zomg. i feel so touched when fee ask me to do this survey:D



1)Name: dharshy marshy
2)Birthday: 11oct1993
3)Height:167cm
4)School: northland secondary
5)Best Friends: fannie, jannah, mj, sharul:D

FAVORITES:
1)High-Fashion Brand: dorothy perkins
2)Food: susshhhiiii:D
3)Colour: black, brown, white, orange.
4)Song: this conversation is over; alesana
5)MUSIC: local music:D
6)Number: 7/17/19
7) Word: hallelujah! :D
8)Memory: 20feb08
9)Snack: seaweed.[:
10) People:my darlings&besties&bestoes!:D
QnA
1)Are you happy with yourself? -um..no?
2)Do you wish to change sth about yourself? -yeah.
3) What is your nicest feature? - idk
4Do you wish to have a twin? - nah..
5)What is your biggest fear?- getting heartbroken?
6?what is your greatest achievement? -getting full marks for my math in p6
want to be famous? -no thankyou?
8)Do you think you are better than your friends? -def not
9)Do you think you are trendy?-HELL NO
10)Whats your style?-i love mixing:D

LOVE;
1) who and when was your fist kiss?- my parents.
2)do you have a crush? - nopes.
3){not writing cus' i dn have a crush}
4)if no, who was your last crush?- llyon
5)How many ex-s have you had? -3
6)if you could earase one of your past relantionships, which? -ALL
7)Whats your sexual status? - zomg like wtfish? virgin.
8)Do you believe in sex before or after marriage? - def aft.
9)Do you always get the people you want? - no..
10)Have you been turned down?-oh yeah.

CHOOSEone
1)ashley or mary-kate? - mk.
2)Straight or curly? -straight.
3)heels or flats? -flats
4)white or black? -black.
5)Jimmy choos or Manolo blahniks? -Jimmy choos
6)Louis Vuitton or Chanel? Louis Vuitton.
7)Half empty or half full?- the glass too big :D
8)PARIS or milan? - MILAN!
9)Skirts or pants? -pants
10)Long or short hair? -long.

5 PEOPLE TO DO THIS.
1)FANNIE!:D
2)JANNAH!:D
3)SHAR!:D
4)ALVIN!:D
5)anyone reading now[:

FUCK THE WORD LOVE
sigh.
i teared the moment we sayed goodbye.
its fucking hard holding it all back.
well aft all, i just realised how much you cared for my feelings.
i know he def didn't.
but you're my bestie.
&yes its my fault.
sigh.
i just cant help it right now.
you cannot stop love.
but i really do not understand why you both chose not to tell me.
only aft a few days.
i knw i said i wont blog about this anymore.
but my heart is fucking acheing right now.
why am i still so fucked up about this shit?
&darling you are right.
whatever you told me does make me fucking sad.
but you know me.
anw, thanks for telling me.
when he comes back, i dont dare to see him.
why? idk.
maybe cause it would pain so, so much more.
&seeing you & him together would just make me go fucking suicidal.
i want & i dont want you to tell me when he's back.
sigh.
i need fucking ciggerettes.
i wanna smoke myself to death.
i wanna cough so hard, i cough blood.
i wanna get the worst migrain in fucking history i actually die in mere seconds from it.
I JUST WANNA FUCKING DIE RIGHT NOW!!

zomg im just so in love with my piercings[;
lol.
im in the mood for signs!
anyone?
:D
no one's home today.
dad's in indo.
mom&sis's at work.
maid's at cousin place.
so i guess that leaves my honey&i.
sigh, no one's free today arh??
call so many people also no one free]:
&ty nicole:D
now i left lighter.
ohya, idk how to light a lighter]:
yay me.

stomp is just so fucking gay.
people got no business posting about others
&i dont get why stompers like judging people.
i mean if the person is a skinhead, let him fucking be!
its not like its gonna affect you in anyway right?
whats your freaking problem.

went shopping today.
with meixian,huiling&sis.
bought skull pumps& a skull bangle.
bought mini stuff&all tt shit actually adds up to EIGHTYBUCKS.
like wth ?
sigh.
byebye money]:

im not gonna blog about the lovebirds anymore.
im being an ultimate bitch for doing tt.
why do i do it anw.
sigh, just to gain sympathy?
oh fuck my egoistic attention seeking shiat.
sigh.
right now they're having some stuff going on.
but i still love them[:
&no matter what, im crying till all the pain's gone.

sigh, you supposed to buy me ciggs lah.
where where where..
you owe me darling.

