I WANNA HAVE MY PLUS SIZED FRIENDS:D
any takers?
it will make me very very happy i swear (:
imsickoftheskinnyfagswhomakefunofthefatonesandthinkitsOHSOCOOL.
shove it up your ass for god's sakes.
25.6.09
i just realise i seriously need to go for some therapy sheet.
sigh.
FANNIE B, LINA C, TIARA, SHERYL, JASLIN, ERA, ALICE, PEEWEE, JULIE, CASSIE, PRIS, SYAZA, WAWA, VERON. if you're reading this, please text mee.
):
i reeeally wanna hang out soon!
fannie i know im desperado now.
sigh.
you just won't understand how FAT feels like.
i really want to mia.
my phone's dead, so is myspace, so is everything.
like, it wouldn't even make a damn difference if i was mia or still alive in egypt or something.
im insecure and you know it.
you even witnessed one of those instances or situations where me being fat becomes the whole issue.
it really stings so badly i cry for days.
please dont make assumptions.
i dont say anything doesn't mean im happy.
and, i know you have your problems.
and i miss you telling them to me!
please treat me like a real best friend,
i still love you bestie.
g, im FAT.
deal with it.
i fell for you and i fell hard.
well too bad for me.
now comes the heartache. ):
era honey, cheer up.
if he's not meant to be yours, he's not meant to be yours.
i know you still ache inside. but you have soo many other good people around you!
the best way is, delete him.
delete stuff that remind you of him, or just hide them somewhere else.
after a few months, you can take them out, and you wont feel a thing.
smile my darling.
lets hang out soon!
think of the henna and the throwing of stones and bubbles.
lots and lots of bubbles!
and to dudes out there, dont gimme bullshit that "oh looks dont matter, we only friends what"
all that motherfucking bullshit. i look different from my pictures. so if you say that sentence or somewhat the same, you better keep to your fucking word. im sick of always being ditched or ignored. eh i have fcking feelings too. i dont give a damn how big your egos are. if it is, than don't fucking ask me out. _|_
sigh.
FANNIE B, LINA C, TIARA, SHERYL, JASLIN, ERA, ALICE, PEEWEE, JULIE, CASSIE, PRIS, SYAZA, WAWA, VERON. if you're reading this, please text mee.
):
i reeeally wanna hang out soon!
fannie i know im desperado now.
sigh.
you just won't understand how FAT feels like.
i really want to mia.
my phone's dead, so is myspace, so is everything.
like, it wouldn't even make a damn difference if i was mia or still alive in egypt or something.
im insecure and you know it.
you even witnessed one of those instances or situations where me being fat becomes the whole issue.
it really stings so badly i cry for days.
please dont make assumptions.
i dont say anything doesn't mean im happy.
and, i know you have your problems.
and i miss you telling them to me!
please treat me like a real best friend,
i still love you bestie.
g, im FAT.
deal with it.
i fell for you and i fell hard.
well too bad for me.
now comes the heartache. ):
era honey, cheer up.
if he's not meant to be yours, he's not meant to be yours.
i know you still ache inside. but you have soo many other good people around you!
the best way is, delete him.
delete stuff that remind you of him, or just hide them somewhere else.
after a few months, you can take them out, and you wont feel a thing.
smile my darling.
lets hang out soon!
think of the henna and the throwing of stones and bubbles.
lots and lots of bubbles!
and to dudes out there, dont gimme bullshit that "oh looks dont matter, we only friends what"
all that motherfucking bullshit. i look different from my pictures. so if you say that sentence or somewhat the same, you better keep to your fucking word. im sick of always being ditched or ignored. eh i have fcking feelings too. i dont give a damn how big your egos are. if it is, than don't fucking ask me out. _|_
20.6.09
13.6.09
imma mia, period.
so if anyone wna contact me, just text yeh.
i'm over with meetups and hangout and shit like that.
i have my reasons.
well for one, i have the shittiest attitude and i think jealousy is gonna eat me up before i can breathe.
another is, it's cus of some people.
sigh.
whatever, imma explain my reasons properly when im so called back.
goodbye bitches.
so if anyone wna contact me, just text yeh.
i'm over with meetups and hangout and shit like that.
i have my reasons.
well for one, i have the shittiest attitude and i think jealousy is gonna eat me up before i can breathe.
another is, it's cus of some people.
sigh.
whatever, imma explain my reasons properly when im so called back.
goodbye bitches.
31.5.09
GOODBYE WEEKENDS. YOU
GOODBYE WEEKEND!
hahah
so happy.
weekends suckd.
study study study.
for chinese.
sigh.
hello chinese o level.
goodbye black nail polish.
hahah
so happy.
weekends suckd.
study study study.
for chinese.
sigh.
hello chinese o level.
goodbye black nail polish.
30.5.09
The rules are:
You enter the letter into the search box.
Get someone you at least remember the face and nearest to the first one.
Answer truthfully!
A is for AliceChainsaw.
1) Do you love this person? as my flend (:
2) Is this person your enemy? nope.
3) Would you hug this person? ^^
B is for Bimbo.
1) What do you really think of this person? awesome to go shopping with :D
2) What’s their favorite color? i'm not sure :/
3) Ever danced with them? nah.
C is for Cassie
1) What do you think of this person? haven't talked to her since forever actually. :/
2) How far does this person live? very very far.
3) How old is he/she? 17 this year.
D is for David Dirwit Rusli.
1) How long have you known him/her? a few months/ a year.
2) Do you like this person? yeh as a friend.
3) Do you hate this person? no?
E is for ERA BUBBLES!:D
1) Have you met their parents? um, no.
2) Worst thing about this person? nothing, she's so darn adorable :D
3) Best thing about this person? she'll listen to my problems!
F is for FANNIE BESTIEEEEE!
1) Have you ever dated this person? yesLD
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? sigh, idk. VERY SOON.
3) Do you go to school with them? Nope ):
G is for Gan Roche Rachael.
1) Have you heard this person sing? yeh, & her voice is gorgeous.
2) What's his/her pet's name? i have noo idea.
3) Will he/she repost this? maybe? :/
H is for HEED! <3
1) What grade are they in? sec 4/ 11th grade.
2) Is he/she your best friend? close friends of some sort.
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? HAHAH, no.
I is for IMOGEN.
1) What is this persons favorite food? i dunno :/
2) How did you meet this person? school.
3) Do you trust he/she? yes and no. heheheh. idk.
J is for Jaslin.
1) They have any siblings? i have noo idea.
2) Do you know their favorite song? nope.
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? YEH, as if.
K is for Karlie
1) How old were you when you first met? when i was really young?
2) Do you like him/her as a friend? yeh, though i only talked to him once at subway.HAHAH
3) Would you go to disney world with this person? hahha, random, yeh ?
L is for LINA CHAN CHAN :D (imy honey)
1) Is this person older than you? yeh.
2) Is this person single? i think so.
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week? rarely now ):
M is for Maha.
1) How old were you when you first met? 16?
2) Whats his/hers pets name? hahahah, haven't though of one yet.
3) Ever danced with this person? nope.
N is for
1) How old were you when you first met the person? -
2) Do you like this person? -
3) What would you do if you had never met this person? -
O is for
1) Are you related? -
2) Could you live with this person? -
3) What school do they go to? -
P is for Prisusu!
1) Have you been to the mall with this person? yeh (:
2) How about a sleepover with them? nope :/
3) Does this person have a job? nope,
Q is for
1) How old were you when you first met the person? -
2) Have you went holiday with this person? -
3) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her? -
R is for Rafael.
1) Have you heard this person sing? no
2) Will she/he repost this? 100%? i doubt it.
3) When does this person look best? err....... HAHAHA
S is for Sheryl Scene.
1) Is this person taller than you? i don't think so.
2) Do you enjoy spending time with them? i have noo idea.
3) Are they your friend? DU-H??
T is for Tiara
1) What grade is this person in? poly year one/two :/
2) Would you hug this person? why not (:
3) Do they live close to you? nope ):
V is for VERONINI!
1) Would you do anything for him/her? yes.
2) Do you consider them a friend? definitely.
3) Have you met any of his/her family? kinda :/
W is for WAWA.
1) Is this person loud or quiet? loud! :D
2) Have you seen this person dance? nope.
3) What color eyes does this person have? black?
X is for
1) Is this person taller than you? -
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her?-
3) Is this person your friend? -
Y is for Yakuzi.
1) How old were you when you first met this person? honestly, i've yet to meet him.
2) What do you think of this person? adorably caring.
3) Have you heard this person sing? nope, but i will (:
Z is for zeerotica.
1) Does this person have msn? yep.
2) What is their favorite sport? i have noo idea.
3) When did you last see this person? yet to ):
Now tag everyone you mentioned.
- alice.
- bimbo.
- cassie.
- era.
- fannie.
- gan roche rachael.
- heed.
- imogen.
- jaslin.
- karlie.
- lina.
- maha.
- pris.
- rafael.
- sheryl.
- tiara.
- veronica.
- wawa.
- yakuzi.
- zeerotica.
♥
You enter the letter into the search box.
Get someone you at least remember the face and nearest to the first one.
Answer truthfully!
A is for AliceChainsaw.
1) Do you love this person? as my flend (:
2) Is this person your enemy? nope.
3) Would you hug this person? ^^
B is for Bimbo.
1) What do you really think of this person? awesome to go shopping with :D
2) What’s their favorite color? i'm not sure :/
3) Ever danced with them? nah.
C is for Cassie
1) What do you think of this person? haven't talked to her since forever actually. :/
2) How far does this person live? very very far.
3) How old is he/she? 17 this year.
D is for David Dirwit Rusli.
1) How long have you known him/her? a few months/ a year.
2) Do you like this person? yeh as a friend.
3) Do you hate this person? no?
E is for ERA BUBBLES!:D
1) Have you met their parents? um, no.
2) Worst thing about this person? nothing, she's so darn adorable :D
3) Best thing about this person? she'll listen to my problems!
F is for FANNIE BESTIEEEEE!
1) Have you ever dated this person? yesLD
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? sigh, idk. VERY SOON.
3) Do you go to school with them? Nope ):
G is for Gan Roche Rachael.
1) Have you heard this person sing? yeh, & her voice is gorgeous.
2) What's his/her pet's name? i have noo idea.
3) Will he/she repost this? maybe? :/
H is for HEED! <3
1) What grade are they in? sec 4/ 11th grade.
2) Is he/she your best friend? close friends of some sort.
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? HAHAH, no.
I is for IMOGEN.
1) What is this persons favorite food? i dunno :/
2) How did you meet this person? school.
3) Do you trust he/she? yes and no. heheheh. idk.
J is for Jaslin.
1) They have any siblings? i have noo idea.
2) Do you know their favorite song? nope.
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? YEH, as if.
