GOODBYE WEEKENDS. YOU

GOODBYE WEEKEND!
hahah
so happy.
weekends suckd.
study study study.
for chinese.
sigh.
hello chinese o level.
goodbye black nail polish.

The rules are:
You enter the letter into the search box.
Get someone you at least remember the face and nearest to the first one.
Answer truthfully!

A is for AliceChainsaw.
1) Do you love this person? as my flend (:
2) Is this person your enemy? nope.
3) Would you hug this person? ^^

B is for Bimbo.
1) What do you really think of this person? awesome to go shopping with :D
2) What’s their favorite color? i'm not sure :/
3) Ever danced with them? nah.

C is for Cassie
1) What do you think of this person? haven't talked to her since forever actually. :/
2) How far does this person live? very very far.
3) How old is he/she? 17 this year.

D is for David Dirwit Rusli.
1) How long have you known him/her? a few months/ a year.
2) Do you like this person? yeh as a friend.
3) Do you hate this person? no?

E is for ERA BUBBLES!:D
1) Have you met their parents? um, no.
2) Worst thing about this person? nothing, she's so darn adorable :D
3) Best thing about this person? she'll listen to my problems!

F is for FANNIE BESTIEEEEE!
1) Have you ever dated this person? yesLD
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? sigh, idk. VERY SOON.
3) Do you go to school with them? Nope ):

G is for Gan Roche Rachael.
1) Have you heard this person sing? yeh, & her voice is gorgeous.
2) What's his/her pet's name? i have noo idea.
3) Will he/she repost this? maybe? :/

H is for HEED! <3
1) What grade are they in? sec 4/ 11th grade.
2) Is he/she your best friend? close friends of some sort.
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? HAHAH, no.

I is for IMOGEN.
1) What is this persons favorite food? i dunno :/
2) How did you meet this person? school.
3) Do you trust he/she? yes and no. heheheh. idk.

J is for Jaslin.
1) They have any siblings? i have noo idea.
2) Do you know their favorite song? nope.
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? YEH, as if.

K is for Karlie
1) How old were you when you first met? when i was really young?
2) Do you like him/her as a friend? yeh, though i only talked to him once at subway.HAHAH
3) Would you go to disney world with this person? hahha, random, yeh ?

L is for LINA CHAN CHAN :D (imy honey)
1) Is this person older than you? yeh.
2) Is this person single? i think so.
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week? rarely now ):

M is for Maha.
1) How old were you when you first met? 16?
2) Whats his/hers pets name? hahahah, haven't though of one yet.
3) Ever danced with this person? nope.

N is for
1) How old were you when you first met the person? -
2) Do you like this person? -
3) What would you do if you had never met this person? -

O is for
1) Are you related? -
2) Could you live with this person? -
3) What school do they go to? -

P is for Prisusu!
1) Have you been to the mall with this person? yeh (:
2) How about a sleepover with them? nope :/
3) Does this person have a job? nope,

Q is for
1) How old were you when you first met the person? -
2) Have you went holiday with this person? -
3) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her? -

R is for Rafael.
1) Have you heard this person sing? no
2) Will she/he repost this? 100%? i doubt it.
3) When does this person look best? err....... HAHAHA

S is for Sheryl Scene.
1) Is this person taller than you? i don't think so.
2) Do you enjoy spending time with them? i have noo idea.
3) Are they your friend? DU-H??

T is for Tiara
1) What grade is this person in? poly year one/two :/
2) Would you hug this person? why not (:
3) Do they live close to you? nope ):

V is for VERONINI!
1) Would you do anything for him/her? yes.
2) Do you consider them a friend? definitely.
3) Have you met any of his/her family? kinda :/

W is for WAWA.
1) Is this person loud or quiet? loud! :D
2) Have you seen this person dance? nope.
3) What color eyes does this person have? black?

