mom found out about my tongue piercing.
yes she walked away when she saw it after whacking me on my arm.
alot of drama took place.
i couldnt take it out cus' the ball bearing was too tight.
cried like a mad dog in the car.
she too cried.
than, all my wrong doings slapped me in the face.
she told dad.
he even wanted me to get a haircut.
of course, my phone was taken away.
so, i quietly took out my septum & naval.
byebye.
i promised her i wont disfigure my body anymore.
& this time, im meaning it.
im really really sorry i did all tht to you.
in the car, i finally understood the pain you were going through.
im sorry for being such a terrible daughter you would call a delinquent.
i even tried running away when she stopped at a&e.
than she called me to stop.
i felt like just killing myself!
i hated myself BEYOND HATE.
sigh.
now, i just cant wait for everything to subside,
& i get my phone back.
i really felt like running away.
right now, i have to make myself hate piercings.
idk how, but i eventually will.
God save me, im begging you. D:
right now, mom thinks im crazy & of course,
she's talking behind my back to allll my relatives.
saying what an evil child i am.
how rebelious i am.
how crazy i am.
what the fuck can i do. (:
MA'AROF.
im sorry D:
please forgive me.
im sorry for hurting you so much.
i really dunno what to say.
i still have yet to call you.
sigh.
mom's taking leave tmr & wed.
fuckit.
i really want you to understand what im going through.
im sorry D:
sigh!
idk what the hell im even doing now D:
im really sorry i cant text.
goodbye, (L)
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im giving up on life.
im giving up on DREAMS.
im giving up on what i want.
im giving up on my family.
im giving up on studies.
im giving up on love.
im giving up completely.
im throwing away my dignity.
(if i actually had any)
i want to receive surprises on my birthday.
what happened to love letters, scented with perfume.
& pretty sunflowers?
or rare black roses.
what happened to whispers of i-love-yous.
what happened to hand-made gifts of love?
what happened to the oldies?
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