FANNIE DARLING, IF ANYTHING IS GOING ON RIGHT NOW,

PLS TELL ME. IM UR FRIGGIN BESTIE! &I LOVE YOU, SO PLS,

DONT HIDE ANYTHING&TELL ME YOUR PROBLEMS.

&ABT TIFF, PLS IGNORE HER.

LET HER FUCKING BE.

SHE WANTS TO HATE LLYON, WHO FUCKING CARES.

AS LONG AS BOTH OF YOU ARE STILL TOGETHER HAPPILY:D

XOXOs.

zomg,
i seriously couldn't concentrate during ANY one of my tests.
i just kept thinking about the both of them.
sigh.
what the hell is bloody wrong with me ???
sigh]:
i was reading my magazine bible.
i must forgive the both of them&still love them deeply.
sigh.
idk if i hv.
idk if i will ever.
i mean yeah i love them.
but everytime i think of them.
i just feel like crying.
dad's giving me much much more problems.
fuck him.
fuck this damn world.

sigh,
yst was the 5th night i cried.
why cant i turn off the tap.
its irritating me.
i dont wish to see you in the next 3 months.
i'll just break down&cry, again.
well i still love both of you dearly.
but crying i cant stop.
sigh.
the pain is unbearable.
whenever i think of both of you making out, i just break down.
sigh, why cant i just be fucking happy for both of you??!
gawd dammit!
sigh, im missing you dearly.
all i want now is a hug.
who can give me hug ?
when you're here in the next 3months, pls dont bother contacting me.
cus by then, i'll be even much sadder.
i fucking diss love right now.
sigh.
WHERE ARE MY CIGGS!??
gimme right now.

i really cannot believe ya'll would do such a thing.

maybe its my fault.

idk.

i never knew you both would have the heart to do it.

but nvm.

its all fucking done&over.

i really dont wann a say this but i hate seeing both of you together.

right now its as if a thousand knives are in my heart.

i know ya'll dont have the guts to tell me or whatsoever shit.

at least spare a thought for my feeling pls ?

you really dont knw how fucking pain it is to see your best best friend whom you thought really cared for you, actually do such a thing behind your back, &never wanted to tell you.

i dont wish to see you in another 3 months.

but i dont think i have a gawd damn choice right now.

during this 3mths we're sure gonna contact in some way.

&darling, you're my bestie.

i wanna say i hate you but youre my bestest best friend&i still love you.

why was i ever so stupid.

pls God just fucking kill me right now.

im fucking drowning myself in pills&liquor&ciggs.

i just wanna fucking kill this bloody body of mine.

noone cares, why should i.

you both dont seem to anyways.

well, i wish you 2 happiness.

&i hope you're fucking happy right now.

sigh, yst i cried myself to sleep.
idk why.
i almost cried when we last hugged.
why am i so attached to him.
he's gone now anw.
well, see you in another 3mths, lee.
i just love you too much]:
&right now, i see you blocking me.
maybe i'll just lay off.
sigh.
goodbye.

FUCK YOU

i fucking hate you.
what kind of father are you.
youre fucking discouraging me every single gawd damn min of my fucked up life.
who the fuck do you think you are to judge my friends.
i fucking hate you.
&im running away aft common test.
this time, i'll make sure you DONT catch me.
just fuck off dad.

sorry.

yes.
2post in one day.
firstly, i would like to apologise to f&l for the misunderstanding.
sigh, darling bestie, i know you only wanted me to be happy.
so you asked him to come.
please forgive me for my sudden attitude]:
l, im gagaing over you right now.
but youre going back.
sigh.
im sorry darlings!
forgive me]:

secondly, i would like to apologise to my mom.
im sorry for not understanding how you felt as a mom.
im sorry for always thinking that ya'll dont care&not seeing it from a mother's point of view.
i knw youre doing this for me.
&you always get shouted at because of papa's actions.
i knw right now, whatever you do, you'll always get the blame for it.
im sorry mama.
i really love you.
]':

tears.

not running away.
dad found out.
yst came home late.
stupid arty run.
wed went out with fannie.
met llyon.
yeah..
right now i have no mood to type shiat.
tmr going deafcon(:
sigh.

