so farhan and i are ok now.
yes that's very good news for me thankyouverymuch.
and i've been studying with dan for two consecutive days.
i reeeallly like studying with him.
cos' he's so nice and we can smoke together.
and farhan and dan and i are going out to celebrate my belated birthday and i CANNOT wait :D
i swear NOTHING can ruin it, and nothing will.

no mood to study anymore.
i suck bad.
sigh ):

F, you said you returned the damn book.
wth dude, stop your crap and just return.
you're not paying the fine, i am.
and it ain't about the money.
it's about your bloody irresponsibility.
i know you won't give me my ten bucks back.
so just return the damn book!
why the hell is it so hard to do?
seriously dude, it's like a bloody brainless thing to do.
if you don't wanna return the book,
than meet me and i can return it myself.
you're being bloody unfair ffs.

ive been blog hopping.
i just realised girls actually boast about how many guys they hang out with.
or how fast they change boyfriends.
and they misuse the three words ILOVEYOU
you give girls a bad reputation.

why wont singapore just sink now.

i want Os to end NOW.

i wanna go out now.

i miss your voice, why wont you pick up ):

fcuk love.
i still dont believe in it.

i really love this girl <3

things i really want (to do) :
1. shisha naaooooo.
2. form an acoustic two piece band.
3. a boyfriend (yes despo)
4. shopping.
5. new wardrobe.
6. burn up alllll books and papers relating to studies.
7. organize a chalet.
8. shopping dates.
9. lose 15kg.
10. get max 13 points for O levels.
11. go out on a date with Y.
12. hang out with tiara, dhabitha, linli, sibel, fadilah, julie and moreee.
13. stop my emotional drama bullshit.
14. get into NP's FMS. or TP.

i dont wanna think anymore.
i've english paper in a few hours.
i've to do another seven drawings of elements for arts by today.
i do not have time.
why?
cos now i'm studying for english.
and after that i have maths tuition at night.
i need my maxim and Y now. ):

i really like you Y. (L)

IM FAT. look.
stop telling me im not, cos i know i am.
and if you still think im not fat, ty (:


P:S// i really miss your voice baby :C

happy deepavali (:
i think it's probably the only time alll my relatives come together.

'O' levels is in five days.
not including practical, nine.

when i looked at a physics paper,
i swear i couldn't answer a single question.
i'm gonna repeat O levels, i just know it.

i shall not post anymore till four weeks later. and i was born a hxc loner.

saturday, thanks A.
thanks a lot.
i feel like the dumbest asshole.
thank you.
you're a typical mfer.
fck you and your words.

sunday, thanks mom.
you made me do errands on my birthday.
but you cheered me up in the end.
ily <3

whats the price of being obese and ugly?
HAPPINESS, that's what.

i hate 11 october, i hate my birthday.
today felt nothing close to my birthday.

can't wait for tomorrow (:
i hope nothing screws up.

this is bull shit

i can't have a life without my mother stalking me.
she called me a slut, cause i sweared a lot.
thanks mom.
please leave me alone.

i think i'm going to delete facebook soon.
this is called being under pressure.

when people have their O levels.
their mothers are at their nicest.
they give them the freedom they need.
they do not pressurize them.
they do not scold them.
they do not blame them and bring them down.
they do not say mean stuff.
they do not they do not they do not.
but my mom thinks it's okay to pressurize me.
cos' im having my most crucial year, she must come and do this to me.
it's not making me work harder mother,
it's making me feel more shitty and horrible and miserable.
YES MISERABLE.
why can't you just be a nice mother and let me be.
you think the way you treat me is ok?
HELL NO.
if i wanna mess around, let me be.
i am NOT a slut.
so don't call me that.
i always wish you'd try a little harder to understand.
why can't you?
your mother never did this to you.
why must you do it to me?
in what way do you think this will help?
please STOP IT!
if you don't want to see your daughter turn into a hardcore delinquent.
back off.
back off now.
leave me alone.
i'm not stupid.
i know how important O levels is.
stop saying i don't show that this is important to me.
i don't have to show you anything.
you pick the slightest fight with me.
why?
just cause you wanna vent your anger out?
please stop it mother.
please.
just leave me alone.

heartless boys with no balls = _|_

FNE & FARH. return me what's mine.
why do you not show me respect.
who are you to make me feel this way.
am i that dead to you?
you took what's mine and you have no intentions of returning it back.
why the fuck? i have no clue.
what must i do to make ya'll give me back my things?
i'll delete everything that's related to you.
i'll burn it if i have to. just please return me my money and things.
yeh im materialistic, yeh im money minded.
satisfied?
you treat me as if i dont exist.
you make me feel so worthless, so much like a nobody.
you make me cry all the time and you still continue ignoring me.
i told you i'll leave you alone, remember?
just give me back my things ffs, please.