K is for Karlie
1) How old were you when you first met? when i was really young?
2) Do you like him/her as a friend? yeh, though i only talked to him once at subway.HAHAH
3) Would you go to disney world with this person? hahha, random, yeh ?
L is for LINA CHAN CHAN :D (imy honey)
1) Is this person older than you? yeh.
2) Is this person single? i think so.
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week? rarely now ):
M is for Maha.
1) How old were you when you first met? 16?
2) Whats his/hers pets name? hahahah, haven't though of one yet.
3) Ever danced with this person? nope.
N is for
1) How old were you when you first met the person? -
2) Do you like this person? -
3) What would you do if you had never met this person? -
O is for
1) Are you related? -
2) Could you live with this person? -
3) What school do they go to? -
P is for Prisusu!
1) Have you been to the mall with this person? yeh (:
2) How about a sleepover with them? nope :/
3) Does this person have a job? nope,
Q is for
1) How old were you when you first met the person? -
2) Have you went holiday with this person? -
3) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her? -
R is for Rafael.
1) Have you heard this person sing? no
2) Will she/he repost this? 100%? i doubt it.
3) When does this person look best? err....... HAHAHA
S is for Sheryl Scene.
1) Is this person taller than you? i don't think so.
2) Do you enjoy spending time with them? i have noo idea.
3) Are they your friend? DU-H??
T is for Tiara
1) What grade is this person in? poly year one/two :/
2) Would you hug this person? why not (:
3) Do they live close to you? nope ):
V is for VERONINI!
1) Would you do anything for him/her? yes.
2) Do you consider them a friend? definitely.
3) Have you met any of his/her family? kinda :/
W is for WAWA.
1) Is this person loud or quiet? loud! :D
2) Have you seen this person dance? nope.
3) What color eyes does this person have? black?
X is for
1) Is this person taller than you? -
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her?-
3) Is this person your friend? -
Y is for Yakuzi.
1) How old were you when you first met this person? honestly, i've yet to meet him.
2) What do you think of this person? adorably caring.
3) Have you heard this person sing? nope, but i will (:
Z is for zeerotica.
1) Does this person have msn? yep.
2) What is their favorite sport? i have noo idea.
3) When did you last see this person? yet to ):
Now tag everyone you mentioned.
- alice.
- bimbo.
- cassie.
- era.
- fannie.
- gan roche rachael.
- heed.
- imogen.
- jaslin.
- karlie.
- lina.
- maha.
- pris.
- rafael.
- sheryl.
- tiara.
- veronica.
- wawa.
- yakuzi.
- zeerotica.
♥
I made a new friend :D
N, youre different. you know it.
i rather have the old you back.
I have to do my own testimonial,
the one the TEACHER is supposed to do.
June holidays are here. classes everyday.
wth dude.
Chinese is in 2(/less) days. SIGH.
I'm crazy for crabmeat.
ohmygosh cant you fucking respect (quote)HUGE people?
i was blog hopping and saw what you said.
i hate it when people make fun of fat people.
even if they try to cover their tracks up.
like, "oh it wasn't my idea"
like wtf dude?
yeh you're skinny, the whole world's watching.
it's people like you that fucking bring people like me down.
as if you don't have enough attention shown like a spotlight upon you.
does it burn like a b, honey?
i don't give a fucking damn how hot you look.
just save your damn comments, mfer.
N, youre different. you know it.
i rather have the old you back.
I have to do my own testimonial,
the one the TEACHER is supposed to do.
June holidays are here. classes everyday.
wth dude.
Chinese is in 2(/less) days. SIGH.
I'm crazy for crabmeat.
ohmygosh cant you fucking respect (quote)HUGE people?
i was blog hopping and saw what you said.
i hate it when people make fun of fat people.
even if they try to cover their tracks up.
like, "oh it wasn't my idea"
like wtf dude?
yeh you're skinny, the whole world's watching.
it's people like you that fucking bring people like me down.
as if you don't have enough attention shown like a spotlight upon you.
does it burn like a b, honey?
i don't give a fucking damn how hot you look.
just save your damn comments, mfer.
28.5.09
ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh!
UPDATES LA DEYY.
1. had fun @ amazing race yesterday.
though the weather was a killer and i enjoyed a little air con and average time we waited for each team to come is 1-2 hours. and the police people were so serious looking.
2. i put on 3 kg since last friday.
fuck.
3. NO FUCKING PROM THIS YEAR.
motherfuck?
4. i have noo idea what to do for my testimonial.
with which a teacher is supposed to do.
5. i haven't talked to you since a forever.
okay fine a few days.
6. i finally got to hear cupcakes voice again.
okay second time. first don't wanna count.
7. i cancelled on fannie again and i feel terrible.
fuck, sorrry babbyyy )):
8. i need a new wadrobe.
& motivation to lose weight.
9. chinese 'O' levels are soon.
i am totally not prepared but i can't be botherd.
10. i'm suprisingly getting lazier to use teh phone & take pictures.
HAHAHAHAH, what is wrong with you dharshhhh.
11. next semester's COACHING SESSIONS are gonna be worst.
go die la school.
12. O levels are approaching and my results still suck big beans.
13. i have nobody to hang out with anymore(apart from my nutellaC: )
14. myspace so dead.
15. i restless ALL THE TIME!
but i lazy to exercise.
16. i dont miss having a boyf for now.
who are you kidding la dey.
17. i miss bubbles.
DARLINGGSSSS.
1. alice im totally winning the bet.
2. era and bubbles and henna. era you're my bubbles!
3. FANNIE BBY! i'm sorry. sigh. i really will try never to cancel on you again.
i'm happy you've got hidayat to enjoy with everyday (:
4. laulau, im supper sorry bout teh piercing ):
5. CUPCAKES! you might probably ask me to hang out soon ehy? and i might probably say yes soon. hehehe. i remember our deal OKAYYYY.
26.5.09
25.5.09
ohmygosh my life is soo boring.
who wants to hang out at yishun tomorrow
and thursday and friday?
please text me.
i miss playing with bubbles.
i miss mortisha.
i miss nutella.
i miss my future monroe.
i miss my future boyf.
shuddup dharsh.
i need happy sticks.
i need my cupcakes back,
and that wish came true. (:
23.5.09
HIGHLIGHTS OF TEH DAY.
1. unexpectedly, IMOGEN ask me out.
2. unexpectedly, found HAJI LANE.
3. unexpectedly, got HENNA done.
4. unexpectedly, ate A LOT today.
5. expectedly, the answer i got from someone i still have feelings for.
i still cried, fuck.
6. lastbutnotleast, dad's in the hospital.
what happened to my friends when i need them?
21.5.09
ohmygosh best flens la deyy.
hahah, I LOVE YOU WOMANNNN!
*BIG HUGS*
i love love you:D
not in a lesbo way.
so we four are good yes?
he treats us equally.
start talking to him normal again hun.
let's meet tomorrow.
i wanna give you a big big hug :D
ily fannie (:
if i've done something wrong, tell me.
cus' right now, i don't know what i did wrong.
he treats us fairly.
and you're blowing it up.
you were the one who stopped talking to him.
don't blame others for your actions.
& we care.
you know it damn well too.
don't deny it.
i'm your best friend.
or if that's how you still think of me as.
you wanna talk about best friends who backstab?
you wanna talk about best friends who steal your life?
do you really??
i always cared, and i always will.
if you don't see me as a best friend anymore, tell me.
please.
cause i'm sick of being treated like this by you.
you can tell the whole damn world what a backstabbing bitch of a best friend i am.
but get your facts right first.
you think i'm such a bitch.
have you considered how i feel?
you ain't the only one having problems too.
if you wanna talk about all these.
i sure as hell am here to always talk about it.
yeh, everyone's right.
im the devil, and you're the angel.
it's okay for best friends to steal lovers.
no wait, to do MORE than steal them.
it's okay for friends to steal friends.
cause you never considered what your actions might have an impact on me right?
of course not.
but it's not okay for best friends to talk to crushes ehy?
after you read this, reply me.
cause i'm not going to apologise for your wrong doing.
blame the whole world for all i care.
blame me if you want to.
i told you, be straightforward.
if i'm still your best friend, you wouldn't hide your feelings.
i try to be there for you.
but you just don't open up to me.
why don't you just make hidayat your new best friend ?
won't you feel so much better?
than you can go steal his friends.
right ?
listen, the three of us care.
you're just shutting us out and being stubborn.
he treats us all fairly.
have you thought of even NOT avoiding him in the first place?
or at least making a sign for him since you're so damn free all the time?
what do you think he might do with that sign?
again, get your facts right.
don't make bloody assumptions.
right now, i'm pissed you're blaming me.
and if you think you've experienced pain, compared to what you put me through?
you felt nothing.
not even close.
i still think of what you did from time to time.
you ask me, why do i get jealous so easily.
now i'm asking you the same.
why are you so jealous right now?
we're both his best friends.
you just don't wanna accept that fact right ?
i dont care how much you scream at me.
i'll still listen.
but don't say shit bout me that ain't true.
you really don't wanna trust me anymore either ehy?
well you know what,
right now, everything is up to you.
even if you hate me and don't trust me.
from your blog, i can tell you don't want me.
"best friends ehy? i wish i could fucking believe"
as if your words and attitude doesn't sting enough.
i haven't had enough of my say.
but it's useless right now.
but of course, i'm sure you won't bother trying to swallow all these i said.
i still love you fannie.
19.5.09
FALL OF MIRRAs EP LAUNCH BEBEH!!!
in case ya'll can't see..
date: 27 JUNE 2009. (saturday)
time: 5pm-9pm
venue: CRAWLS PLACE (behind new straits records)
price: door; 8$ (EP+entry)
presale; 6$ (EP+entry+freebies limited to the first 30!)
alongside bands; against all tyrants, fake eyelash, her silent wish, blindfold heros.
SO GO OKAY!
:D
but if ya'll can't, but want the EP, email your name and contact number and the number of copies you want to fallofmirra@gmail.com
www.myspace.com/fallofmirra
tyvm:D
in case ya'll can't see..
date: 27 JUNE 2009. (saturday)
time: 5pm-9pm
venue: CRAWLS PLACE (behind new straits records)
price: door; 8$ (EP+entry)
presale; 6$ (EP+entry+freebies limited to the first 30!)
alongside bands; against all tyrants, fake eyelash, her silent wish, blindfold heros.
SO GO OKAY!
:D
but if ya'll can't, but want the EP, email your name and contact number and the number of copies you want to fallofmirra@gmail.com
www.myspace.com/fallofmirra
tyvm:D
17.5.09
mom.
back off.
youre just pushing it.
you know it damn well.
so stop this shit you're doing.
if you want me out of the house.
just tell me.
i am SICK of the way you treat me.
if you always think im lying,
why don't you just kick me out of the house?
it'll save you all the headache.
else, act like a mother.
the day has been boring, as usual.
lots of studying.
chemistry.