you're spending more time with him than me.
you talk about stuff with him that you dont even tell me.
sometimes i wonder if you care about my feelings.
well, i dont wanna show ya'll how fcking sad i am right now.
so i'll just act like im ok&fucking happy like some fuckturd.
i guess ya'll look cuter together.
well, i wish you both all the best, l&f.
sigh.
i really want you to knw how sad i am.
i want you see the boiling tears streaming down my face.
i hate it when i think of both of you.
right now, i dont feel like seeing any of you.
but i have no choice.
im still meeting both of you, tmr.
yes im bloody jealous.
im jealous.
im scared he'll fall for you&start ignoring me.
do you know how that feels.
you're so much prettier than me.
ahh, fuck my tears.
i hope you read this.
but i doubt you will.

im always fucking sad.
screw happiness.
screw enjoyment.
screw anything happy.
screw fucking love.

im so fucking sad right now.
after all your sweet messages&words.
i actually fucking LIKED you.
&now youre like fucking flirting with some other girl.
i bet youre telling her the same SHIT you told me.
&now its fucking hurting.
yeah, best way to show the girl you dont need her anymore.
why the hell did i even talk to you.
i seriously hate you.
screw my fucking stupidity.
you dont even read BLOGS.
let alone mine.
so who the hell cares what im spewing here right now.
i seriously hate you to the fucking core right now.
AHHH!
]'':


fucking common test next week.
teacher just told us theres like so many god damn chapters.
&aft friday.
idk.
my fcking life fcking suck balls!
ftw.
pardon my language.

monkeypoop.
im gonna break down&cry any moment.
lets all put our hands together,
&pray that dharshs dies of depression asap.
hallelujah.

why do ppl msg me when my bill is high.

&not when i just renewed my bill.

right now im crying my eyeballs out for no reason.

i do not know why.

i feel so heartbroken&sad deep down.

it feels like mfing SHIT.

you might think you understand how i feel.

but i can tell you straight in the face, YOU DON'T.

why is everyone trying to change my mind?

quit lecturing me.

i need a listening ear.

i need a shoulder to cry on.

not a fcking lecturer who looks down on me!

i don't get what you are trying to do.

do you want to bring me all the way down?

then you can go rejoice&start praising yourself.

im brutally beaten dead.

pls just go away&leave me alone.

todays a good day;D
in the morning, was late.
actually i was on the dot.
but lucky i was let off:D
went to the counsellor during recess..
talked long.
missed a period of maths[:
aft tt, had meeting.
for artillery run.
&met fannie&zee ard 1 plus.
went to northpoint, ate ljs while waiting for dear jannah.
damn i didnt knw she looked hott in skinnies&all black[:
fannie went to buy her band tee.
awesome stuff[;
zee was nice la.
he funny:D
lol.
left cityhall ard 5 plus 6.
JANNAH DEAREST! dont sad laa[:
everytime sisters like that.
mine also whaaaat.[:
hmm..
now im home.
LOL.
wth..
i sound so wierd writing in this way.
now, fishtank is playing at esplanade.
sigh.
one more week.
&i actually pre planned everything out.

everyones fcking enjoying ignoring me.
fck it.
i hate my fcking life.
no one fcking cares.
who the hell am i to fcking care?
just fcking kill me.
life is just so fcking full of bull.
this blog is so fcking dead.
im closing it soon.
fck it.

i seriously dont like valentines.

its just so darn lonely.

so please, stop drowning me in your fairytale story,

you just be happy with whoever youre with.

gah..

im bored.
as usual.
finding people to go out with me on 23rd.
lawl.
along with fannie,jannah,karlie&raman.
&yes im gonna run away on 22nd.
now, i just needa find a place to stay.
anyone?
&don't try changin my mind.
cus' im set on going for deafcon&exile&other gigs that day&the following days to come.
so idc.

schools ok;D
now, im thinking twice bout running away.
funny, mom&dad has been treating me nicer these past few days.
well mainly dad.
moms still her "i wanna make your life a living hell&live to tell the wonderful tale"
im meeting my school councellor this thurs:D
tmr vips are coming.
&im an usher.
yeah..
gah..
&thurs there's a rackee for atillery run.
lol.
&I CANT BRING MY PHONE!
wth..
gah//
i cant meet my darling valentine!
nvm, im meeting her on friday anws.
&sat's mom&dad's anni.
while sun is mom's bday.
sigh, havent planned anything for v day.
what am i gonna give!
roar.

it sucks when ppl DONT ans ur calls.

lol.

i shall learn to blog everyday when im online from now on.

since my blog is rotting anw, so i'll shall pour my heart&soul out.

cny has been alright.

i miss my grandpa]:

i really do.

i cried so badly last night thinking of him.

he died a few years ago.

every cny is so sad.

i miss my uncle too.

though im not so close with him,

i still do.

i cant forget his smile.

so many ppl are dying.

how fcked up is that.

it sucks.

every year just gets worst and worst.

i wonder who's next on the death angel's list.

i miss grandpa]':

mom and i seem normal now.

but she gets fed up with me alot.

went to visit dad's fren&family today.

it was ok[:

when we were otw home,

dad talked about us being stupid

&how stupid it is to argue with us.

blablabla.