" Yes you are fat. You eat what you want yet you're complaining.
Thats why guys avoid you. You complain too much when you have everything and are too freaky for girlfriend or even friend material.
I guess thats why maarof left you.
Friends come after exams for you but whatever so yeah. "

-fannie / wana/ kiddie / gabbie dropkick\gore

thanks a million.
i thank god we are over.
sooner or later, you'd have shot me with a real fucking gun.

URGENT

next week onwards;

THURSD: 4 pm to 9 pm
FRID: 1 pm to 5 pm // 8 pm to 10+ pm
SATURD: 3 pm to 10+pm
SUND: 10 am to 8 pm
(my free days)

i reeallly need help in POA, physics chemistry combine and maybe literature/social studies
i am in need of serious help in these subjects.
anyone willing to tutor me till end of that O level paper?
pretty please.
pm me.
msn: marshmellowsmyhero@live.com

i made two new friends :3
i'm sorry babycakes, i doubt i can break fast with you,
though i really wanna.
i'll bake you yummy coconut cupcakes,
and we'll go shopping and guy hunting in less than two months (Y)
i am bored in arts room.
and i have to finish up by tomorrow.
i'm skipping all night classes this week.
and i've been looking for company for dinner, no kidding.
okthxbye.

why the hell do you enjoy making me cry.
am i a joke to you all?
why must you toy with my feeings?
do you realise how badly your actions hurt me?
saying fuck you won't mean a thing.
cos' it doesn't affect you.
cos' i'm a fucking nobody to you.

true enough, i have been trying to avoid the truth.
i kept telling myself, 'he still likes me, i know he does'
after what julie told me, i called, you answered.
you sounded as if i'm a nobody to you.
you couldn't reply any of my messages.
but you could go to bugis.
why the hell are you doing this to me?
you tried making me feel guilty, you tried implying i'm at fault.
i knew well enough what you were doing,
but i chose to ignore it.
because i still liked you.
and i liked that you still liked me.
how fucking stupid i was.

i don't wanna say i hate you,
cos' my reasons are stupid.
you don't like me, who am i to say anything.
i can't force you.
but i hate you enough, because you toyed with my feelings.
just cause i am FAT, i don't deserve fucking respect?
just cause i am FAT, you can treat me this way?

you ain't the first guy who has ever done this to me.
i swear if i add up in total all the stmf and those who made me feel this way because i am FAT,
it can reach up to more than 50.

cause i am FAT, i am treated like a clown.
cause i am FAT, i am dissed.
cause i am FAT, guys try getting RID of me after meeting me?
cause i am fat cause i am fat cause i am fat.

you know what, you have made me cry for the last time.
i am not ready for any fucking guys.
cause they are all just a bunch of fucking liars.
they love saying "OH LOOKS DON'T MATTER, I ONLY GO FOR THE HEART"
who the fuck do you think you're trying to kid?
who the fuck do you think you are?
what is with that fucking like?
a big FUCK YOU to all ASSHOLES out there.
i know i'm not mature enough cos' i'm blogging this way.
and you know what, i have every fucking right to,
cos' i'm only 16 and i know shit about love.
wait, IT DONT FUCKING EXIST.
to all BOYS with no fucking balls out there, stay away, get lost, go burn your sausages for all the shit i care.
it's cause of people like YOU,
people like ME go anoerexic, bullimic, taking slimming pills, and kill themselves slowly and painfully, if i had a choice, i would extinguish people like you, i will make ya'll pay every single dime for the shit you made girls go through.
i've deleted 90% of the dudes in my contact list.
it's a start.
people like you make me feel fuckd all over.
add on to my parents and friends and fucking problems.
committing suicide would be nothing.
if you're pissed about this post, text me personally.

fcuk you and your rubbish, seriously.

meeting julie in ten:3

im with sibelly now.

weeee.

okay bubyeee. :D