MONDAY: arts paper.
TUESDAY: chemistry.
WEDNESDAY: accounts theory & comb. science mcq. after that, going out with hamizah and piercing for laurence his angelbites. probably meeting mom after dinner if she allows me to. whatever it is, i'm having my freedom that day.
THURSDAY: maybe study with rabia accounts.
FRIDAY: after school probably meet era bby.
p.s: you're just using 'O' levels as an excuse to kill me slowly.
whatever happens, my fingers are pointing at you.
back off.
youre just pushing it.
you know it damn well.
so stop this shit you're doing.
if you want me out of the house.
just tell me.
i am SICK of the way you treat me.
if you always think im lying,
why don't you just kick me out of the house?
it'll save you all the headache.
else, act like a mother.
the day has been boring, as usual.
lots of studying.
chemistry.
MONDAY: arts paper.
TUESDAY: chemistry.
WEDNESDAY: accounts theory & comb. science mcq. after that, going out with hamizah and piercing for laurence his angelbites. probably meeting mom after dinner if she allows me to. whatever it is, i'm having my freedom that day.
THURSDAY: maybe study with rabia accounts.
FRIDAY: after school probably meet era bby.
p.s: you're just using 'O' levels as an excuse to kill me slowly.
whatever happens, my fingers are pointing at you.
16.5.09
fannie baby
im sorry i suck as a best friend.
what a coincidence we're all fucked today about guys huh.
sigh, im sorry i couldn't be there for you last night.
i know i suck as a best friend.
let's promise try not to fall in love anymore.
well for now that is.
it's still gonna be teh four of us.
and you can't predict what's gonna happen.
guys bring us down.
sigh, im gonna turn straight and fix my bloody emotions.
and you should too.
i'll support you in whoever you flirt with
heheheh.
and whoever your next boyfriend will be.
but i'm not gonna be attached or fall for any other guy anymore.
cus' this love shit ain't for me.
i love you best flend.
no matter what shit i say.
and how jealous i get.
heheheh.
xoxo's.
-dharsh.
what a coincidence we're all fucked today about guys huh.
sigh, im sorry i couldn't be there for you last night.
i know i suck as a best friend.
let's promise try not to fall in love anymore.
well for now that is.
it's still gonna be teh four of us.
and you can't predict what's gonna happen.
guys bring us down.
sigh, im gonna turn straight and fix my bloody emotions.
and you should too.
i'll support you in whoever you flirt with
heheheh.
and whoever your next boyfriend will be.
but i'm not gonna be attached or fall for any other guy anymore.
cus' this love shit ain't for me.
i love you best flend.
no matter what shit i say.
and how jealous i get.
heheheh.
xoxo's.
-dharsh.
screw you.
yeh, thanks for that beautiful message.
i wont fucking bother you again.
youre just those typical guys.
start making assumptions.
YEH IM AN ATTENTION SEEKER.
YEH IM THE BITCH HERE.
i shouldn't have opened my big fat mouth.
and wait for you to NEVER come back.
wow.
and you suddenly come online after,
i sent that?
NO SHOCK THERE.
FINE, i overreacted.
but which girl won't?
you disappear, and suddenly appear?
dude, a decent text would do just fine.
i didn't lie about the things i did.
good for you.
you found out why mrf left me.
go open a bottle of champagne.
i bet ya'll must celebrate now.
just try understanding girls for once yeh?
it aint that hard.
trust me.
just so you know, i dont have a texting buddy.
cause i miss texting you.
i really fucking do.
no matter who i text, it's just different texting you.
but you ain't the only one who can show attitude and throw tantrums around.
so much for all that bloody bullshit you said.
how would you think if you were me?
someone disappears for nine days.
have shit loads of fun at his gig.
and bam, appears after you fessing up.
if you say you're gonna be totally calm and silent about it.
i say BULLSHIT.
you succeeded in whatever you wanted to do.
congrats n.
let's not fucking talk, shall we?
or we'll just kill each other more.
goodbye.
i wont fucking bother you again.
youre just those typical guys.
start making assumptions.
YEH IM AN ATTENTION SEEKER.
YEH IM THE BITCH HERE.
i shouldn't have opened my big fat mouth.
and wait for you to NEVER come back.
wow.
and you suddenly come online after,
i sent that?
NO SHOCK THERE.
FINE, i overreacted.
but which girl won't?
you disappear, and suddenly appear?
dude, a decent text would do just fine.
i didn't lie about the things i did.
good for you.
you found out why mrf left me.
go open a bottle of champagne.
i bet ya'll must celebrate now.
just try understanding girls for once yeh?
it aint that hard.
trust me.
just so you know, i dont have a texting buddy.
cause i miss texting you.
i really fucking do.
no matter who i text, it's just different texting you.
but you ain't the only one who can show attitude and throw tantrums around.
so much for all that bloody bullshit you said.
how would you think if you were me?
someone disappears for nine days.
have shit loads of fun at his gig.
and bam, appears after you fessing up.
if you say you're gonna be totally calm and silent about it.
i say BULLSHIT.
you succeeded in whatever you wanted to do.
congrats n.
let's not fucking talk, shall we?
or we'll just kill each other more.
goodbye.
15.5.09
cupcakes
to actually think i believed you?
i swear i could just kill you right now.
f, why the hell make me suffer for nine days.
it seemed more like 9 bloody months to me.
if you wanna avoid me, be a man, have balls.
tell me in my fucking face.
dont do this bullshit.
cause you know it's just bloody childish.
like wtf n.
i dunno if you still read this but when era told me you were
there, having shit loads of fun.
i swear i almost cried.
you dont have to act as if you're not active on myspace anymore.
cause im deleting every damn thing that reminds me of you.
i hate you n.
i dont wanna give two balls what your excuse maybe.
so just drop dead & go to hell, cupcakes.
i know im fucking stupid.
but why the hell do this?
i really wanna just throw bloody bullocks at you.
but it's useless.
you know how vulnerable and insecure i am.
and you choose to do this?
fuck what joy do you see in doing this?
is this some kind of sick joke?
cause seriously, it's full of bloody bullshit.
i swear i could just kill you right now.
f, why the hell make me suffer for nine days.
it seemed more like 9 bloody months to me.
if you wanna avoid me, be a man, have balls.
tell me in my fucking face.
dont do this bullshit.
cause you know it's just bloody childish.
like wtf n.
i dunno if you still read this but when era told me you were
there, having shit loads of fun.
i swear i almost cried.
you dont have to act as if you're not active on myspace anymore.
cause im deleting every damn thing that reminds me of you.
i hate you n.
i dont wanna give two balls what your excuse maybe.
so just drop dead & go to hell, cupcakes.
i know im fucking stupid.
but why the hell do this?
i really wanna just throw bloody bullocks at you.
but it's useless.
you know how vulnerable and insecure i am.
and you choose to do this?
fuck what joy do you see in doing this?
is this some kind of sick joke?
cause seriously, it's full of bloody bullshit.
12.5.09
"life's beautiful, so smile (:
everytime things go wrong,
they have a way of getting better."
-fabian teh mean.
hahah, ty fabian (:
ty pris, for you text last night.
honestly, i never knew you still read my blog.
(since it's so stale and all)
and fannie darling,
i did you a sign :D
i really hope this friendship lasts, period.
okeh, so i had math paper 1 and social studies today.
ss was rather, unexpected.
though i didn't really have much time to write.
and my mind was totally blank.
as for maths, i was not that confident.
i knew how to do.
according to my ways.
but i didn't know if the answers were right.
cus' they seemed reeally wierd.
i seeeriously can't wait for o's to end.
or mye.
see you soon maha and sheryl hun!:D
fannie bby, im very happy you've found your new band (:
i'll try getting the recordings done asap.
everytime things go wrong,
they have a way of getting better."
-fabian teh mean.
hahah, ty fabian (:
ty pris, for you text last night.
honestly, i never knew you still read my blog.
(since it's so stale and all)
and fannie darling,
i did you a sign :D
i really hope this friendship lasts, period.
okeh, so i had math paper 1 and social studies today.
ss was rather, unexpected.
though i didn't really have much time to write.
and my mind was totally blank.
as for maths, i was not that confident.
i knew how to do.
according to my ways.
but i didn't know if the answers were right.
cus' they seemed reeally wierd.
i seeeriously can't wait for o's to end.
or mye.
see you soon maha and sheryl hun!:D
fannie bby, im very happy you've found your new band (:
i'll try getting the recordings done asap.
10.5.09
FANNIE;
im sorry love.
im sorry for the sudden outburst.
i don't wish to start another fight with you.
you're the first and closest thing to a best friend i ever had.
if i were you i'd blow my top off right now.
we seem to be constantly fighting.
i promise you i'll change.
okay?
like, my jealousy and weight and shit like that.
i won't say anything about who you hang out with,
what you do.
i'll just laugh along.
heheheh.
thankyou very much for all those cigarettes,
those times you tried making me laugh.
we both wanna go back to how we used to be(agreed?).
i want it so badly.
after my o's.
i wanna hang out with you and your new band.
i know i shouldn't have.
and i feel realllly guilty.
for all the shit i said.
and feeling jealous all the time.
yeh you're the darling angel here.
and i'm the devil.
well everyone thinks that.
lets kiss and make up alright ?
im really sorry.
i dont wanna loose you hun.
NAZ;
where'd you go?
do you know how much i fucking miss you?
or is it just you wanting to avoid me?
it's been over a week and i still miss you.
what happened ?
you and your best friend disappear?
a decent text won't hurt.
i even memorized your number.
remember all those deals we made ?
did you forget em'?
you haven't been online since godknowswhen.
what happened )':
im gonna change.
i swear i am.
stop being so fucking judgemental asshole.
so what if im fat.
im tryin to loose weight.
so just save your damn ass comments.
and dont be friends with me if you choose to judge people.
im sorry love.
im sorry for the sudden outburst.
i don't wish to start another fight with you.
you're the first and closest thing to a best friend i ever had.
if i were you i'd blow my top off right now.
we seem to be constantly fighting.
i promise you i'll change.
okay?
like, my jealousy and weight and shit like that.
i won't say anything about who you hang out with,
what you do.
i'll just laugh along.
heheheh.
thankyou very much for all those cigarettes,
those times you tried making me laugh.
we both wanna go back to how we used to be(agreed?).
i want it so badly.
after my o's.
i wanna hang out with you and your new band.
i know i shouldn't have.
and i feel realllly guilty.
for all the shit i said.
and feeling jealous all the time.
yeh you're the darling angel here.
and i'm the devil.
well everyone thinks that.
lets kiss and make up alright ?
im really sorry.
i dont wanna loose you hun.