X is for
1) Is this person taller than you? -
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her?-
3) Is this person your friend? -

Y is for Yakuzi.
1) How old were you when you first met this person? honestly, i've yet to meet him.
2) What do you think of this person? adorably caring.
3) Have you heard this person sing? nope, but i will (:

Z is for zeerotica.
1) Does this person have msn? yep.
2) What is their favorite sport? i have noo idea.
3) When did you last see this person? yet to ):

Now tag everyone you mentioned.
- alice.
- bimbo.
- cassie.
- era.
- fannie.
- gan roche rachael.
- heed.
- imogen.
- jaslin.
- karlie.
- lina.
- maha.
- pris.
- rafael.
- sheryl.
- tiara.
- veronica.
- wawa.
- yakuzi.
- zeerotica.
♥

I made a new friend :D
N, youre different. you know it.
i rather have the old you back.
I have to do my own testimonial,
the one the TEACHER is supposed to do.
June holidays are here. classes everyday.
wth dude.
Chinese is in 2(/less) days. SIGH.
I'm crazy for crabmeat.

ohmygosh cant you fucking respect (quote)HUGE people?
i was blog hopping and saw what you said.
i hate it when people make fun of fat people.
even if they try to cover their tracks up.
like, "oh it wasn't my idea"
like wtf dude?
yeh you're skinny, the whole world's watching.
it's people like you that fucking bring people like me down.
as if you don't have enough attention shown like a spotlight upon you.
does it burn like a b, honey?
i don't give a fucking damn how hot you look.
just save your damn comments, mfer.

ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh!

UPDATES LA DEYY.
1. had fun @ amazing race yesterday.
though the weather was a killer and i enjoyed a little air con and average time we waited for each team to come is 1-2 hours. and the police people were so serious looking.
2. i put on 3 kg since last friday.
fuck.
3. NO FUCKING PROM THIS YEAR.
motherfuck?
4. i have noo idea what to do for my testimonial.
with which a teacher is supposed to do.
5. i haven't talked to you since a forever.
okay fine a few days.
6. i finally got to hear cupcakes voice again.
okay second time. first don't wanna count.
7. i cancelled on fannie again and i feel terrible.
fuck, sorrry babbyyy )):
8. i need a new wadrobe.
& motivation to lose weight.
9. chinese 'O' levels are soon.
i am totally not prepared but i can't be botherd.
10. i'm suprisingly getting lazier to use teh phone & take pictures.
HAHAHAHAH, what is wrong with you dharshhhh.
11. next semester's COACHING SESSIONS are gonna be worst.
go die la school.
12. O levels are approaching and my results still suck big beans.
13. i have nobody to hang out with anymore(apart from my nutellaC: )
14. myspace so dead.
15. i restless ALL THE TIME!
but i lazy to exercise.
16. i dont miss having a boyf for now.
who are you kidding la dey.
17. i miss bubbles.



DARLINGGSSSS.

1. alice im totally winning the bet.
2. era and bubbles and henna. era you're my bubbles!
3. FANNIE BBY! i'm sorry. sigh. i really will try never to cancel on you again.
i'm happy you've got hidayat to enjoy with everyday (:
4. laulau, im supper sorry bout teh piercing ):
5. CUPCAKES! you might probably ask me to hang out soon ehy? and i might probably say yes soon. hehehe. i remember our deal OKAYYYY.

i feel like a total psycho.
zxomg.
):

ohmygosh my life is soo boring.
who wants to hang out at yishun tomorrow
and thursday and friday?
please text me.
i miss playing with bubbles.
i miss mortisha.
i miss nutella.
i miss my future monroe.
i miss my future boyf.
shuddup dharsh.
i need happy sticks.
i need my cupcakes back,
and that wish came true. (:

HIGHLIGHTS OF TEH DAY.
1. unexpectedly, IMOGEN ask me out.
2. unexpectedly, found HAJI LANE.
3. unexpectedly, got HENNA done.
4. unexpectedly, ate A LOT today.
5. expectedly, the answer i got from someone i still have feelings for.
i still cried, fuck.
6. lastbutnotleast, dad's in the hospital.
what happened to my friends when i need them?

ohmygosh best flens la deyy.

hahah, I LOVE YOU WOMANNNN!
*BIG HUGS*
i love love you:D
not in a lesbo way.
so we four are good yes?
he treats us equally.
start talking to him normal again hun.
let's meet tomorrow.
i wanna give you a big big hug :D
ily fannie (:

