FIRE IN THE HOLE
06/12/09; sunday
2PM till late
6$/7$
anyone wanna go?
pm me.

yesterday's gig was fun.
i paid six bucks just to hear LR's first song and two of Blindfold Hero's songs.
haha.
cool or what.
i've got lots of shit on my mind and i feel like screaming it out to the world but the world won't listen.

HI PEOPLE, IM BACK:D
i really wanna watch these movies in order
1. NEW MOON
2. 2012
3. the christmas carol
4. mr fantastic fox.

please ask me out someone.
i just came back from Bintan.
i need social intercourse.
someone call me nao please.
and no, no pictures, too lazy.
weather's a bitch
i love you ATV.

few things today.
1. IM GOING BINTAN TOMORROW. SO HARRRPEEEE:D
2. i wish i had a job that took up 6 days of my week.
3. ATS is going stale soon. Why?
4. There's just WAY too much drama in my friend's lives.
5. The telemarketing job i got, meh.
6. I need a new phone, serious shit.

1}
yay, bumblegums (:

2}
honestly, i can screw up my social life and blame it on job.
but that just be, wrong.

3}
sigh, what's happening ):

4}
i'm still viewing from a third person's perspective.

5}
It pays only seven.
or should i try out the one at Recreation Club?

6}
My HTC is annoying the shit outta me.


people who i need to hang out with.
1. Asswipe & Fannie.
2. Lina.
3. Tiara & Julialah.
4. Veronini.
5. Lynette.
6. Sheryl.
7. Fadilah.

MONOTONOUS.

i'm used to the fact that people hide things from me.
i'm tired of over-reacting.
& i love french toast. (L)

To : Dharsh sweetheart
Dharsh cupcakes, I sincerely apologize abt the last 28 hours ago.. i didnt manage to reply ur msgs or pick up ur calls..i received 19 miss calls and several messages after i get down the bike.. i knw ur really disappointed..sad, cheerless, dejected..=\.. i'm really sorrie..='\...


Tdy i knw u felt shitty coz of something.. i'm really trying my best.. i did promise you to ask you out.. that day will come soon.. im serious.. but i just need you to understand of what im going through right now.. i'm really trying my best to make time... schedules are hectic.. i just want you to knw that, no matter how busy i am, i'll still be thinking of you.. even if i dont reply ur msgs for some reasons, i do still have you in my mind.. pls trust me.. I really like you and i'm gonna show the world how much you mean to me.. Please stick with me cupcakes, please.. i'm really sorrie for the absence of attention this few weeks.. pls remember that ur in my heart sweetie.. even my friends knw that i like you alot..& i just want you to knw that i'm starting to like you more and more everyday.. those acts u play just to get my attention, really awakens me.. i will try my best.. I promise.. Please wait for me, and dont leave me.. ='\.. I need you cupcakes..! ='(





i felt beyond contented reading this.
my heart melted.
babe, im sorry for the way i always act.
every single night.
xoxo's

dabelew tee eff.

seriously cant believe guys these days.
if you're attached, just admit it.
don't lie, even when the truth is laid on for you on the table.
moreover, you choose to cheat on another girl's feelings.
wake up, seriously.


yesterday was fun.
met belle and afee and went somewhat, job hunting.
made with love didn't call us back ):
but Helga seemed nice.
Belle love, don't worry. i'll always be there for you.
you've got two rebounds >:)
but seriously, think of what i said.
ily to bits and pieces (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AFEE.

to Y ♥

read this, read this clearly.
stop judging me.
stop assuming what im thinking, what my type is.
i like you, the end, full stop.
i have no idea why you like doing what you do to me.
it's not funny, it just makes me feel much worst.
fcuk my type, they dont exist.
only in my head, yes.
what must i say for you to stop treating me this way.
you're giving me false hope over and over again.
yeh this is fcuking karma, but im living with it.
you say you dont wanna scratch my feelings one bit.
right now, youre not scratching it, your disfiguring it.
you dont wanna ask me out, you dont wanna talk to me over the phone.
i do stupid things just to get your attention, but that never is enough.
what must i do please tell me.
im going on my knees and begging,
stop treating me this way.
i've secretly liked you for the longest time.
i really do not know what you want me to do anymore ):

cosmoprof, here i come.
maxim, wait for me baby.

attitude reconstruction surgery.

something is seriously wrong with me.
dammit why the hell such bloody angst.
syaz im sorry.
let's forget the whole thing ok?
and D's right, i give people false hopes.
sigh ):
i wish i could just turn lesbo now and go into hiding.
no, i'm not running away from my problems.
i'm just, putting everything on hold.
again,
syaz sweetie, im sorry.