NAZ;
where'd you go?
do you know how much i fucking miss you?
or is it just you wanting to avoid me?
it's been over a week and i still miss you.
what happened ?
you and your best friend disappear?
a decent text won't hurt.
i even memorized your number.
remember all those deals we made ?
did you forget em'?
you haven't been online since godknowswhen.
what happened )':
im gonna change.
i swear i am.
stop being so fucking judgemental asshole.
so what if im fat.
im tryin to loose weight.
so just save your damn ass comments.
and dont be friends with me if you choose to judge people.
1.5.09
27.4.09
im crazy for cupcakes.
I MISS YOU!
why the sudden change ):
i know you read.
well you always ask me to update.
where'd you go cupcakes.
im sorry for that misunderstanding.
sigh.
please dont change.
i miss you.
why the sudden change ):
i know you read.
well you always ask me to update.
where'd you go cupcakes.
im sorry for that misunderstanding.
sigh.
please dont change.
i miss you.
4.4.09
myspace is soo in cheena.
im not sure if anyone reads this dumb blog (hahah, )
BACKWARDS DAY:D
i feel like deleting this blog.
sigh.
my mom thinks i have the wierdest fashion sense.
and i just realised she is the most sensitive person, ever.
she can detect the slightest hint of smoke; cigarette.
like whaaat.
how am i supposed to tell her i smoke?
well, goodbye cigarettes.
and i want a new hat.
anw, anyone willing to study with me in yishun?
like after school.
and shopping!:D
i hate karma.
BACKWARDS DAY:D
i feel like deleting this blog.
sigh.
my mom thinks i have the wierdest fashion sense.
and i just realised she is the most sensitive person, ever.
she can detect the slightest hint of smoke; cigarette.
like whaaat.
how am i supposed to tell her i smoke?
well, goodbye cigarettes.
and i want a new hat.
anw, anyone willing to study with me in yishun?
like after school.
and shopping!:D
i hate karma.
17.3.09
1. Fannie, 2.Billie, 3.Wawa, 4.Tiara, 5.Sheryl, 6.Jane, 7.Jaslin, 8.Pris, 9.Cassie, 10.Lina, 11.Sasa, 12.Julie, 13.Lynette, 14.Veron, 15.Heed, 16.Fyra, 17.Lisa, 18.Alin.
i wanna hang outttttt.
tell me when ya'll are free uh D:
1, 2, 3- when was the last time we actually hung out D:
5, 6, 7, 11- though we haven't met before, i still wanna hang out.
4, 8-10, 12-18- though we rarely/seldom talk, i miss ya'll! we always fix dates which seem to backfire the last minute D:
so please text me once ya'll see this or wanna hang out.
i wanna hang outttttt.
tell me when ya'll are free uh D:
1, 2, 3- when was the last time we actually hung out D:
5, 6, 7, 11- though we haven't met before, i still wanna hang out.
4, 8-10, 12-18- though we rarely/seldom talk, i miss ya'll! we always fix dates which seem to backfire the last minute D:
so please text me once ya'll see this or wanna hang out.
16.3.09
im fucking dying without you.
please come back ]':
at least give me a call.
i dont want yet i really need you so so much.
yes i do still go into your account.
i know im not supposed to.
but i cant help it.
cus' i just need a tiny inch of hint, to know that you still love me.
but you don't seem to.
do you know how much i cry every night, cus' i miss you so badly?
every morning, i wake up and the first thing i do,
is look at my phone.
cus' remember, you used to text me morning and night,
the minute you woke up and the minute you felt sleepy.
but every morning when i wake up, i think of you.
when i sleep, i think of you.
when i look at eeyore, i think of you.
when i do piercings for people, i think of you.
when i eat cotton candy or corn, i think of you.
when i go to esplanade waterfront, i think of you.
when i eat long john's, i think of you.
when i see the pouches you got me, i think of you.
when people ask me they wanna get a septum, i think of you.
when i look at that card or your pictures, i think of you.
and mrf i swear the list can go on and on.
but i really cant take this feeling.
i still dunno why you did this to me.
im not sure if you stilll read my blog, i really hope you do.
was i such a bitch you had to do this?
im still not over you.
i still love you so so much, like i always have, like i always will.
i know you deleted and block me from msn.
did you really wanna cut off all our connections?
do you hate me so much?
if you say you meant everything, all your promises.
what about now?
aren't this the consequences of your lies?
your broken promises?
i really don't know what i actually want.
i really want you back so badly.
but i'm sure you like someone else already.
what about all the future we talked about.
what about everything?
i really hate this feeling.
yeh it's been over a month.
but it seemed like just yesterday, you said you wanted to break up.
you gave me 4 reasons to that.
1. you didn't want to affect my studies.
2. you don't know.
3. i've changed.
4. you need space.
which is it?
honestly, or was it cus' i'm too ugly for you?
do you know what i've done/have happened to me after you left me.
i really hate this feeling so so much.
people always tell me, "just move on. only you can do it. no one else can help you but yourself. you gotta be strong" and all that bull.
but i still can't.
no matter how hard i try, i can't.
like today, i went to cityhall, and wanted to esplanade, and i started thinking of you.
and i swear i felt like crying, but i knew i couldn't.
who cries over the boyfriend who left after a month over?
even when i drink MILO, i think of you.
do you know how badly this break up has made me feel?
i really wanna get back together.
but im sure you dont.
idk what you feel about this.
but i really hope you read this.
please come back ]':
at least give me a call.
i dont want yet i really need you so so much.
yes i do still go into your account.
i know im not supposed to.
but i cant help it.
cus' i just need a tiny inch of hint, to know that you still love me.
but you don't seem to.
do you know how much i cry every night, cus' i miss you so badly?
every morning, i wake up and the first thing i do,
is look at my phone.
cus' remember, you used to text me morning and night,
the minute you woke up and the minute you felt sleepy.
but every morning when i wake up, i think of you.
when i sleep, i think of you.
when i look at eeyore, i think of you.
when i do piercings for people, i think of you.
when i eat cotton candy or corn, i think of you.
when i go to esplanade waterfront, i think of you.
when i eat long john's, i think of you.
when i see the pouches you got me, i think of you.
when people ask me they wanna get a septum, i think of you.
when i look at that card or your pictures, i think of you.
and mrf i swear the list can go on and on.
but i really cant take this feeling.
i still dunno why you did this to me.
im not sure if you stilll read my blog, i really hope you do.
was i such a bitch you had to do this?
im still not over you.
i still love you so so much, like i always have, like i always will.
i know you deleted and block me from msn.
did you really wanna cut off all our connections?
do you hate me so much?
if you say you meant everything, all your promises.
what about now?
aren't this the consequences of your lies?
your broken promises?
i really don't know what i actually want.
i really want you back so badly.
but i'm sure you like someone else already.
what about all the future we talked about.
what about everything?
i really hate this feeling.
yeh it's been over a month.
but it seemed like just yesterday, you said you wanted to break up.
you gave me 4 reasons to that.
1. you didn't want to affect my studies.
2. you don't know.
3. i've changed.
4. you need space.
which is it?
honestly, or was it cus' i'm too ugly for you?
do you know what i've done/have happened to me after you left me.
i really hate this feeling so so much.
people always tell me, "just move on. only you can do it. no one else can help you but yourself. you gotta be strong" and all that bull.
but i still can't.
no matter how hard i try, i can't.
like today, i went to cityhall, and wanted to esplanade, and i started thinking of you.
and i swear i felt like crying, but i knew i couldn't.
who cries over the boyfriend who left after a month over?
even when i drink MILO, i think of you.
do you know how badly this break up has made me feel?
i really wanna get back together.
but im sure you dont.
idk what you feel about this.
but i really hope you read this.
15.3.09
21.2.09
TO MUHD MAAROF
i apologise for last night.
i was being childish.
i was being selfish.
i was being immature.
i was being a total bitch.
i'm sorry i blew on you.
i just got so mad.
because you told me forever.
you used the word forever.
why the word forever?
in case you still don't know hun, i get attached to people.
especially my boyfriend.
you even talked about so much more things.
and i actually believed you?
and randomly, you break up with me.
and you didn't know why.
than you told me i changed.
Have you ever put yourself in my shoes before?
This is the last time i am ever talking about you in this blog.
Than you told me, you just wanted to be friends.
Was that supposed to make me happier?
i am on the verge or dropping my POA because,
i flunked my test.
because, i kept thinking about you.
you make me smoke so much i will probably get lung cancer before,
going to university or something.
i really dunno why you did this.
i mean like, do you see any joy, in doing this?
will you clap your hands when you see me in my grave?
you mean more than the universe to me.
i'll even screw up my o's for you.
but i really wanna know why you do this to me.
do you know how it actually feels?
or have you really lost feelings for me.
you tell me you still care.
but do you honestly?
or you just saying that to make me shut up?
you make me cry every single night!
and i really hate this feeling.
it's worst than pumping steriods into your blood.
or doing scarification.
its worst than getting a septum piercing.
but i guess you'll never know how that feels, right?
i don't wanna be friends.
i don't wanna contact in anyway.
i have deleted your pictures, or numbers, your everything.
i have even burnt the diary i never used.
even going to sim lim square reminds me of you.
remember the time, we got lost going to nafa?
remember the time we ate corn and cotton candy, at esplanade's waterfront?
remember sharing ljs?
remember on the eve of my birthday,
we walked from orchard to cityhall?
i miss holding your hand.
with your long fingers interlocking.
i miss your yummy lips.
against mine.
I miss your hugs.
I miss your voice.
I miss your sweet messages.
I miss everything about you.
I still love you so so much.
I'm sorry for always complaining that,
you don't show me that you love me.
Ma'arof, you just really changed my life.
Especially after the break up.
I know whatever i say now, won't mean a thing.
It won't change a thing.
And doing the dumbest things,
would just attract your attention negatively.
Making matters worst.
I hope you're happy with whoever your future girlfriend will be.
Typing more of this will just never end my tears.
I don't wish to add more fuel to the fire.
So let's never contact.
Goodbye, for good.
i was being childish.
i was being selfish.
i was being immature.
i was being a total bitch.
i'm sorry i blew on you.
i just got so mad.
because you told me forever.
you used the word forever.
why the word forever?
in case you still don't know hun, i get attached to people.
especially my boyfriend.
you even talked about so much more things.
and i actually believed you?
and randomly, you break up with me.
and you didn't know why.
than you told me i changed.
Have you ever put yourself in my shoes before?
This is the last time i am ever talking about you in this blog.
Than you told me, you just wanted to be friends.