&he enphaisesed on my attitude.

how much ive changed to be such a rebel.

&not allowing me to go out AT ALL.

&the sudden change in me putting on EYELINER.

&how much i look like a bloody minah.

&about my friends.

&studies.

&being irresponsible.

&the list just goes on&on.

im sick&tired of them.

this is the damn reason im running away before 23.

prob aft moms birthday.

i still love her.& i do wanna celebrate her birthday with her.

&im still searching for a councellor.

but idk where to even start.

this is ghastly.

im sick of the way im being treated.

you have driven me to DEPRESSION

and SUICIDAL THOUGHTS.

are you happy now?

thanks for slapping my face last night.

it made me realise you cant possibly my real parents

you dont love me

you HATE me

&you call this UNCONDITONAL LOVE
well i think this "UNCONDITIONAL LOVE" is a total BULLSHIT.

i hate you.

i really really hate you.

i hope youre happy MOTHER.

im sick of the way im being treated.

you have driven me to DEPRESSION

and SUICIDAL THOUGHTS.

are you happy now?

thanks for slapping my face last night.

it made me realise you cant possibly my real parents

you dont love me

you HATE me

&you call this UNCONDITONAL LOVE
well i think this "UNCONDITIONAL LOVE" is a total BULLSHIT.

i hate you.

i really really hate you.

i hope youre happy MOTHER.

im sick of parents.
im sick of sch.
im sick of everything.
&im running away during march hols.
&i don't give a shit.


DEAFCON10
DXO.
8bucks.
2-6.30
-bedroom utensils.
-cigg sex.
-knightsfall.
-peepshow.
-meza virs.
-blackstar.
-firebrands.

TheExile.
The Art House.
1-8pm.
10bucks.

i pray i can go out on that day.
than i'll go for both:D

raman is my bestoe la!.

talking to him now[:

gaga.

though we hardly know each other,

he still my best buddy[:

lol.

anw,

LOVEOURLOCALSCENE!

gig.

LOLgig[:

2ndfeb, sat

4-7pm.

at music garage.

3bucks/tix.

text me for tickets!

94887246

:D
MUST GO!
[:

theres so many things i wish to say to you.

&i hope when i run away, you would read this post&only this post.

i really hate the way you treat me.

i feel like an outsider in this family.

i feel so hurt&sad it's like i don't even belong in this family.

you NEVER support what i want to do.

when i'm with ya'll, i feel so scared&nervous to say something.

cause i know you will always have the negative side of that story.

&ya'll will keep scolding.

&papa won't stop&he will drag drag drag.

but there was this one time.

when i was going to sleep.

you, papa&cheche were in your room.

i kept hearing ya'll laugh with so much joy.

i cried that whole night.

&even right now, i'm crying like a running tap.

everytime i try to tell you stuff.

you just neglect me.

or ignore me.

or in the end, we just end up quarreling.

thats why i'm afraid to talk to you.

or papa.

sometimes, i can hardly communicate with my own sister.

cause she just don't understand what i'm going through.

no one in the family does.

&this is really hurting.

everytime i do something wrong,

i think why i do it.

& i know why.

it is because i want to have freedom.

i really love arts.

esp. music arts.

I LOVE THE LOCAL SCENE!

i love going for gigs.

i love my skinnies&i love wearing all black.

but all the time, you will always enjoy criticizing

on what i like.

i don't know why you do this.

i really don't.

& no matter how much i wanna tell you to stop it.

i just know that in the end, i'm being super rude to you

&showing you attitude.

i really don't understand why you would say this.

&i love my friends.

when i told u i hung ard with malays

ya'll were really shocked.

if i were hanging out with the chinese in my school,

i would have turned out much much worst by now.

i would have more more piercings.