& sibel, thankyou for yesterday.
xoxo's

sigh

yes there is many things bothering me.
but idk who to tell.
i wanna have a two piece acoustic band, where i sing, and he plays.
well he can be anyone.
if it's a she there'd be drama bloody drama.
sigh ):
maybe im gonna have another acoustic band.
well i kinda had one, but we just never called ourselves an acoustic band.
damn.

& joe, sorry i cant go for your gig today, you have fun.

hello world

i met up with syaz and joe and don yesterday.
it was nice (:
JOE IS DAMN SKINNYYY.
cannot poke, ohmygosh.
and don likes to stone a lot.
today another jamming session.
syaz darling, its ok.
we dont hate you, dont quit the band.

oh, and i failed my grade 8 practical exam.
so now, i have to retake my grade 8 prac and grade 6 theory.
wtf D:





and, fad hon, if i work at the zoo. im gonna give you a biiiig hug.
and you'll smell of monkey poo:D

and, i just found out syaz's birthday is on the 10th of october.
dabelew tee eff, cool shit or what??

dreamy

i want you to give me a bouqet of roses or better still, a sunflower.
i want you to serenade me with the guitar.
i want you to whisper sweet 'i love you' randomly.
i want you to give me the biggest and tightest hug everytime we meet.
i want you to hug me when im feeling sad.
i want you to call me sweet names everytime we talk.
i want you to be clingy, to show you still care.
i want you to plan dates and give me surprises from time to time.
i want you to say yes without being reluctant when i ask for a favour.
i want you to give me wet kisses from time to time.
i want you to hug me in front of your friends and let the world know you like me.
i want you to talk to me over the phone every night without me asking.
i want you to want me like i want you, but even more.
i want you to be very honest with me.
i want you to give me a sense of security and trust.

yes i would do all these, and i have been doing these.


P:S// i like you alot Y :3

my dearests.

Y;
you can never do whatever you did to me that night again.
it feels excruciatingly horrible.
i remember your promises.
you cant break them.
and you might be a nerd, but you're my nerd.
(L)

JULIE;
idk what happened, but i'll always be here for you.
i hope im not a negativity to you either honey.
the relationship is taking a very heavy toll on you.
please turn to me when you need someone.
i promise i'll always be there for you sweetheart.

NIZAM;
come back soon, we must celebrate our belated birthdays D:
we promised each other already.
i won't see you online that much anymore either, cos you're now,
at the other side of the world.
im gonna miss you.
*hugs*

BIG PEOPLE.

it sucks to be big.
i dont support that big is gorgeous.
for some girls, big IS gorgeous.
for others like me, its far from that.
its ugly and horrible.
if youre not skinny, you might as well die in the outside world.
face it girls, stop lying to yourself.
dont think that big is the new in thing.
it might be, but its going very slowly.
how many of you are happy being big ?
honestly?
thats how i feel.
it SUCKS to be big.
it sucks big time.
i hate hate being fat.
like f said, image is EVERYTHING.
in a band, in the business, in a relationship, in everything.
i have only complained but done no actions.
its been what, six years?
damn thats long.
im sick of being big. i swear i am.
im gonna show people i can lose weight, and i will lose weight.
i wont discriminate people,
i wont become stuck up like most.

SHERYL;
do not retake your Os honey.
you have a choice.
sure you might've screwed up one paper.
but please don't give up yet.
it is not worth it.
so many things will change.
they might even make social studies a compuslory subject next year or smthg.
we will go to poly/JC together.
and we are gonna enjoy the after Os days.

PRISSY;
you have beautiful curves.
youre not fat.
youre medium.
which is very good.
like you said, guys go for dadadadadada.
go out on dates!
stop cancelling them.
you know you deserve it.
most of all, dont cancel dates with me ogay :C
heheh.
see you soon love, shoppinggggg! :D

maid's beginning to lie a lot.
i'm beginning to know you more too.
yeh the bad side.
typical dude, TYPICAL.
mm, you don't read anyways.
so whatever.

papers i have left:
literature,
science MCQ.

and im not gonna study either.
cos' i don't.

and im not gonna ask people out anymore.
it's up to them to ask me.
cos when i ask them, they get all superior and shit.
ala dumb la ok?
okay maybe i will, those close ones.
other than that, i'm gonna go out everyday after Os
to town and stone.

though i want company.
i'll have my DSi for company.
and mortisha.
and i'll do new things to me.
so okaythxbai.





who's going for escapade at SP?
14 nov, 7 pm to 7 am.
if you are, please text me.
if you are helping out, please text me as well.
asap, ty.