Was that supposed to make me happier?
i am on the verge or dropping my POA because,
i flunked my test.
because, i kept thinking about you.
you make me smoke so much i will probably get lung cancer before,
going to university or something.
i really dunno why you did this.
i mean like, do you see any joy, in doing this?
will you clap your hands when you see me in my grave?
you mean more than the universe to me.
i'll even screw up my o's for you.
but i really wanna know why you do this to me.
do you know how it actually feels?
or have you really lost feelings for me.
you tell me you still care.
but do you honestly?
or you just saying that to make me shut up?
you make me cry every single night!
and i really hate this feeling.
it's worst than pumping steriods into your blood.
or doing scarification.
its worst than getting a septum piercing.
but i guess you'll never know how that feels, right?
i don't wanna be friends.
i don't wanna contact in anyway.
i have deleted your pictures, or numbers, your everything.
i have even burnt the diary i never used.
even going to sim lim square reminds me of you.
remember the time, we got lost going to nafa?
remember the time we ate corn and cotton candy, at esplanade's waterfront?
remember sharing ljs?
remember on the eve of my birthday,
we walked from orchard to cityhall?
i miss holding your hand.
with your long fingers interlocking.
i miss your yummy lips.
against mine.
I miss your hugs.
I miss your voice.
I miss your sweet messages.
I miss everything about you.
I still love you so so much.
I'm sorry for always complaining that,
you don't show me that you love me.
Ma'arof, you just really changed my life.
Especially after the break up.
I know whatever i say now, won't mean a thing.
It won't change a thing.
And doing the dumbest things,
would just attract your attention negatively.
Making matters worst.
I hope you're happy with whoever your future girlfriend will be.
Typing more of this will just never end my tears.
I don't wish to add more fuel to the fire.
So let's never contact.
Goodbye, for good.
EDIT;}
you made so much promises.
were they true?
you never kept them.
you told me you would only break up, if i did something.
you told me, that you were planning on making me a v day gift.
did you mean it?
or did you think about breaking up even before making the gift?
if you read all this, reply me in msn.
i don't know how to get over you.
it's just too effin hard for me.
18.2.09
band or boyfriend.
i still haven't gotten over the fact that i WANT to start a band. like, SERIOUSLY. but you know what, i'm having O LEVELS this year. and i swear it's driving me crazy. There's so many reasons for me to just commit suicide or something but that's just being dumb ain't it.
art is probably the HARDEST subject to score in.
POA is just, speechless.
chemistry is like, whats up with the formulas.
maths is understandable:D
hahaha.
teacher thinks i should drop poa.
i really want to.
but i dont.
well whatever it is, i ain't dropping.
and MR CHIN wants to meet momsie.
like what the hell for?
he says it's cus' of my overall performance and attitude.
i have not committed any "crime" this year.
i actually think i'm much better than year than last year.
agreed people?
and he wants to talk to momsie.
most prob it's cus i failed badly for both poa tests.
but whatever youre an accounts teacher?
you ain't supposed to call parents down just for the sake of your favourite subject.
it's just, plain, biase?
i still cant get over you maarof.
i swear it's the hardest thing that ever happened to me.
i wanted you to come for passion arts even before we broke up.
and i still do.
but saying goodbye is just the hardest thing right now.
most of my friends tell me they're bringing their boyfriends.
and i just say, im gonna have another lonely passion arts, again.
but whatever.
it's never easy getting over a guy anyways right?
i still have to find shoes for passion arts.
any kind soul willing to spare me shoessss?
like pronto.
hahah, im typing away though no one reads.
it's just the dead-est blog ever.
i quit being a bitch.
HAHAHAH.[:
art is probably the HARDEST subject to score in.
POA is just, speechless.
chemistry is like, whats up with the formulas.
maths is understandable:D
hahaha.
teacher thinks i should drop poa.
i really want to.
but i dont.
well whatever it is, i ain't dropping.
and MR CHIN wants to meet momsie.
like what the hell for?
he says it's cus' of my overall performance and attitude.
i have not committed any "crime" this year.
i actually think i'm much better than year than last year.
agreed people?
and he wants to talk to momsie.
most prob it's cus i failed badly for both poa tests.
but whatever youre an accounts teacher?
you ain't supposed to call parents down just for the sake of your favourite subject.
it's just, plain, biase?
i still cant get over you maarof.
i swear it's the hardest thing that ever happened to me.
i wanted you to come for passion arts even before we broke up.
and i still do.
but saying goodbye is just the hardest thing right now.
most of my friends tell me they're bringing their boyfriends.
and i just say, im gonna have another lonely passion arts, again.
but whatever.
it's never easy getting over a guy anyways right?
i still have to find shoes for passion arts.
any kind soul willing to spare me shoessss?
like pronto.
hahah, im typing away though no one reads.
it's just the dead-est blog ever.
i quit being a bitch.
HAHAHAH.[:
14.2.09
11.2.09
from best friends to strangers.
i really dunno what happened b/w us.
i still really miss you a lot.
when i read your blog, i realised you really didn't regard me as anyone to you anymore.
i know im a very immature best friend to begin with.
but were you actually being serious?
like, did you really mean from the bottom of your heart, that we were best friends?
or is it, on your 18th birthday.
you just realized that there are much more potential best friends out there, so you decided to ditch me?
do you know how it actually makes me feel?
yeah we were quarreling last night.
but do you really mean over as in over?
do you really just wanna wash me off your shoulders?
like period?
the things you said to me when i was at my lowest.
was it just cus' you didn't realize how much i'd be hurt?
or you just treat me like a normal aquaintance?
i wish i ever knew you.
i really do.
cause losing you, is as painful as losing my boyfriend.
it's actually more painful.
remember, best friends over boyfriends?
you might not, but i sure as hell do.
it's like, losing 2 precious things.
at the same freaking time.
i really feel like pouring out my heart and soul here right now.
but it's just pointless.
cus we're over.
im actually crying right now typing this.
you just give me the deepest impression that you never made me your best friend before.
you just deemed it as a status.
youre the first REAL best friend i actually loved.
and the first best friend i'd cry for.
the first best friend who i pour my heart and soul out too.
the first best friend i can share things with.
what happened to best friends forever?
sigh, or were they just empty words with no meaning?
if you really wanna be this way, than fine.
it's your choice.
goodbye fannie.
i still really miss you a lot.
when i read your blog, i realised you really didn't regard me as anyone to you anymore.
i know im a very immature best friend to begin with.
but were you actually being serious?
like, did you really mean from the bottom of your heart, that we were best friends?
or is it, on your 18th birthday.
you just realized that there are much more potential best friends out there, so you decided to ditch me?
do you know how it actually makes me feel?
yeah we were quarreling last night.
but do you really mean over as in over?
do you really just wanna wash me off your shoulders?
like period?
the things you said to me when i was at my lowest.
was it just cus' you didn't realize how much i'd be hurt?
or you just treat me like a normal aquaintance?
i wish i ever knew you.
i really do.
cause losing you, is as painful as losing my boyfriend.
it's actually more painful.
remember, best friends over boyfriends?
you might not, but i sure as hell do.
it's like, losing 2 precious things.
at the same freaking time.
i really feel like pouring out my heart and soul here right now.
but it's just pointless.
cus we're over.
im actually crying right now typing this.
you just give me the deepest impression that you never made me your best friend before.
you just deemed it as a status.
youre the first REAL best friend i actually loved.
and the first best friend i'd cry for.
the first best friend who i pour my heart and soul out too.
the first best friend i can share things with.
what happened to best friends forever?
sigh, or were they just empty words with no meaning?
if you really wanna be this way, than fine.
it's your choice.
goodbye fannie.
7.2.09
oh switzerland, where the sunflowers are the brightest.
one small thing, can affect me so much.
what the hell?
you're too busy with your other friends and some guy?
if you didn't regard me as best friend a long time ago,
i rather you be straightforward and tell me a long time ago too.
ah whatever.
i'm happy we're hi bye friends now.
after one shitty year.
eff this.
i know i have a temper problem.
but i ain't living to impress you anymore.
nor am i trying to match up to you.
oh byebye.
what the hell?
you're too busy with your other friends and some guy?
if you didn't regard me as best friend a long time ago,
i rather you be straightforward and tell me a long time ago too.
ah whatever.
i'm happy we're hi bye friends now.
after one shitty year.
eff this.
i know i have a temper problem.
but i ain't living to impress you anymore.
nor am i trying to match up to you.
oh byebye.
STUDYING ON A SATURDAY
zxomg.
byebye pwd D:
if ya'll could only perform in yishun.
i need a study buddy who lives in yishun.
anyone? ):
hmmm, anyone wanna buy wired hearts?
im selling and making.
i need business.
the piercing one seems much of a goner.
and my sister's english is even getting better than mine.
the words coming out from her mouth or so, chim.
are you my sister or a stranger?
mmmmmm.
i feel like a loser today.
wee~
6.2.09
my worst habit is texting one person everydayyyy.
sheryl, dont hate me for that D:
i've lost a best friend.
but i think i've found a new true blue friend.
sherylscene.
hahahah, i wanna hang out sooooon!
when D:
i know i say alot of freaking things like, almost all the time.
hahahah.
sorry uh.
it's a habit(again)
i cant say things properly.
like, when it comes out, it's just a bunch of rubbish.
we have HAVE to study one day tog.
im in school now.
waiting for sofia.
i wonder if she still remembers im here waiting for her.
am listening to Summer's Over now.
i think theyre preeettyy awesome.[:
gg facial later, i feel soo lazy to get out of this seat.
i wanna change, do i stills eem like that arrogant bitch?
if yes, please start listing.
fannie hun, i would really appreciate it if you would come.
sheryl, dont hate me for that D:
i've lost a best friend.
but i think i've found a new true blue friend.
sherylscene.
hahahah, i wanna hang out sooooon!
when D:
i know i say alot of freaking things like, almost all the time.
hahahah.
sorry uh.
it's a habit(again)
i cant say things properly.
like, when it comes out, it's just a bunch of rubbish.
we have HAVE to study one day tog.
im in school now.
waiting for sofia.
i wonder if she still remembers im here waiting for her.
am listening to Summer's Over now.
i think theyre preeettyy awesome.[:
gg facial later, i feel soo lazy to get out of this seat.
i wanna change, do i stills eem like that arrogant bitch?
if yes, please start listing.
Passion Arts Concert.
Venue: Republic Poly(woodlands)
Time: 7.30-9 plus.
Date: 27 Fec(friday)
Price: 8/10 bucks.
anyone interested?
[:fannie hun, i would really appreciate it if you would come.
30.1.09
it's freeee;Dthis sunday at 5.30pm
s.a.m.
*incase you cant see cus' i sure can't.
1. Heartfelt Signature.
2.Blindfold Heros.
3.Roulette.
4.Homicidal Rage.
5.Iridium Like A Band.
6.False Pause.
7.Thy Fallen Kingdom.
