BAA BAA BLACK SHEEP !

i've been going on about this baabaa thing
LOLs.

fannie's such a sweetie pie:D

so nice.

tmr going jamming!

fee's following:D

3-4 with broken mask

meeting travis at cityhall mrt station.

i don't really seem to like it now.

gah..

i'm nervous

hope they don't mind.

2-4 with fannie's band:D

go ther for fun:D

aft that, go to hyatt hotel to help cousin

so yeah..

friday is a good day !

&now i needa copy down th lyrics for paramore's song

ROAR.

today has been th utmost boring day.

]:

daddy's coming back

i dunno what time

hope he doesn't come back till like, late.

noe webcamming with conan&maq.

going jamming on frida[:

broken mask.

yay

i found me a band:D

visa said he's gonna teach me how to play th guitar.

but he didn't seem so keen on tht

so maybe not going to boon's house on friday.

was so happy just now

till conan told me i was acting cute.

wth..

now my mood is monotone.

lazy to go for meeting this friday.

have to look aft grandma anw.

:D

monotone day

as always.

i feel like horrible poo.

&i dunno why.

so God save me.

roar.

haven't posted since, forever.

gah.. so much crap has been going on

conan has found me 2 bands to join[:

thankyou my fren,

&he's joining with me:D

but th band stuff ain't confirmed

i scratched my nose&my piercing fell out

with lots blood TWICE in a row.

gah..

i managed to hurt someones feelings so bad

i feel like SHIT now]:

i brought my dog to th groomers yst&she ended

up having th worst hair cut EVER.

i have yet to buy my sch books

&sch uni(when they're out)

i plan stuff but don't follow them

gah..

i just watched this video of animal killing masscare.

fck those mutha fking china bitches.

they kill th animal when it's alive

they chop of their legs

they skin them alive

they step on their necks&heads till they DIE

they throw them around&beat them with huge ugly sticks till they die.

&they say th more torture for th animal,th more tender th meat is

what kinda fucking rule is that ???
why dont they just BURN IN HELL!

i wish God would skin them alive

beat them till they die.

tie their necks to a branch&hit them like they were pinnatas.

gah..

my eyes are now so red from all th crying

i really <3>

yesterday went job hunting.
gah..
yamaha, 17-21
carls jr, 15 above.
veeko, 16 above
levis, 16 above
anything to do with clothes, 16 above
pizza hut, taken]:
went to plaza sing to find a job.
i don't like to work at mac, kfc.
low pay, bad environment.
only can work in th kitchen]:
gah..
today, maybe going to orchid country club to find job.
:D

gah..

last night i was so darn "emo"

i dunno why

i cried non-stop

thinking bout my parents

last night when i heard their laughter, i felt so odd.

like a third wheel

they were in th room with my sister.

i actually could feel the cold heart turn big bright red

whenever i was/am around them

all i hear is screams&shouting

when i wasn't there. i can/could hear laughter&joy.

i feel so left out&alone&unloved.

i'm constantly expressing my feelings&gratitude to them,

but they don't seem to care much.

sometimes i just feel like i don't belong in my family&

it's better if ran away from home.

gah..

now i feel like crying]':

i guess no one ever reads this dumb blog anws

i just created it for th pleasure of wasting my "precious" time.

AHHHH!!

i forgot to tell Gab i couldn't go for SK.

cus' of some family thing.

he called me last night.

he sounded darn mad.

i asked mommie again she said YES

i was like sooo happy(:

but den when i called Gab again he said they had enough ppl

&tht tht was my chance.

gah..

i felt like sh_t.

sigh,

just hope they'll let me resource for June's camps]:

i'm so irresesponsible]:

taking arts combi

decided to write bout this now since i dont think i did before

lit elec+ss.

POA

physics+chem combine

arts&design

all th subs i wanted to take:D
[except for science, it's alr pre fixed):]

so yeah, that's all
:D

PARENTS!!

both parents found out bout my piercing.
i know they have th rights to scream their head off
dad kept repeating over&over again till my ears bled dry
he said th reason i pierced my nose was cus' of my malay fren
WTF???!
that's fcking BULLSH_T.
he himself doesn't even know i EXIST. who is he to critisize my friends?
my parents make my life a living hell
they hardly know. wait. they DONT BOTHER wanting to know more about their own daughter.
they hardly talk to me unless it's something bad.
i only APPEAR in their life when i did something wrong
when i'm fine they just treat me as if i'm DEAD.
even when i say hi, they'll ignore my every word.
out of no where, they're all sstrict. grounding me, confiscating my phone. blablabla.
i feel so fcked up.
i have unreasonable parents who hate me.
&im supposed to rejoice about this shit.
when i try talking to them they just walk away.
theyre never there when i need them
they always think i'm doing something bad&never anything good.
to them, i'll always be a bad apple.
i just wish i was born in the right family
they dont even LOVE me for christ sake
i cant even tell them how i feel
if i do, my dad will go screaming "BULLSHIT this BULLSHIT that"
fck, i have no place in this so called family.
God might as well just shoot me down, i don't wanna give a fck anymore.
my life is too full of shit.

oolala~

today was a normal day[:

went to Lisa's house ard 10.30am

she was still sleeping

sandra stayed over(:

wait for her to get up&get ready.

she's my hott smexy mama:D

went to northpoint.

bought a spear&2barbels for my lips

went to get my nose piercing too:DD

gah.. didn't hurt as i thought as it would.

cost me 8 bucks.

my barbels&spear cost tenbucks

in th end didn't get my lip piering

AHH!
I <3>

lols[;

came back ard 4.

on sun going fir sk briefing[;

hope parents allow me to go.

mon-thurs[:

peter decided to give me another chance

THANKYOU PETER!!:DD

ciao-wee!~

gah..

today is like any other ordinary day

i haven't eaten th whole day

only drink

&&i'm still not hungry? LOL:D

woke up around nine plus

leonard never replied.. as usual

mom left. waited for dad to wake up&go.

switched on the computer after tht

why is my life so full of crap&boredom??

AHHH!!

mom&dad's going to m'sia tmr morn-sat aft

some prayer thing. i wanna go too.

home is a place called prison.

it's too boringg.

so i guess tmr i'll go out with Lisa till as long as i can:D

tmr i'm gonna get my nose piercing.

i just hope i don't cry like a baby cus' of th pain

i'm scared of pain, but i'm addicted to it.

lame sh_t.

met boyfriend on monday.

we were so darn quiet.

when we sat down he kept fiddling with his phone

i just stared away.

he didn't utter a word.so i followed.

when he was about to go home than he started to talk.

okay.

he was super duper sick]:

yst he almost fainted cus' he was super duper uber sick&he was still working.

sigh, i seriously miss him now. so so soo, badly]':

hope he gets well soon.

any other ordinary random day

:D

alrights. morning, woke up around 9 plus.

first thing i did was use the comp:D

lols

can't help it.

used it till lunch

den watch television around half an hour.

till now:D

LOL!

sigh, not going for lime sonic bang bang BANG!

]]:

mommie don't let me stay over a fee's house.

wth

&she says it some RULE in th house that we can NEVEr ever stay over at other people's place. fck it.

dumb sh_t.

gonna go to korea from 16-23dec

gonna miss MY own event.

gawd, things can NOT get any worst.

i'm missing deafcon8 too. WTF!!

stupid crap.

but i still must enjoy i suppose.

BAABAABLACKSHEEP~