with Bitha now.

i've missed her very very much ):

now i need to pee.

baibai

i wish i knew someone from RP more than a friend.
i just don't like the idea of Friends anymore.
i mean true they're there for you.
but sometimes i need a little love.
right?
this school is full of couples
why am i still dwelling on this whole couples issue?
fuck get over it la dharshy.
someone just slap me.
it sucks to be alone after school.
sitting in one corner thinking.
sucks to be sitting beside someone you think you like,
while he/she likes some other chic and sees you just as a fucking F R I E N D.
fuck the world.
fuck my pessimistic attitude.
i hate being alone.
think about it.
after school, you get to meet that special him/her
and you both just cuddle in one corner.
and rant and bitch, but at the same time hug and love.
and stay at that spot for hours, just enjoying each other's presence.
no, not mutual love, but more than that.
it beats sitting here right now, staring out watching happy couples.
i can't embrace solitude as much as i thought i could.
yes i'm weak
i'm a fucking weakling.
Can i help it?
no, i can't.
i hate, being alone.

my blog is never happy.
haha, who gives a fuck

you make me sad, can we not know each other five years ago?

maths is driving me fucking crazy
__

www.formspring.me/dharshushu

i feel alone being dateless :/
my real date don't take me seriously.
sigh.
hello world :)

grandmother's in the hospital ):
sigh.

i think i need someone to hang out wiv everyday after school, asap.

anyone in RP up for it? :/

for the next three years. think carefully ok (:

i'm afraid of falling for that dude.
wtf?

gig next sunday.
im nervous shit. haven't even memorized the lyrics D:

sudden craving for smoking.

mmmm

{RESTART ACOUSTIC}

DO COME DOWN TO SUPPORT:D

ATSs FIRST GIG

090510; SUNDAY

1500-2000

CHAPTER 6

5$/6$

*have to sell the tickets by this saturday ):

well this blog has been dead for the longest time.
A* is gone.
and i think i'm losing L*
well she don't seem like the type interested in starting a relationship wimme.
right? :/

school has been, different.
in a good way.
the people are awfully nice :3
and the breaks seem longer than the class itself.
and everyday's a different module
i think the easiest was when stanley stayed in ubin
HAHAHA.

S has been like a best friend to me here.
it's nice hanging out with him.
i still remembered how he used to bully me so badly, i felt like breaking down to cry.
HAHA, so much for being a happy boyszxszxszxSzxZ.

A is damn nice la i swear.
hahaha, why no malay boys D:

i miss you, sigh.

@dirtyfangs' work place now.

weeee

COME DOWN TO GIRAFFE FROM NEXT WEEK ONWARDS, TY.

as of last night, debt increased.
as of yesterday @ 1800 hours, i am JOBLESS.
today, stay home, stone.
or go to Esplanade, or go to Northpoint to help Miss Evans with maths/arts.
tomo, go fee's house.
sat, go out with an old friend (:
tadaaaaaa.

i've my reasons for leaving.

so far, only one's noticing.

i pray they don't realise.

can tell someone pissed/dislike me.
haha.
big deal -.-
i ain't sucking up to your ass.

couples everywhere.
i shall not dwell so much on being alone.
haha, who am i kidding!
anyone going for total chaosssssss.

Chinese New Year. Pfft

every year, chinese new year gets more and more, mundane.

people stop coming.

the atmosphere dies slowly.

Why do you even bother coming?

just to save face?

you barely call this a reunion dinner.

COME ON.

stop lying to yourself.

do any of you bother coming on the eve of new year, for reunion dinner?

do any of you, pray for ah gong?

remember when he passed, every single one of you said

you'd come more often to visit ah ma.

HAH, bullocks.

reunion dinner is only amongst a small group of us.

steam boat, and talk about girl stuff.

what's after that? mahjong? then? over.

that goes for new year's itself too.

so what, now ya'll just waiting for ah ma to pass on as well?

THEN, ya'll will start showing your faces?

i just really loathe these family reunions.

when everyone comes.

ya'll just sit in one corner.

or sit amongst your family members.

might as well save your time.

don't bother coming.

i'm having so much bottled up anger.

about my family.

about everything.

i don't like reunions.

i don't like being with the family.

cancer sticks are my only companion.

they're the only something that will always be there for me.

you really want me out of the house i'll get the fuck out.
leave me alone.
dont call me either.
i'm always the one giving you stress.
right?
some DAUGHTER i am.
blame your stress and sickness on me.
fine.
say what you want.
just cause he was/isn't you treating you right.
blame everything on me
the blackest sheep of the family.
no, amongst EVERY teenager you know.
im the worst.
im seriously done with every single shit you throw at me.
leave me the fuck alone.

sucks to be me.

mmm, i just feel so bloody sensitive.
sensitive to be around couples.
sensitive to SEE couples.
im just too much. i know. sigh
sucks to be me.

sucks to be me

i hate it when i like someone, he dont feel the same way
i hate it when i like someone, that person suddenly disappears though it's been only a few days
i hate it when i like someone, that person lies to me.
i hate it when i like someone, he ignores and ditches me just like that.
seriously, why the fuck is this happening to me.
i feel like crying.
i hate being lonely.
i hate feeling so alone.
i hate this fucking feeling.
no im not going to fucking cry
i hate staying at home.
coz its the most lonely pathetic thing in my life right now.
i dont think i can permanently quit smoking.
coz smoking is my only companion.
even friends disappear after a while.
right?
im just being a serious pessimist and hating every damn thing about life.
wait, i have no fcuking life.
(Y)

come home, first thing get slapped.
thanks, thanks a lot mama.

you are an ifatuation.
all i said was 'i think i'm falling for you'
sigh.
i regret.
you're just different.
well to me you seem that way.
i'm sorry i'm clingy.
i can't help it.
i need a boyfriend who's clingy like me.
but not too clingy.
one who shows he cares not just by words.
but definitely by actions.
this is why i fear getting into a relationship.
i swear a date would do just fine.
but too bad for me i guess.

Rush n Flush was good.
(:
someone ask me out, im veh bored.
everyday work equals no life.
i wanna work at Chilli.
mmmmmm.
im contemplating getting dermal anchoring.
:3

damn i hope this 3.2k is going to work.
lest BYEBYE 3.2k
i really need this change big time ):