8.Rubberband.
9.Knightsfall.
For a bigger picture of the poster,
http://www.playstoprewind.com/next_generation2.jpg
today, school's boring(as usual, du-h)
i seriously dunno what to do for art.
i cant stop thinking about mrf.
idk how my theme, glass container, is gonna progress.
i've just got my schedule for remedial starting from next week.
doing piercings this monday.
having tuition tomo. (oh how dreadful)
having dinner with dad's side tomo night.
having lunch with uncle bernard and family on sun.
having rock kidz on sunday morning.
i wanna start out solo.
and im doing it tonight.
anybody willing to help me?
i really am dead serious on doing this.
and im doing it tonight.
anybody willing to help me?
i really am dead serious on doing this.
28.1.09
CNY PICTURES AND RANDOM STUFF.i miss you carebear D:
i can't wait anymore.
i really hate it D:
hearing your voice makes me cry even more ]':
i really hate this so so much.
i dont wanna cry over you every single min im thinking of you.
your parents alr hate me so much D;
i dont wish to meet you for a while,
cus that'll make me miss you even much much more!
i do not wish to hear your voice, cus' i cant stop crying.
i swear.
]':
i love you so so much sayang.
but do you still love me the same?
27.1.09
24.1.09
i hate friday nights,
though the saying goes, TGIF!
hahah.
last night was one of those horrors(thus the post)
i was super cranky.
i shall not always talk about my pathetic shitty needs.
but shall, about good happy stuff:D
hahahahah.
even w/o freedom, much love, a friend who cares, i still can survive.
right FRIENDS.
whatev.
have been baking the whole day.
the same cookies/cake for like over a decade.
anyone wanna try:D
i want a dslr D:
i think i want photography or clay as my medium.
sadly, i have noo idea what i should do for arts.
and i have tons of homework.
booo.
i cant wait till after o's.
talk about actual freedom.
anyone who's bored, please text me;D
YEAR OF THE COW! MOOOOOOOO. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!:D
though the saying goes, TGIF!
hahah.
last night was one of those horrors(thus the post)
i was super cranky.
i shall not always talk about my pathetic shitty needs.
but shall, about good happy stuff:D
hahahahah.
even w/o freedom, much love, a friend who cares, i still can survive.
right FRIENDS.
whatev.
have been baking the whole day.
the same cookies/cake for like over a decade.
anyone wanna try:D
i want a dslr D:
i think i want photography or clay as my medium.
sadly, i have noo idea what i should do for arts.
and i have tons of homework.
booo.
i cant wait till after o's.
talk about actual freedom.
anyone who's bored, please text me;D
YEAR OF THE COW! MOOOOOOOO. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!:D
23.1.09
i miss you like crazy!
two weeks?
more like 2 years.
sigh.
i feel distant from you.
i wanna hear you say "i love you" again.
i wanna hear you tell me how much you love me,
how much i actually mean to you.
i really can't take two weeks.
i was crying so badly when i heard your voice last night.
i cry everytime i see eeyore.
yes i know im very emotional.
but that also shows how much i love you.
i dont wanna distant myself from you.
the feeling really just sucks.
what if your dad don't let loose a lil'?
what then?
sigh.
if it's a month, i swear i can't take it.
i read your mails.
you dont even send any to me D:
when will it be an emergency, then can i only text remy's phone ?
i'm sick of all the medication i'm taking.
why th hell can't i be born at least pretty.
ffs, God just shoot me down.
i'd kill to look pretty.
just name your price.
two weeks?
more like 2 years.
sigh.
i feel distant from you.
i wanna hear you say "i love you" again.
i wanna hear you tell me how much you love me,
how much i actually mean to you.
i really can't take two weeks.
i was crying so badly when i heard your voice last night.
i cry everytime i see eeyore.
yes i know im very emotional.
but that also shows how much i love you.
i dont wanna distant myself from you.
the feeling really just sucks.
what if your dad don't let loose a lil'?
what then?
sigh.
if it's a month, i swear i can't take it.
i read your mails.
you dont even send any to me D:
when will it be an emergency, then can i only text remy's phone ?
i'm sick of all the medication i'm taking.
why th hell can't i be born at least pretty.
ffs, God just shoot me down.
i'd kill to look pretty.
just name your price.
21.1.09
i feel like changing my blog skin.
im so slow in everything.
yester news is my probably my for me to discover in the future.
im listening to SAVIOUR KING by HILLSONG.
oh my gosh is soo goood.
i miss mrf so badly.
i have no way of contacting you.]':
im sorry.
i miss you terribly.
i have never missed anyone so badly before.
everyone's telling me, to concentrate on studies,
and put this incident, aside.
it's so fucking hard.
best friend, i know it's not real love, it's puppy love, like you always say.
but all i know is i love him.
i miss your hands honey.
i miss holding it.
i miss your long fingers.
your adorable-ness with your glasses.
please call me, i just miss you so so terribly]':
the only way i can remember you, is eeyore.
today, school was, boring as usual.
i need a new laptop i swear.
this friday i have an appt, sigh.
who would be ever so sweet to accompany me.
meeting gabbie gore tomo.
i miss you like fuck bitch!
we're gg shopping for your present tomo.
sofia is (happily) attached to Yus.
i feel so distant from you my God.
i lie worst than i lied last time.
most people wouldn't really know what i'm talking about.
i haven't received the word since, half a year ago.
i haven't felt your presence since, forever.
have i shamed you deeply.
i probably have sinned more than a normal person would.
i'm on hiatus.
im not going to text much.
i'll prob just text the ppl close.
hopefully, i can meet up with some of ya'll soon.
i seriously can't wait till after o's.
after i've finally completed my grade 8, practical.
if i work hard enough, my grade 5 theory.
i wanna jump straight to grade 8.
i dont' wanna wait.
i've wasted 2 years for practical and 5 years or so for theory.
screw wasting time.
i need a study buddy.
and still, a texting buddy.
anyone?
):
16.1.09
BAABAABLACKSHEEP.
my days have been numbered.
hahahahah.
it's the same usual boring-ness.
mon, thurs, fri, sat= tuition.
tue & thurs= cca.
sun= family day.
wednesday= homework day.
fyi, i haven't stepped into cityhall since the start of the year
(apart from rock kidz)
i'm not meeting Kiddi till after o's.
i SOOOO wanna meet julie cus' we had fun the other time.
i need a study buddy who'll actually study with me.
i need NEED to score well for my o's or else i'm doing my studies overseas.
i can't imagine four years later i won't get to see my boyf much.
i need a social life, apart from school.
i need to loose weight or i swear i'll take a butter knife and cut out all the fats
like what a famous artist did to his ear.
i already miss mrf ):
i miss kiddi even more.
im still doing piercings, so whoever needs to pierce lips or tongue, text meee[:
TODAY;
went to nafa.
had the hardest time finding the place.
cus' i took 851 and dropped infront of tekka mall.
all i could see was la selle.
mrf got kinda pissed cus' i was lost and walking up and down like some goon.
he alw said i nvr get lost when i'm with him.
ALAS, now i have.
so we had the hardest time finding nafa.
when we got there, we were like totally, d-uh.
cus' everyone we saw were in big groups w/ their school.
while we both were the only two w/o a school.
so we registered, and got our goodie bag:D
we went in to one gallery.
and i really think some artworks were gor-geous.
i dont mind spending my thousands on em'.
so yeh, after that we just left.
walked ard again, finding our way to bugis station.
sat at sim lim food court.
he was tired & hungry but he didn't wanna eat.
so i bought peach tea(gah)
and we left for our search of BUGIS STATION.
i was supposed to pierce for weixiong but he last min
cancelled on me.
i swear i was gonna scream.
so we came back.
he walked me home to khatib:D
and we ate uh, some cookies than i forgot.
and i just remembered my stupid diet.
and i stopped eating.
while forcing him to eat his final 2 cookies.
hahahah.
in the end, i saw sandra & fitri and gave em the 2 cookies.
he brought home the other YUMMY CHEESE bear cookies:D
i love my boyfriend so so much.
i swear idk what i'd do w/o him.
i'll smoke my ass off day and night.
gah.
I LOVE YOU MRF:D
my days have been numbered.
hahahahah.
it's the same usual boring-ness.
mon, thurs, fri, sat= tuition.
tue & thurs= cca.
sun= family day.
wednesday= homework day.
fyi, i haven't stepped into cityhall since the start of the year
(apart from rock kidz)
i'm not meeting Kiddi till after o's.
i SOOOO wanna meet julie cus' we had fun the other time.
i need a study buddy who'll actually study with me.
i need NEED to score well for my o's or else i'm doing my studies overseas.
i can't imagine four years later i won't get to see my boyf much.
i need a social life, apart from school.
i need to loose weight or i swear i'll take a butter knife and cut out all the fats
like what a famous artist did to his ear.
i already miss mrf ):
i miss kiddi even more.
im still doing piercings, so whoever needs to pierce lips or tongue, text meee[:
TODAY;
went to nafa.
had the hardest time finding the place.
cus' i took 851 and dropped infront of tekka mall.
all i could see was la selle.
mrf got kinda pissed cus' i was lost and walking up and down like some goon.
he alw said i nvr get lost when i'm with him.
ALAS, now i have.
so we had the hardest time finding nafa.
when we got there, we were like totally, d-uh.
cus' everyone we saw were in big groups w/ their school.
while we both were the only two w/o a school.
so we registered, and got our goodie bag:D
we went in to one gallery.
and i really think some artworks were gor-geous.
i dont mind spending my thousands on em'.
so yeh, after that we just left.
walked ard again, finding our way to bugis station.
sat at sim lim food court.
he was tired & hungry but he didn't wanna eat.
so i bought peach tea(gah)
and we left for our search of BUGIS STATION.
i was supposed to pierce for weixiong but he last min
cancelled on me.
i swear i was gonna scream.
so we came back.
he walked me home to khatib:D
and we ate uh, some cookies than i forgot.
and i just remembered my stupid diet.
and i stopped eating.
while forcing him to eat his final 2 cookies.
hahahah.
in the end, i saw sandra & fitri and gave em the 2 cookies.
he brought home the other YUMMY CHEESE bear cookies:D
i love my boyfriend so so much.
i swear idk what i'd do w/o him.
i'll smoke my ass off day and night.
gah.
I LOVE YOU MRF:D
7.1.09
PARKWAY DRIVE!
HORIZONS SEA TOUR.
PARKWAYDRIVE.
7th feb 09
singapore art museum; auditorium
5 pm onwards.
early birds:S$25
at the door:S$35
PARKWAYDRIVE.