&ugly looking tattoos.

smoking everyday.

but you just don't seem to understand.

my malay friends are the bestest thing that ever happened to me.

pls do not related the local scene to drug&booze.

parents, that is totally wrong.

you both have even driven me to having suicidal thoughts.

terrible ones.

everytime after school, i dont like coming home.

cause i like going to a peaceful place&clear my thoughts.

&most of the time i end up crying.

when i think about ya'll.

every night im crying myself to sleep.

because im scared of my own parents.

i always feel i have super unreasonable parents.

selfish ones.

all this came with suicidal tendancies

as a whole"package"

i seriously rather be parentless than have you&papa as parents.

i know it's really harsh to hear that now.

but sometimes, i hate myself for thinking like that.

mama, papa, there's so much things i want to say to you.

this is just a summary of part of it.

i really want to have freedom.

i really want parents who love me&SHOW that they love me.

but right now, i know ya'll hate me to the core.

& i really can't take the pressure from you guys.

that's why i run away.

im not sure if ya'll will understand how i feel.

i'm sure you won't.

&idk when i'm coming back.

but pls knw that,

i still love ya'll alot.

i really do.

i love you parents.

<3

RAMANs ART!

butt loving aint it:D

for more of ramans bootiifuull art works,

http://flickr.com/photos/biolomopromax

go check it out!!!

:D

anw, gigs yst, fri,&sat.

MANY MANY GIGS!.

gah..

i just found my new job.

a gig adv.

gigs..

Serpent Scream Strikes Back!

17jan.

1-11pm.

ArtHouse.

8bucks/tix.

http://soft.com.sg/forum/showthread.php?t=48288

MIX TAPE SECRECY

19jan.

7-10pm.

BeatMerchants.

3bucks/tix.

http://soft.com.sg/forum/showthread.php?t=48288

DEAFCON9

19jan.

1-7pm.

DXO.

5bucks/tix.

www.myspace.com/deafcongig

WEEKEND TRIP: Force Majeure!

19jan.

7-10pm.

*scape Youth Park.

FREEEEE!

http://soft.com.sg/forum/showthread.php?t=47601

& other gig i forgot.

at ngee ann poly.

must go.

1-6pm.

Pensionate Farewell Reunion Show

25thjan.

8pm.

Home Club.

12bucks/tix.

http://soft.com.sg/forum/showthread.php?t=48023

ROCKON!

26jan.

1-7pm.

dxo.

12bucks/tix.

http://soft.com.sg/forum/showthread.php?t=46214&page=12

D.I.Y or die trying.

26jan.

6pm onwards.

BeatMerchants.

4bucks/tix.

http://soft.com.sg/forum/showthread.php?t=48170

contact ME for tickets!

94887246

fys is too darn good to be missed.&once a year only!!

GOGOGO.

im selling tix darls:D

&latest news!

RAMANs GIG!!

2nd feb.

super secrecy:D

i shall put up the posters asap.

[:

ty jimmy!;D
for helping me crop this picture.

anw, sch was okay.

yst got caught for my nose stick&eyes&hair.

tht bloody gll has th habit of dragging other teachers

in to scold the students. ESP ME!

bitch.

stupid skank.

arsehoo.

anw, yst teared myself silly.

i just thought of stuff.

terrible painful stuff.

gah..

anw, went out with wana&her friends yst.

zeu-her fren. was super friendly.

lol.

im starting to miss him alr!

*awwwww.*

anw, hope next friday can go out with them again:D

gaga.

gigs coming up !

deafcon9

19jan

5bucks/tix.[new year laa:D]

1-7pm

dxo

no presale though..

Fasten Your Seatbelts.

26jan

12bucks/tix

1-7pm

substation

buy tix from me;D

lol.

must order first!

i gotsta go collect them&all.

yes.this is a short post.

NO MOOD.

ciaos darls.

i love my new clothes:D

well,hese few days have been random&stupid.
now sitting on th floor with the laptop on my lap.
thats why its called a laptop[x
lol.
anw.......
missed so many gigs on sat
like approx. FOUR.
anw, ive found my
darling christmas hunkie bunkie junkie teddy bear buddy!:D
meeting him this wed aft sch prob at bugis.
&meeting wana on thurs:D
i miss her!:D
lol.
deafcon9 coming up !
who's going ?
:D
19jan.