if i've done something wrong, tell me.
cus' right now, i don't know what i did wrong.
he treats us fairly.
and you're blowing it up.
you were the one who stopped talking to him.
don't blame others for your actions.
& we care.
you know it damn well too.
don't deny it.
i'm your best friend.
or if that's how you still think of me as.
you wanna talk about best friends who backstab?
you wanna talk about best friends who steal your life?
do you really??
i always cared, and i always will.
if you don't see me as a best friend anymore, tell me.
please.
cause i'm sick of being treated like this by you.
you can tell the whole damn world what a backstabbing bitch of a best friend i am.
but get your facts right first.
you think i'm such a bitch.
have you considered how i feel?
you ain't the only one having problems too.
if you wanna talk about all these.
i sure as hell am here to always talk about it.
yeh, everyone's right.
im the devil, and you're the angel.
it's okay for best friends to steal lovers.
no wait, to do MORE than steal them.
it's okay for friends to steal friends.
cause you never considered what your actions might have an impact on me right?
of course not.
but it's not okay for best friends to talk to crushes ehy?
after you read this, reply me.
cause i'm not going to apologise for your wrong doing.
blame the whole world for all i care.
blame me if you want to.
i told you, be straightforward.
if i'm still your best friend, you wouldn't hide your feelings.
i try to be there for you.
but you just don't open up to me.
why don't you just make hidayat your new best friend ?
won't you feel so much better?
than you can go steal his friends.
right ?
listen, the three of us care.
you're just shutting us out and being stubborn.
he treats us all fairly.
have you thought of even NOT avoiding him in the first place?
or at least making a sign for him since you're so damn free all the time?
what do you think he might do with that sign?
again, get your facts right.
don't make bloody assumptions.
right now, i'm pissed you're blaming me.
and if you think you've experienced pain, compared to what you put me through?
you felt nothing.
not even close.
i still think of what you did from time to time.
you ask me, why do i get jealous so easily.
now i'm asking you the same.
why are you so jealous right now?
we're both his best friends.
you just don't wanna accept that fact right ?
i dont care how much you scream at me.
i'll still listen.
but don't say shit bout me that ain't true.
you really don't wanna trust me anymore either ehy?
well you know what,
right now, everything is up to you.
even if you hate me and don't trust me.
from your blog, i can tell you don't want me.
"best friends ehy? i wish i could fucking believe"
as if your words and attitude doesn't sting enough.
i haven't had enough of my say.
but it's useless right now.
but of course, i'm sure you won't bother trying to swallow all these i said.

i still love you fannie.

FALL OF MIRRAs EP LAUNCH BEBEH!!!
in case ya'll can't see..
date: 27 JUNE 2009. (saturday)
time: 5pm-9pm
venue: CRAWLS PLACE (behind new straits records)
price: door; 8$ (EP+entry)
presale; 6$ (EP+entry+freebies limited to the first 30!)
alongside bands; against all tyrants, fake eyelash, her silent wish, blindfold heros.
SO GO OKAY!
:D

but if ya'll can't, but want the EP, email your name and contact number and the number of copies you want to fallofmirra@gmail.com
www.myspace.com/fallofmirra
tyvm:D

mom.
back off.
youre just pushing it.
you know it damn well.
so stop this shit you're doing.
if you want me out of the house.
just tell me.
i am SICK of the way you treat me.
if you always think im lying,
why don't you just kick me out of the house?
it'll save you all the headache.
else, act like a mother.





the day has been boring, as usual.
lots of studying.
chemistry.

MONDAY: arts paper.
TUESDAY: chemistry.
WEDNESDAY: accounts theory & comb. science mcq. after that, going out with hamizah and piercing for laurence his angelbites. probably meeting mom after dinner if she allows me to. whatever it is, i'm having my freedom that day.
THURSDAY: maybe study with rabia accounts.
FRIDAY: after school probably meet era bby.


p.s: you're just using 'O' levels as an excuse to kill me slowly.
whatever happens, my fingers are pointing at you.

fannie baby

im sorry i suck as a best friend.
what a coincidence we're all fucked today about guys huh.
sigh, im sorry i couldn't be there for you last night.
i know i suck as a best friend.
let's promise try not to fall in love anymore.
well for now that is.
it's still gonna be teh four of us.
and you can't predict what's gonna happen.
guys bring us down.
sigh, im gonna turn straight and fix my bloody emotions.
and you should too.
i'll support you in whoever you flirt with
heheheh.
and whoever your next boyfriend will be.
but i'm not gonna be attached or fall for any other guy anymore.
cus' this love shit ain't for me.
i love you best flend.
no matter what shit i say.
and how jealous i get.
heheheh.
xoxo's.
-dharsh.

screw you.

yeh, thanks for that beautiful message.
i wont fucking bother you again.
youre just those typical guys.
start making assumptions.
YEH IM AN ATTENTION SEEKER.
YEH IM THE BITCH HERE.
i shouldn't have opened my big fat mouth.
and wait for you to NEVER come back.
wow.
and you suddenly come online after,
i sent that?
NO SHOCK THERE.