7th feb 09
singapore art museum; auditorium
5 pm onwards.
early birds:S$25
at the door:S$35
happy being her dog darl.
i have no idea why you wanna do it.
just to impress her?
you ain't living just to see her happy.
i dont give a second hoot even if she just drop dead in my face.
you yourself told me she ain't your best friend.
you only have one best friend.
who's not here.
you tell me you'll loose respect and 2 precious ppl?
you know what, i dont care anymore.
why should i.
i'm not living to impress people.
school has been crap.
first week and i hate it to the core.
like GAWD.
gah.
homework homework homework.
who wanna go for poly open house this fri&sat??
:D
and bestiee, you better not go committing suicide.
i seriously dunno how in the world you think yesterday was a joke.
i swear i almost cried.
i have no idea why you wanna do it.
just to impress her?
you ain't living just to see her happy.
i dont give a second hoot even if she just drop dead in my face.
you yourself told me she ain't your best friend.
you only have one best friend.
who's not here.
you tell me you'll loose respect and 2 precious ppl?
you know what, i dont care anymore.
why should i.
i'm not living to impress people.
school has been crap.
first week and i hate it to the core.
like GAWD.
gah.
homework homework homework.
who wanna go for poly open house this fri&sat??
:D
and bestiee, you better not go committing suicide.
i seriously dunno how in the world you think yesterday was a joke.
i swear i almost cried.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURWANA!!!!!!!
2.1.09
im researching on Ken Hornbrook.
he has awesome skills.
okeh, first day of school.
so boring.
what medium should i choose for art o's?
PHOTOGRAPHY?
CERAMIC?
well only this 2 i love:D
hahahah.
and, right after o levels.
im gonna go out, and do shopping.
and go for GIGS nd GIGS nd GIGS!
i wanna form a girl band:D
anyone interested?
more of indie.
and i need study buddies!
this update is cus lina chan chan say i never update.
hahahah.
I MISS YOU GOSSIP BUDDYYY!
he has awesome skills.
okeh, first day of school.
so boring.
what medium should i choose for art o's?
PHOTOGRAPHY?
CERAMIC?
well only this 2 i love:D
hahahah.
and, right after o levels.
im gonna go out, and do shopping.
and go for GIGS nd GIGS nd GIGS!
i wanna form a girl band:D
anyone interested?
more of indie.
and i need study buddies!
this update is cus lina chan chan say i never update.
hahahah.
I MISS YOU GOSSIP BUDDYYY!
28.12.08
zxomg i hate guys whose girlf alw keep their phones.
and when text come in they start shooting.
like wth.
i lost contact with soooo many ppl.
and i regret not talking to them]:
like seriously]':
from now on, i shall not not talk to ppl.
and i shall not not talk to them for more than one week.
whatever i mean.
school gonna reopen.
SO MUCH HOMEWORK!
DIEDIEDIE.
please support WFN on live&loaded:D
i need a new band best friend.
like period.
and when text come in they start shooting.
like wth.
i lost contact with soooo many ppl.
and i regret not talking to them]:
like seriously]':
from now on, i shall not not talk to ppl.
and i shall not not talk to them for more than one week.
whatever i mean.
school gonna reopen.
SO MUCH HOMEWORK!
DIEDIEDIE.
please support WFN on live&loaded:D
i need a new band best friend.
like period.
and my new year resolution!
1.loose weight by jan, goal is 10.
2. change my attitude.
3. be more patient.
4. change my ugly fashion.
5. loose weight! (if i loose weight by june till my ideal, i can get my dslr!)
6. be more understanding.
7. change hairstyle.
8. be more experienced in piercing.
9. get more "customers"
10. DO WELL FOR O LEVEL MANSZXZXXZXZX.
11. find a new band-bestie.
12. be more involved in local music cus' im such a noob.
13. practice my piano MORE!
14. hopefully get to la selle or nafa.
1.loose weight by jan, goal is 10.
2. change my attitude.
3. be more patient.
4. change my ugly fashion.
5. loose weight! (if i loose weight by june till my ideal, i can get my dslr!)
6. be more understanding.
7. change hairstyle.
8. be more experienced in piercing.
9. get more "customers"
10. DO WELL FOR O LEVEL MANSZXZXXZXZX.
11. find a new band-bestie.
12. be more involved in local music cus' im such a noob.
13. practice my piano MORE!
14. hopefully get to la selle or nafa.
24.12.08
PIERCINGS
hahahah.
im back:D
yes.
piercings:D.
im doing lip, monroe, madona, medusa, labret, lip, tongue & septum.
yes i've done all these before.
text mee.
i'll not be online much.
so it's the best way to contact meee.
94887246.
im back:D
yes.
piercings:D.
im doing lip, monroe, madona, medusa, labret, lip, tongue & septum.
yes i've done all these before.
text mee.
i'll not be online much.
so it's the best way to contact meee.
94887246.
30.11.08
UPDATES TO THY LIFE.
1. im quitting dare choir.
2. im joining WOW.
3. im starting my actually strict laureninininini's diet tmrw.
4. im gg nuts for work.
5. i screw up my r/s countless of times.
6. im the biggest complain queen ( EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW THAT I SUPPOSE)
7. im missing my boyf terribly.
8. idk what you want me to do anymore D:
9. im dying for school to start.
10. im disappointing too many people.
11. sometimes i feel like committing suicide.
12. i feel so so distant away from my God.
13. christmas is coming and i dont look forward to it.
14. im buying my clamps from Finch this sat.
15. im starting the "piercing business" again.
16. work is driving me to my grave.
17. tuition even before o's even started? sigh.
18. all these makes from 1-17 except 7 makes me want to die, RIGHT, NOW.
1. im quitting dare choir.
2. im joining WOW.
3. im starting my actually strict laureninininini's diet tmrw.
4. im gg nuts for work.
5. i screw up my r/s countless of times.
6. im the biggest complain queen ( EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW THAT I SUPPOSE)
7. im missing my boyf terribly.
8. idk what you want me to do anymore D:
9. im dying for school to start.
10. im disappointing too many people.
11. sometimes i feel like committing suicide.
12. i feel so so distant away from my God.
13. christmas is coming and i dont look forward to it.
14. im buying my clamps from Finch this sat.
15. im starting the "piercing business" again.
16. work is driving me to my grave.
17. tuition even before o's even started? sigh.
18. all these makes from 1-17 except 7 makes me want to die, RIGHT, NOW.
my mom is killing me.
we haven't said I LOVE YOU since i was in p3.
you never once told me.
how much you love me as a daughter.
that youre proud of me.
that you never wanna loose me.
that i am so so precious to you.
that your love for me is unconditional.
but instead,
you emphasise how much im such a disgrace to you.
how much you adore scolding me.
how much you DONT want me to be your daughter.
that loosing me means nothing to you.
I, mean nothing to you.
im no one special to you.
im just some THING you picked from the rubbish.
you make me sad all the time.
you make me cry myself to sleep.
your my mother.
though others might see this as nothing.
and think that im just a big cry baby.
when i try to impress you,
you never seem to look.
but when i fall, you push me down.
down and down and down.
and you just walk away.
and let me rot.
i know i mean nothing to you.
i know im the biggest disgrace.
but please, i have feelings too.
your words really sting.
worst than a scorpion's sting.
worst than the desert sand in your eyes.
worst than a painful breakup.
worst than anything.
you're not fit to be my mother.
sigh.
please stop killing me mother.
we haven't said I LOVE YOU since i was in p3.
you never once told me.
how much you love me as a daughter.
that youre proud of me.
that you never wanna loose me.
that i am so so precious to you.
that your love for me is unconditional.
but instead,
you emphasise how much im such a disgrace to you.
how much you adore scolding me.
how much you DONT want me to be your daughter.
that loosing me means nothing to you.
I, mean nothing to you.
im no one special to you.
im just some THING you picked from the rubbish.
you make me sad all the time.
you make me cry myself to sleep.
your my mother.
though others might see this as nothing.
and think that im just a big cry baby.
when i try to impress you,
you never seem to look.
but when i fall, you push me down.
down and down and down.
and you just walk away.
and let me rot.
i know i mean nothing to you.
i know im the biggest disgrace.
but please, i have feelings too.
your words really sting.
worst than a scorpion's sting.
worst than the desert sand in your eyes.
worst than a painful breakup.
worst than anything.
you're not fit to be my mother.
sigh.
please stop killing me mother.
29.11.08
idk if it works.
hopefully, yes.
I MISS MUHD MAAROF.
gabbie darling, im very sorry about grandmama.
i promise you i'll try visiting her!
& i'll pray.
i'll pray hard for you.
whatever happens, you know you can turn to meee;D
YOUR BESTIE!:D
I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH BBY!
i know how you feel.
my grandmama died.
i didn't even get to say my final goodbyes.
and it was too sudden.
she raised me when my parents were busy.
she was the one who made me smile.
even till now(before she died).
she has the most adorable smile.
and she's a rocking chic!
she has a scorpion tattoo.
she's th best thing that has ever happened to me.
when she died, i was alone.
but now, you won't be[:
not saying tht she will ( touch alot of wood)
whatever it is honey,
you still got me:D
& your guy.
and everyone else!
C:
23.11.08
i was bored.
so i took this from gab's blog.
:D
THY SELF.
[01] Name: dharsh.
[02] Nickname: dharshy; marshmellow; the emo geek.
[03] Married: in love yes.
[04] Zodiac Sign: libra.
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 15
[07] High School: Northland Secondary.
[08] College: i wanna go to tp:D
[09] Height: 168cm.
[10] Weight: for me to know & you to never find out.
[11] Do you like yourself: hahah. dunno.
[12] Piercings: goodbye my lovers.
[13] Right or left: goodbye oh goodbye.
[14] Are you a freak : no.
[15] Hair: chestnut brown.
[16] Skin: tan i suppose. ehk.
[17] Allergic: to nothing.
[18] What are you doing now: finding songs.
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: go to yishun lib with momsie & popsie. :O
[20] What will you do 10 years later: married and spending money like nobody's business.
THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: everyone.
[23] Eldest: not me.
[24] Youngest: ME ):
[25] Love/hate your family: both.
THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: hell yeah. (:
[27] If yes, who is he/she: Ma'arof :D
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: no one.
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 6
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): nope.
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): dunno.
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: think so.
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: alot of arguing.?
[34] Ever argue with your other half: lotsa times.
[35] You with your other half since: 18/09/2008
[36] Are you straight/gay: mix:D
[37] Reasons you love your other half: cus' he's my other half.
[38] You and your other half in which stage: uh stage.. 3/4? hahah.
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: both!
[40] Ever think of marry him/her: yesm. :)
THE FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: Gabbie.
[42] Your first enemy: hahahah, SO MANY MAANSZXZXZX.
[43] The friend(s) you love the most: Gabbie & Billie & Sofee & Shaz.
[44] The enemy you hate the most (1only): I LOVE MY ENEMIES! hahahaha.
