SCHOOL IS A BITCH.
sigh.
i cant take it.
soon it be 12 hours of school i can cry.
why is o level so easy yet we have so much to memorise?
it's not like we're gonna memorise PERIOD.
it's gonna be like a week shortterm thingy.
like fck it.
and 1 mth for 5pages+fp?
like fck yeh, i have noo freaking time.
i swear it's impossible.
and if it IS possible, it prob not be perfect enough.
and imma screw up my prelims.
and not get to do DPA.
sigh.
i wanna rant my ass off.
but i dont have anyone to rant to.
in result of being single.
fck this single shit.
i want a fat boyfriend who lets me smoke.
sigh.

MOTHER,STOPFCKINGKILLINGME!!

and im uber happy for you alice and izuan (: <3

add my new msn!
marshmellowsmyhero@live.com

dharshy: fanniemyheronehszxzx.

SEE THIS FANNIE:D
iloveyoutoobellyvellymucheebestflenddddd! C:
i hope you read this.

FANNIEBBY,
i love you as my best friend.
remember best friend day?
17 november.
i cancelled the order.
cause i wanna get something more special.
you truely speak out for MEE.
like.
ugly fat me.
again, YOURE MY INSPIRATION:D
youre my nutella,
my hero,
my best friend,
my sister,
my listening ear who doesnt speak,
my happy pill.
and so much more(:
i know you probably treat me differently.
like, you stop telling me your problems,
we haven't met since,FOREVER.
all that yade yade youknowwhat.
i know you're understanding.
and you even accept it if i throw my temper at you.
you're the longest bestfriend i ever had.
and definitely the BEST one;D
i hope you realise how much you mean to me.
muah!
okthxbye.

THANKYOU FAD FOR ACCOMPANYING ME TOMORROWWW:D

dad, please dont screw this up for me ):

SOO.PREETTTYYYY:D
TYVM ALEX BUBBLES! (L)
















taken from best f's blog.
"fat girls are fucking human so guys who say that they dont go for looks and all that bullfucks can go to fucking hell. cause obviously ALL, i literally mean ALL guys go for looks. i hate guys like that. what do you doods get from getting a hot girlf? what? nice to fuck? nice to look? nice to fucking grope? to hell with you fags.
all you guys care is about looks. why cant you pussies get a life and get a girlf who has an awesome heart rather than awesome features?
its a bonus if you get both but what if you only get a girl who is ugly as fuck but has a heart of gold? would you let her go just cause she's ugly and fat?
if its a YES, ima kill you bullfuckers.
if its a NO, a round of applause for you. all guys should be like that.

so guys, dont be picky when it comes to girls. accept them for who they are. looks arent important unless you're some fucker with a super huge ego the size of the whole universe combined -____-'

guys who m.i.a from the girls after the first meet up just cause of her looks/size, IMA KILL YOU FAGS. people like you dont deserve to live.

cheebye fags/pussies/pervs/bullfucks."

READ IT, SWALLOW IT, BREATHE IT!
ILYBESTF.

THINGS IMMA DO AFTER O LEVELS BITCH.

1. do my hair, dye it jet black/ blonde.
2. go SHOPPING!
3. hang out with everyone and i mean EVERYONE.
4. hopefully i lose fckg weight by then.
5. do a lot of shopping.
6. go out for dinners with friends.
7. have a belated birthday chalet for mua.
8. have a proper fannie dharshy day, i miss those. sigh.
9. get a monroe.
10. have a garage sale.
11. if garage sale not enough, have garage sale II.
12. go boy hunting with fannie(if she's still single).
13. do christmas shopping.
14. go fckg nuts.
15. sheeshaaa(LIKE FINALLY LAH)
16. make nuu friends and hang out with nuu friends.
17. screw my mrajok-ness. HAHAHAHAH.
18. hang out with era, blow bubbles, smoke like a train, and throw stones!
19. just have fun like i never had fun before, well i haven't.

doing blog hopping, i feel utterly jealous everyone's happily attached, everyone's having fun at gigs or hanging out as a matter of fact. fannie, you're right. i'm love desperate. sigh,what is wrong with meeeee. right now, i just need a study buddy from yishun who loves to study and gossip, with MUA. any takers? um, more friends who do nice for me toooo:D i am fat. I AM FAT. hahah.

www.myspace.com/aneveningwiththeplague

check em out :D

STUDYYYY.
okthxbye.

I WANNA HAVE MY PLUS SIZED FRIENDS:D
any takers?
it will make me very very happy i swear (:
imsickoftheskinnyfagswhomakefunofthefatonesandthinkitsOHSOCOOL.
shove it up your ass for god's sakes.

WAKE UP DHARSH.
sigh.

i just realise i seriously need to go for some therapy sheet.
sigh.
FANNIE B, LINA C, TIARA, SHERYL, JASLIN, ERA, ALICE, PEEWEE, JULIE, CASSIE, PRIS, SYAZA, WAWA, VERON. if you're reading this, please text mee.
):
i reeeally wanna hang out soon!

fannie i know im desperado now.
sigh.
you just won't understand how FAT feels like.
i really want to mia.
my phone's dead, so is myspace, so is everything.
like, it wouldn't even make a damn difference if i was mia or still alive in egypt or something.
im insecure and you know it.
you even witnessed one of those instances or situations where me being fat becomes the whole issue.
it really stings so badly i cry for days.
please dont make assumptions.
i dont say anything doesn't mean im happy.
and, i know you have your problems.
and i miss you telling them to me!
please treat me like a real best friend,
i still love you bestie.

g, im FAT.
deal with it.
i fell for you and i fell hard.
well too bad for me.
now comes the heartache. ):

era honey, cheer up.
if he's not meant to be yours, he's not meant to be yours.
i know you still ache inside. but you have soo many other good people around you!
the best way is, delete him.
delete stuff that remind you of him, or just hide them somewhere else.
after a few months, you can take them out, and you wont feel a thing.
smile my darling.
lets hang out soon!
think of the henna and the throwing of stones and bubbles.
lots and lots of bubbles!

and to dudes out there, dont gimme bullshit that "oh looks dont matter, we only friends what"
all that motherfucking bullshit. i look different from my pictures. so if you say that sentence or somewhat the same, you better keep to your fucking word. im sick of always being ditched or ignored. eh i have fcking feelings too. i dont give a damn how big your egos are. if it is, than don't fucking ask me out. _|_

i miss you hotcakes, sorry ):
okay thxbye.

imma mia, period.
so if anyone wna contact me, just text yeh.
i'm over with meetups and hangout and shit like that.
i have my reasons.
well for one, i have the shittiest attitude and i think jealousy is gonna eat me up before i can breathe.
another is, it's cus of some people.
sigh.
whatever, imma explain my reasons properly when im so called back.
goodbye bitches.

sigh.
i have no rights to say in this.
but please try to understand him.
dont make use of him.
he's even so nice to actually wait for hours.
dude, dont take fucking advantage.

my whole family is driving me deeper into the ground.
fuck it.