FINE, i overreacted.
but which girl won't?
you disappear, and suddenly appear?
dude, a decent text would do just fine.
i didn't lie about the things i did.

good for you.
you found out why mrf left me.
go open a bottle of champagne.
i bet ya'll must celebrate now.

just try understanding girls for once yeh?
it aint that hard.
trust me.

just so you know, i dont have a texting buddy.
cause i miss texting you.
i really fucking do.
no matter who i text, it's just different texting you.
but you ain't the only one who can show attitude and throw tantrums around.
so much for all that bloody bullshit you said.
how would you think if you were me?
someone disappears for nine days.
have shit loads of fun at his gig.
and bam, appears after you fessing up.
if you say you're gonna be totally calm and silent about it.
i say BULLSHIT.

you succeeded in whatever you wanted to do.
congrats n.
let's not fucking talk, shall we?
or we'll just kill each other more.
goodbye.

cupcakes

to actually think i believed you?
i swear i could just kill you right now.
f, why the hell make me suffer for nine days.
it seemed more like 9 bloody months to me.
if you wanna avoid me, be a man, have balls.
tell me in my fucking face.
dont do this bullshit.
cause you know it's just bloody childish.
like wtf n.
i dunno if you still read this but when era told me you were
there, having shit loads of fun.
i swear i almost cried.
you dont have to act as if you're not active on myspace anymore.
cause im deleting every damn thing that reminds me of you.
i hate you n.
i dont wanna give two balls what your excuse maybe.
so just drop dead & go to hell, cupcakes.


i know im fucking stupid.
but why the hell do this?
i really wanna just throw bloody bullocks at you.
but it's useless.
you know how vulnerable and insecure i am.
and you choose to do this?
fuck what joy do you see in doing this?
is this some kind of sick joke?
cause seriously, it's full of bloody bullshit.

"life's beautiful, so smile (:
everytime things go wrong,
they have a way of getting better."
-fabian teh mean.

hahah, ty fabian (:
ty pris, for you text last night.
honestly, i never knew you still read my blog.
(since it's so stale and all)
and fannie darling,
i did you a sign :D
i really hope this friendship lasts, period.

okeh, so i had math paper 1 and social studies today.
ss was rather, unexpected.
though i didn't really have much time to write.
and my mind was totally blank.
as for maths, i was not that confident.
i knew how to do.
according to my ways.
but i didn't know if the answers were right.
cus' they seemed reeally wierd.
i seeeriously can't wait for o's to end.
or mye.
see you soon maha and sheryl hun!:D

fannie bby, im very happy you've found your new band (:
i'll try getting the recordings done asap.

FANNIE;
im sorry love.
im sorry for the sudden outburst.
i don't wish to start another fight with you.
you're the first and closest thing to a best friend i ever had.
if i were you i'd blow my top off right now.
we seem to be constantly fighting.
i promise you i'll change.
okay?
like, my jealousy and weight and shit like that.
i won't say anything about who you hang out with,
what you do.
i'll just laugh along.
heheheh.
thankyou very much for all those cigarettes,
those times you tried making me laugh.
we both wanna go back to how we used to be(agreed?).
i want it so badly.
after my o's.
i wanna hang out with you and your new band.
i know i shouldn't have.
and i feel realllly guilty.
for all the shit i said.
and feeling jealous all the time.
yeh you're the darling angel here.
and i'm the devil.
well everyone thinks that.
lets kiss and make up alright ?
im really sorry.
i dont wanna loose you hun.



NAZ;
where'd you go?
do you know how much i fucking miss you?
or is it just you wanting to avoid me?
it's been over a week and i still miss you.
what happened ?
you and your best friend disappear?
a decent text won't hurt.
i even memorized your number.
remember all those deals we made ?
did you forget em'?
you haven't been online since godknowswhen.
what happened )':



im gonna change.
i swear i am.
stop being so fucking judgemental asshole.
so what if im fat.
im tryin to loose weight.
so just save your damn ass comments.
and dont be friends with me if you choose to judge people.

fyi, you're just pushing me away.
so stop it.