA!
we didnt get to camwhore.
actually we had ALOT of time to do it[:
but, i felt so bare lah.
hair nvr do, makeup so fugly.
AHAHAH!
good night ♥ers.

hmm, today was alright.

when jamming w dillon & Shirin.

okeh, nvr go jamming w ur cousins.[x

aft tht, went to mac at funan.

tmrw, doing piercings.

piercees, BE PREPARED:D

muahahah.

imy fannie!

imy cassie!

im talking to adie now.

hello adie:D

im talking to fir.

he so moody maaansxz.

idk what to wear tmrw lehsxz.

BANGLES!

PIERCINGS!
PICCASSXZ!
maoww.

yst was my hardest goodbye.
sigh.
seeing the way my uncle acted.
it makes my heart ache D:
i miss you grandma.


now, talking to cassie & raman.
gah, woke up at six thirty just to come here for more prayer.
i cant be vegan, sigh.
thts pure suicide maaansxz.
sunday seems sooo long.
i miss cassie
i miss fannie
i miss prisusu
i miss everyone!
zomgzomgzomg.





i feel like blocking you again.
you're seriously bugging me.
though its only a few lines,
you sound so fucking pushy.
sigh.
piss of lah bitch.

I MUST BE VEGAN TILL FRI!



shiatsxz.

i miss you grandma.

why must you go at this time.

you left me a few mins ago.

i didnt even get to say goodbye.

you left me a few mins ago.

i didnt even get to hug you goodbye.

you left me a few mins ago.

you caused our whole world to tremble in agony.

you left me a few mins ago.

you didnt even give me enough time to prepare.

you left me a few mins ago.

in case ya'll still dont understand,

my grandmother just passed away a few minutes ago.

idk why i am even ON the computer.

well i can't go & bade my goodbyes to her either.

she was in the hospital for quite a while.

going in & out.

yst i saw my aunty cry, means smthg was wrong.

i didn't bother asking, cus she was too sad.

a few mins ago, SGH called.

asking me to bring down everyone, the whole family.

i called my mom, dad, aunty.

they called the rest.

than my mom told me NOT to go.

i argued w her.

& in the end she said yes.

but in a hasty angry tone.

i decided not to.

dad would flare up anws.

im being such a bitch blogging abt this.

im alw blogging abt everything.

as if i want everyone to know.

but whatever, this post is abt my grandma.

now saro aunty is crying.

she just makes me wanna cry more.

fuck it, im being such an unfilial grandaughter to be on

the computer blogging abt this, & actually hving the mood to do this shit.

im sorry grandma.

suddenly, im missing prisusu.

LOL.

see this my dear, IMY!

im missing many ppl too.

i miss cassie twinny.

i miss fannie dearest.

i havent seen any of them for a very very long time.

well maybe i hv, but i hvnt gone out with them in a long time.

if any of you see this, pls text meeeee!

i misses euu badly nehhx.

ppl i miss talking to over the phone.

aris.

sharul.

adie.

david.

stanley.

dec.

pls call mee.i miss euu too narhsx.

im feeling so hopeless right now.

idk why.

i miss allll my darlings!
i miss gg to cityhall with ya'll.

i miss the continuous question that flies ard.

"so, where we going?"

im listening to Sum41, fat lip.

i miss sum41 tooooo.

theyre so good.

have i changed?

am i acting like a friggin' poseur now?

i used to look like a terrible fugly boy last time in pri sch.

i thank God i realised how horrendous i was last time.

but now, i seem to change, alot.

lost alot of friends, gain alot of new ones too.

but i hate loosing old darlas.

i want my now besties&bestoes to stay & not go.

i <3>

during my india's trip.

i wore my skinnies, deafcon tee & my belt dangling behind.

teacher said i alw dressed as a tomboy.

like wth?

im FAR from tht.

i didnt knw what to where then.

now i seem so moodless.

idk why.

no wait, im sad.

am i?

am i supposedly waiting for a call?

haha.[:

Sunday seems sooo long.

sunday, pls come, fast.

i wna try out my new clamps![:

weixiong sonny, cheer up!

she's not worth it. really.

now im at cousin's hs stoning.

it's boring.

im not even welcomed here.

i just wanna go out now.

i just want to breathe.

i wanna go to cityhall w fannie bestest bestie.

just both of us, alone.

at cityhall, walking ard like goondus.

&i still have your bangle:D

i wanna go for the shoe spree with prisusu now.

i need shoes badly.

esp. cheap ones!

&&i still have your bangle:D

i wanna go ard singapore w cassie twinny NOW.

thats why i kept calling you dearie.

i want a big big hug!

&&&i still have your bangle:D

you 3 are like my ultimate darlings.

prisusu,though i dont talk to you much, imy.

cassie,i only been out w u like once?

or twice.

still,i wna go out more!
fannie,you seem to be in your own fairytale world now.

i feel so so extra.

i just wanna distant myself from you.

though it's only been 2 dates.

like just let you be happy with your prince charming, khai.

but its so hard.

cus ily!

this post is so emotionless.

no wait,it's so emotional.

and and, im crying now(again)

p.s/ all the love & misses are all in a non-lesbian way.

edited.}

im a freaking sore loser.

i cant stand it anymore.

it hurts.

the pain stings so badly.

im not trying anymore.

im giving up.

im giving up aft 14june.

i swear i am.

no matter what i do, no one appreciates.

it's too ugly to be accepted anw.

im a horrible person.