bloody stressed out wiv money. i'm becoming very materialistic :C

My weekends weren't well. I spent my saturday trying to find The Strip Show which apparently was postponed and that made me very cranky coz i passed a play and ditched my friend. I feel horrible, but i had no choice coz' I didn't want to disappoint Papa, sigh.

I love the song "Kissing In Cars" by Pierce The Veil.

Mmm, these insecurities are eating me up alive. When i met Bitha yesterday i felt horribly fat, she's doing her best to look hot for Surge III while i'm gourging myself with food. Wth am i thinking? Yes I'm gonna start of course.

Who's going for The Vampirates?!

C:

i am this close to leaving this house. i may only be 17 fucking years old but i have my limits and i know my rights. you might think i'm acting all mature and shit but that's just me. i don't see a point in acting like a 17 immature year old. suddenly all these responsibilities are dumped on me, and yet i receive such minimal freedom? No, this is not right. these responsibilities have a respective amount of freedom. if you do not give me that freedom, why should i conform to these responsibilities? you have no idea how badly these things are eating me up. mother you don't even care! i really cannot handle responsibilities, i really cannot handle stress. right now all i want is to leave home for at least a week and switch off my phone. i need to breathe, i feel so helpless and pathetic! i really can't help but cry myself to sleep every night knowing my family is falling apart. i choose to do NOTHING because i know it's better if you both just get a fucking divorce.

don't bother lying when you know you suck at it. somehow i can't wait for holidays and the following semester. it sucks to have such migrain.

i miss my best friend ): mmm, at least i get to see her later. & im gonna meet Belle & Ted on sat. yay (:

who's going for Surge III?

honestly, i still get that tinge of jealousy when i see a a malay guy with her chinese girlfriend.

i get more jealous seeing them then seeing couples generally.

where's my indie/nerd (malay) boyf? ):

i want one to call mine, yes, mine.

never realised my life could get any more pathetic than this.
serious Fuck My Life.
i cant even get a single soul to hang out with me on a saturday.
every freaking saturday i must ask and ask and ask.
maybe today onwards i'll just shut up.

i wanna go for Broken Social Scene ♥

& who's free this sat?

i want a mod/indie boyfriend/girlfriend :3

i feel as though i am just a reserved or your rebound when she's not there. sigh, i don't know why it affects me so much but i know why i'm still staying. it's because i care and i understand how you feel. i want to be there for you always but you just don't realise how important you are to me. it's only when she's gone then do you see me, and turn to me. but when she's here, i'm invinsible to you, am i right? i hate feeling this way but i don't want to tell you, though i try to drop hints. but you just don't see it cause upon every opportunity you get to be in contact with her in any way, you just ignore me and i disappear. to me you're very different and you're someone i will always love. but i guess i was too late. right? you changed my perspective on a lot of things and i enjoy your presence. no, it used to be infatuation turned crush, now it's just friendship. my dear S, i will never leave you. ok? *hugs* yeh i doubt you'd be reading this anyway.

i hate to be ignored. if i annoy you, tell me in my fucking face dude. if you don't like me to initiate a phone call/text daily then just tell me in my fucking face. there you go bullshitting about how other girls ignore you? it's called fucking karma, bitch.

i feel empty, and hollow. why? i do not know. but i'm starting to change. adapting to life in school. wavehouse here i come (:

i need me some L4D2. Mmm, i need some clubbing and shopping. School has been fine, days pass really fast. UT tomorrow, wooots. Prepare for failure Dharshy!

I NEED YOUR HELP

( I )

GO TO FACEBOOK AND SEARCH FOR MY BAND,

ALONG THE SUBWAY

AFTER THAT, LIKE THE BAND AND LIKE THE STATUS

VEH VEH IMPORTANT

PLEASE HELP ME SPAM

WE REALLY WANT TO PERFORM!

TYSM.

copy and paste the link below*

http://www.facebook.com/search/?post_form_id=ef5cae08eafd0bd23184e9437406f473&q=along+the+subway&init=quick&ref=search_loaded#!/pages/ALONG-THE-SUBWAY/102350263144104?ref=search&sid=701690675.4007006155..1

( II )

WAITING FOR NOTHINGs HAVING THEIR EP LAUNCH!
www.myspace.com/wfnsg

date: 150510 (sat)
venue: *Scape Youth Centre: Lab
price; $15 + EP, available @ http://www.onetickethub.com/
feat: Deputy Siren www.myspace.com/deputysiren
Avalanche www.myspace.com/shoutforanavalanche
QuickQuickDanger www.myspace.com/quickquickdanger

First 100 patrons will receive pins & stickers!

ask me something on formspring. i is bored

hello,

yesterday's gig was nise

i like Elis's set (im not sure if i spelt it correctly)

i went a bit off pitch but heck, it was as good as it could get.

saw Raman there

he works there.

haha, cool.

it's good to take puffs after such a long time

mmmm :3

aku mendak giler

is there anyone out there tonight?

i'm bored crazy and i wanna head to town.

but i don't wanna seem like some loner.

coz i hate stares.

these insecurities eat me up whole.

i guess i'm used to it.

town anyone? :)

I NEED COMPANY :C

who's free tomorrow? i know this is pretty last minute but i need company for a gig.
and a flea market @ iluma.

TESSELATION: ONE
date: 080510 (saturday)
place: Substation, guiness theatre
price: 20 bucks/door
bands:
1. A Vacant Affair
2. They Will Kill Us All
3. Ingride
4. Silhouette
5. Indus Gendi
6. Hello, Is This The Band



aaaaand, this tuesd and the week after next's tuesday @homeclub
2000-2200
happy hour all night
1 for 1 Beer & Housepour @ $12

anyone?

hello world. i have such high hopes on my future boyfriend. i know, i sound pathetic. but heck. i am learning to control feelings. coz it sucks to fall for a guy who sees you as a friend. im single and i can date whoever i want. right? i miss fags. and you know what? laughing gas don't make me laugh. it only makes me all numb and feel all squished up. though i still get jealous seeing couples, im still in the process of getting used to it. and yes, i DO like malay guys. so what?

im growing so much more fatter,
and my family is falling apart.
sigh.
how now brown cow?
:C

with Bitha now.

i've missed her very very much ):

now i need to pee.

baibai

i wish i knew someone from RP more than a friend.
i just don't like the idea of Friends anymore.
i mean true they're there for you.
but sometimes i need a little love.
right?
this school is full of couples
why am i still dwelling on this whole couples issue?
fuck get over it la dharshy.
someone just slap me.
it sucks to be alone after school.
sitting in one corner thinking.
sucks to be sitting beside someone you think you like,
while he/she likes some other chic and sees you just as a fucking F R I E N D.
fuck the world.
fuck my pessimistic attitude.
i hate being alone.
think about it.
after school, you get to meet that special him/her
and you both just cuddle in one corner.
and rant and bitch, but at the same time hug and love.
and stay at that spot for hours, just enjoying each other's presence.
no, not mutual love, but more than that.
it beats sitting here right now, staring out watching happy couples.
i can't embrace solitude as much as i thought i could.
yes i'm weak
i'm a fucking weakling.
Can i help it?
no, i can't.
i hate, being alone.

my blog is never happy.
haha, who gives a fuck

you make me sad, can we not know each other five years ago?

maths is driving me fucking crazy
__