TODAY IS DO SIGN DAY!

signs i did last time..

llyon [1]

llyon [2]
nick e gr8 [1]

nick e gr8 [2]

BSK [1]

BSK [2]

BSK [3]

aizan [1]

aizan [2]

aizan [3]

aizan [4]

TODAY..

armchair critic <3 [1]

armchair critic <3 [2]

Matt <3 [1]

Matt <3>

clement <3

stephanus <3>

raman <3 [1]

raman <3 [2]

Razmeer <3 [1]

Razmeer <3 [2]

gah..
korea was okay.
i was being so unsociable.
i think.
gah. dont wanna talk about it.
though th skiing&atv was fun:D
now my bloody cousin is accusing me of being emo
idiot.
1. who is to judge me??
2. he's younger than me. shut up u asshole.
3. so whats wrong with being emo?
4. its none of your gawd damn business
he's seriously irritating th shit outta me.

my parents are so bloody biase.
i cant even show my emotions infront of them.
i have to act like nth is wrong&shit.
my mom ignores me like i dont even exist.
&i have to be her damn dog.
wth?
shit feeling.

read my msn nick.

i AM very sad.

yst i came home late.

i was supposed to go for choir bbq.

anw, my mom thought i was lying.

which is true.

she kept questioning&questioning.

i know yst, everything IS/was my fault.

i'm really sorry mama.

last night, i thought alot.

too much i think till i cried at th thought of my parents.

i notice how sad or irritated my mom gets when she talks to me

when my parents talk to my sister

they'll call her "darling&sweetheart"

those words you would wanna hear from your parents.

when they talk to me, they would call me "ae or oi"

or nothing at all,&they'll start scolding me

i feel as if they dont want to have me as a daughter

like they were forced to bring me up.

i just feel so darn hurt&hated.

i even forgot how my parents looked when they smiled.

i have never seen them smile for a super long time.

this morning, actually every morning. i would hear

them laughing with my sister together.

&when they came into my room,

they wouldn't care if i was sleeping or not

they would just talking as loud as they wanted

as if i was invisible&start banging stuff here&there.

they would even shout for my maid when im sleeping

in tht room.

when i am with them,

i fear of getting scolded every single minute.

i mean which daughter would be scared of being alone

with both or either of their parents.

even if we have nothing to talk about.

my parents will suddenly talk about something

that they know they can shoot me.

i just wna feel fcking LOVED by my parents.

is tht so fckig hard to ask for?

no matter what i do,

i try to talk to them every single day of my damn life.

but in th end we'll end up quarrelling&

it'll only make matters worst.

i try pouring my heart out to them

but than my mom will go like

"you're only fourteen, you can't be

this or that."

or

"you're only fourteen, you dont

know anything.blablabla"

im treated like a fcking paria!

however you spell that;

having parents&NOT having parents

i dont see a fcking difference.

if i was going for th damn trip,

i would have ran away from home

&never came back.

i wonder how they'll feel than

I HATE MY PARENTS!!!

my mood has been absolutely terrible these few days.
dumb fck.
gah, im starting to think alot.
i dont have people to call FRIENDS.
i need company
i am impatient
i have a mutha fcking attitude problem
i spew too much vulgarities
i am such a nuscience
i disturb people alot
i keep taunting people till they get so fed up with me
i cried last night cus' i just realised no one really cares.
i mean they say they care, but inside, they don't seem to bother.
even my parents don't realise i exist.
God just brought me down here to see my suffer my ass off
he might as well send me to hell&let me burn away.
i dont see his fcking point here.
why is my life so full of shit?
people dont realise it but i do.
most of my "friends" dont realise i have feelings.
they think of me when they're super bored.
what the hell ?
am i that dead or invisible.
i seriously hate this shit.

baa baa black sheep

leaving for korea this sunday:D

at night]:

last saturday,

went to give out deafcon8 flyers.

got my renegades shirt:D

lols.

DARN ASS NICE.

anw, spent hours at somerset, orchard, cityhall.

couldn't even give out more den 20 flyers.

moreover, ppl in town were UNfriendly.

VERY UNfriendly.

got to know ary,trish,jolyn,val,shirlyn&many many more!:D

i was supposed to do th flyer thingy with ary around skate park.

but she had to leave like super early.

lols.

five renegades went[including me]

one of th renegade lives in yishun!:DD

near yishun library.

thats like super near my sch.

lols[:

merv looked nice that day.

with th bandana&badges.

lols.

