hello to nobody.
yeh i feel so much of a loser that idk if anyone still reads this.
i mean it.
yes i self proclaim myself, a loser.

12.11.2009- outing with lulu syg (:
13.11.2009- outing with era honbunbun (:
17.11.2009- best friend day with, best friend. (:

thats all so far.
so please lina chan, alice chainsaw, eisha bby, wawa syg, veronini, alin, asyraf, liya honey, heed, jaslin, sheryl babe, jenna, juliah, julie muffins, khai peewee, laulau, lynette!, maha, prisusu, sasa rabia, tiara, shar, syed, taufiq, zyzy, zack, yakuzi, syad, and everyone who i promisd to hang out with after o's.
i know some here, i have never talked to since, forever.
but still, i wanna hang out with ya'll after o's.
pretty please?



alice and uan look so adorable tog,
with those big big eyes. (:

era honey bun bun, yes im anticipating that boyf/guyf hunting day with the hennas and blowing bubbles and chainsmoking. pretty please dont torture yourself anymore. he doesnt care. honestly, he doesnt. from my point of view, he doesnt care. no matter what excuse he gives you now, its just an EXCUSE, it aint true. he can say i lost my phone or smthg. but he is just lying. i know im mean saying this but he doesnt care. so why waste your efforts on him? ive been there yet not gotten over it yet. one step at a time. like gab always say, smile, the whole world wants to see your teeth bby (: hoohaa.

lulu, thankyou for being soooo nice to me.
even if i give you that heck care attitude.
youre such a darling to me and i love you bby (:

sonny is so nice to me though i just started talking to him.
he's my ff&f (:

arief, you're a true friend i swear.
tyvm (:
even if you cant make it later.


i don't wanna say i've given up.
cus' i haven't.
i even stopped buying starbucks no matter how bad the craving gets.
i've been straightedge for half a month already.
fckg record.
i want a guy friend who treats me special.
not over text.
in reality bitch.
sigh.
i just miss being hugged.
i miss holding hands.
im at my most crucial year and i just need someone badly now.
but screw this desperation.
bestf says i should enjoy singlehood.
whats there to fcking enjoy??
sigh.