2 things happened that day

some malay minah pointed at val&said

"what an eyesore![:" &her minah frens

just laughed like nobody's business.

see how minah's are so judgemental.

they're just too ugly so rather judge

other people. they should in th mirror too.

th other thing was shirlyn was walking ard

taka giving out th flyers.

she gave to this group of gurls.

one gurl said; *rolling her eyes*"tsk, deafcon is stupid"

gawd i feel like slapping that bitches face

she looks like an absolute POSER![however you spell that]

her eyes are like china eyes

but droopy.

&she puts eyeliner like nobody's business.

&she tries to act "cool"&all tht shit by wearing a black hat.

oh fck her

anw, ard 7plus.

went to meet rachel&th other 3 renegades&ghost:D

ate lj's infront of th plain field on stairs of some court house thingy.

lols.

talk nonsense.

than left tht place ard 9.

trained back home with th renegade who lives in yishun:D

damn i so have to start rmb-ing their names!

calling all of them renegade this/that is killing me

we were awfully silent halfway to yishun.

den we didn't really have a proper goodbye.

LOL.

funness..

gonna do th flyer thingy this sat again

&i have to sell th tix by this week!
AHH!!.

]:

anyone reading now,

if you wanna get tix.

pls get it from me!

i needa sell 10 of them]:

&i just realised ultrasound was last sat

wonder hos broken mask did.

LOL

gah, our feelings were never true.
you know it.
look who's th happy one now.
how long ago was it?
probably less than a month.
ahh, you lying s.o.b

jamming was GOOD!
seriously.

i mean i didn't expect it to be nice.

met fox&evon&my band mates:D

fun bunch

fox is purrttyy:D

so is evon[[:

though i played nothing

probably a few clings&clangs here&there

conan was really friendly.

met up with th lead guitarist first,

den th vox actually was there.

but we didn't know it was him

aft a while,

th other guitarist came with his galfren.

he was really smiley&stuff:D

lols.

den evon came.

<3>

den fox&conan came

conan is TALL!

i actually felt kinda short for th first time.

they both were kinda wet from all th rain&everything

aft tht th vox approached:D

we didn't know he was th vox, till conan said smth

so we went to th jamming studio

it was lock

th owner had went for lunch

we had to wait like half an hour for him to reach.

i was melting th whole time

it was really humid.

&th whole time i was like stepping lonesome sh_t.

gah]:

stayed in th studio for like half an hour den left.

while th rest stayed till like 5.

dunnoe when's th next jamming sessions

haven't decided on a name yet

i so needa know more about melodic death metal bands.

&i needa know what to play on th darn keyboards by next week i suppose.

i need HELP!!!]:

i wanna go learn guitar together with fee

from zee but my mom ask me to ask my dad

&my dad is not in th office, neither did he on his bloody phone !
ROAR!

bloody hell la.

&we're supposed to meet at 5.30

fck!

AHHH!!!

i hate my parents

i might not mean what i say next time

but now i do.

everytime this no that no

but my sister everything yes yes YES!

bloody bitch/;

today, when i was playing th piano,
mom said i was showing attitude.
her reason was cus' i was playing with only one hand
wth ?
th whole FRIGGIN DAY she's been screaming&shouting&
saying im giving her attitude.
wtf.

brought cream to th vet
dooc said she's probably infected by fungus or mites
wth.
]:
&she's going for her dental soon
money money money.
she's my old darling[:
i love her loads<3

gah..
how does it feel to have real true friends?
i never had one of those before
so i dunnoe
though i long for one
but i'm not sure if i'll find tht true fren
right now, everything is just bottled inside
i wanna scream till my lungs burst.
i don't care.

life just feels like sh_t if you have ungrateful
heartless parents like mine,&know one to
pour out to.

gah, jamming wasn't tht fun i suppose

now i'm with one band:D

lols.

good for me?

[:

deafcon8's coming up.

kinda long actually.

but who wants to buy tickets?

TELL ME!:DD

tmr suppose to go give out flyers at orchard

i suppose it's for deafcon

:D

if mom allows.

bah..

i can't get a friggin job

my bill is bloody high.

byebye messaging.

ben&shanu's bday is on th day i get my new bill

&th day i leave for korea.

]:

guitar lessons from zee:D

fannie's boyfren

damn she's pretty!

lols.

feeqah's gonna follow me too:D

&bought my nose stud yst.

th ring kind.

it's like so EFFIN' hard to put in !

my nose kept bleeding for tht.

]:

got my new glasses:D

i'm <3ing>