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: i cant choose.
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: my boyf! counted?
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: too stuck up backstabbing cunt.
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: selfish and if his ego is bigger than his head.
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: yeah :/
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: nope.
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: than to hell with her sweet words, that whore.
[52] If your friend betray you: find out why and bitchslap her. HAHAHAH.
[53] If your friend woo your lover: i'll disfigure her and embarress her till she pees in her undies.
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: no chance maaanszxzxzx.
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: i did, kinda. {:
THE STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: no.
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: hahaha, no.
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: none.
[59] Always late to school/college: nope.
[60] Your class: i dunnoe.
[61] You love your seniors: friendship love, yes. But now, I AM THE SENIOREST SENIOR! hahahahahahahah.
[62] Senior who you love the most: i dont have any.
[63] Your classmates good/bad: ave.
[64] Excellent result classmate: i dont really talk to them.
[65] Laziest classmate: and i still dont talk to them.
THE PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: einstein(however you spell his name).
[67] Stupid people: *waves hand frantically*
[68] Good looking people: everyone.
[69] Ugly people: *waves hand frantically, again*
[70] Funny people: YOU:D
[71] Cute people: emo, elmo's cousin.
[72] Bad people: i dunno lah, all the questions so wierd.
[73] Honest people: not me.
[74] Acting people: huh??
[75] You are what kind of people: Retarded & Hot tempered & Random.
THE PREFER
[76] Lip or eyes: eyes.
[77] Hugs or kisses: both.
[78] Shorter or taller: definitely taller.
[79] hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneous.
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: both.
[81] Listener or talker: both.
[82] Romantic or rich: romantic.
[83] Good wife or Good mother: both!
THE FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: 25.
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 3.
[86] Career: journalist & author.
[87] Salary: big big money!
[88] Retirement age: 40.
[89] Properties value: i dunnoe.
[90] Wishes: materialistic mind.
so i took this from gab's blog.
:D
THY SELF.
[01] Name: dharsh.
[02] Nickname: dharshy; marshmellow; the emo geek.
[03] Married: in love yes.
[04] Zodiac Sign: libra.
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 15
[07] High School: Northland Secondary.
[08] College: i wanna go to tp:D
[09] Height: 168cm.
[10] Weight: for me to know & you to never find out.
[11] Do you like yourself: hahah. dunno.
[12] Piercings: goodbye my lovers.
[13] Right or left: goodbye oh goodbye.
[14] Are you a freak : no.
[15] Hair: chestnut brown.
[16] Skin: tan i suppose. ehk.
[17] Allergic: to nothing.
[18] What are you doing now: finding songs.
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: go to yishun lib with momsie & popsie. :O
[20] What will you do 10 years later: married and spending money like nobody's business.
THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: everyone.
[23] Eldest: not me.
[24] Youngest: ME ):
[25] Love/hate your family: both.
THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: hell yeah. (:
[27] If yes, who is he/she: Ma'arof :D
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: no one.
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 6
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): nope.
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): dunno.
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: think so.
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: alot of arguing.?
[34] Ever argue with your other half: lotsa times.
[35] You with your other half since: 18/09/2008
[36] Are you straight/gay: mix:D
[37] Reasons you love your other half: cus' he's my other half.
[38] You and your other half in which stage: uh stage.. 3/4? hahah.
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: both!
[40] Ever think of marry him/her: yesm. :)
THE FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: Gabbie.
[42] Your first enemy: hahahah, SO MANY MAANSZXZXZX.
[43] The friend(s) you love the most: Gabbie & Billie & Sofee & Shaz.
[44] The enemy you hate the most (1only): I LOVE MY ENEMIES! hahahaha.
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: i cant choose.
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: my boyf! counted?
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: too stuck up backstabbing cunt.
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: selfish and if his ego is bigger than his head.
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: yeah :/
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: nope.
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: than to hell with her sweet words, that whore.
[52] If your friend betray you: find out why and bitchslap her. HAHAHAH.
[53] If your friend woo your lover: i'll disfigure her and embarress her till she pees in her undies.
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: no chance maaanszxzxzx.
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: i did, kinda. {:
THE STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: no.
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: hahaha, no.
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: none.
[59] Always late to school/college: nope.
[60] Your class: i dunnoe.
[61] You love your seniors: friendship love, yes. But now, I AM THE SENIOREST SENIOR! hahahahahahahah.
[62] Senior who you love the most: i dont have any.
[63] Your classmates good/bad: ave.
[64] Excellent result classmate: i dont really talk to them.
[65] Laziest classmate: and i still dont talk to them.
THE PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: einstein(however you spell his name).
[67] Stupid people: *waves hand frantically*
[68] Good looking people: everyone.
[69] Ugly people: *waves hand frantically, again*
[70] Funny people: YOU:D
[71] Cute people: emo, elmo's cousin.
[72] Bad people: i dunno lah, all the questions so wierd.
[73] Honest people: not me.
[74] Acting people: huh??
[75] You are what kind of people: Retarded & Hot tempered & Random.
THE PREFER
[76] Lip or eyes: eyes.
[77] Hugs or kisses: both.
[78] Shorter or taller: definitely taller.
[79] hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneous.
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: both.
[81] Listener or talker: both.
[82] Romantic or rich: romantic.
[83] Good wife or Good mother: both!
THE FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: 25.
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 3.
[86] Career: journalist & author.
[87] Salary: big big money!
[88] Retirement age: 40.
[89] Properties value: i dunnoe.
[90] Wishes: materialistic mind.
22.11.08
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MY NEW FLEND:DVELY NICE!:D
VELY PRETTY TOOO:D
we shall go for gigs tog next time!
HEHEHE:D
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this 2 people here are the bestest people anyone could have.
i swear.
God blessed me big time:D
ILY BOOBEHS!
im still fucking in love with him.
i love him more than food and marshmellows and piercings!:D
this is thanks to RIIN:D
cus' i wanted a sunflower.
PREETTTYY RIIIGHT!:D
SO MUCH THANKYOU LORSHZXZXZX.
:D
WORK IS KILLING ME
well so is tuition.
24/5 work and tuition.
i have no social life.
i HAVE NO life.
sigh.
14.11.08
whats with that dude lah.
wanna commit suicide,
why pollute other people's eyes.
zomg.
i love TRAVIS COTTRELL.
he makes me sing hallelujah.
[:
i love you boyfriend!
you made my day:D
spent 50 bucks plus plus at ARTBOX,
while waiting for billie.
met her, for like a few mins.
she bought her lunch.
than met boyf.
than headed to cityhall.
for nuts.
went to get his silver balls (HAHAH)
walked around.
went to the singapore river.
it's beautiful. {:
took like THREE pictures there.
my hair was like a mad mop
went to penin before that.
and i bought a beautiful checkered pouch.
and a guitar pendant,
while syg got his behemoth shirt.
yes it's very anti christ.
and i dont mind you wearing that out[:
went to the river,
bought corn and candy floss.
and coke.
hahahahahah:D
met shanu for a while to pierce her ear.
zomg, i love today!
you're my everything baby.
11.11.08
my bestiee says i need time.
time is the most precious thing in a relationship.
oh how much i dearly hate time.
i wish it'd just go by faster.
hahahah.
IM HAPPY TODAY:D
idk why.
nd im staying like this till in 107 years old:D
am starting work next week.
so is the mon-sat tuition shit.
a big SIGH to that.
am loving my boyf even more.
am loosing the closest darling i ever had.
as many would say it's "parts and parcels of life"
it's prob the biggest lie anyone has told me.
GOODBYE LOVERS:D
time is the most precious thing in a relationship.
oh how much i dearly hate time.
i wish it'd just go by faster.
hahahah.
IM HAPPY TODAY:D
idk why.
nd im staying like this till in 107 years old:D
am starting work next week.
so is the mon-sat tuition shit.
a big SIGH to that.
am loving my boyf even more.
am loosing the closest darling i ever had.
as many would say it's "parts and parcels of life"
it's prob the biggest lie anyone has told me.
GOODBYE LOVERS:D
9.11.08
8.11.08
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seriously DAD, stay out of my life.
i've had it with you, literally.
leave me alone.
im gonna start changing.
from head to toe;D
by june next year, i swear
i'll be a totally different person.
im gg anoe(yeah right)
i will try my best to go anoe.
im fucking crazy for leopard prints & bows.
big bows,
small bows.
dead bows.
bright bows.
bows bows bows!
im gonna change to be an extra hyper person.
no more with all tht shitty crap.
and no more an attention seeker.
i might even change my accent!
hahaha.
hahaha.
wtf.
i wont rant me being bored anymore,
till someone says it first:D
now weight is pulling me down.
deeper and deeper to the pits of depression.
piercings are a goner.
"emo" ness tht people depict in me, is dying.
i will stop swearing, unecessarily(however you spell that)
i'm gonna stop lying.
im gonna do well for my o's next year(i pray i do)
im gonna get freedom that i need.
and actually feel better about myself!
goodbye, love.
im writing this to my one and only.
every night before i sleep.
i think abt you.
what we talked abt or did tht day.
we usually end our day with arguments.
with which dont mean a thing.
& yet, i make the biggest fuss out of it.
tht day you got your septum.
i think i was probably more nervous than you are.
i still have that video.
partly, you did it for me.
i was so darn happy.[:
you were even willing to be my "customer"
and you wanted me to pierce.
i was so touched.
i effin' love your septum!
everyday, i stare at your pictures for long, minutes.
rmbr when we first met?
we were dead silent.
and we were extremely shy.
we sat on 812.
and went on rounds.
you didnt like it, yet you didnt say anything.
and than there was a lot of laughter.
i kept taking your phone cause i didn't know,
what to say.
i was dead nervous,
probably worst than you were.
i was sad when we bade goodbye.
now when we meet, we still hug.
and you're super tall.
while i feel short.
i wanna hug you tightly.
like never before.
oh rmbr the day before my bday, we went for a walkathon.
when it wasnt really much of a walk-athon.
yes our feets were aching.
and we ate tht yummy kinder suprise!
i still have that toy.[:
it was like our first official date.
and when we were at the food court, you bothered asking me.
if i wanted to have milo dinosaur.
that is my favourite drink!
& i love LOVE the pouch you bought for me.
you know im a loser for stars & leopard prints.
and now bows.
as i am typing this, im smiling like an love sick child.
and listening to your call by secondhand serenade.
there's so so much more i can type here.
i want to last forever with you.
i dont want us to give up on each other.
even if you stopped loving me, i'd never stop loving you.
you're the balloon i'll never let go.
the marshmellow i'll never eat.
the toy i will never ditch.
i love you more than marshmellow & chocolate fondue.
i love you more than milo dinosaur.
i love you more than elmo.
i love you more than crazy sex bands.
I *inserts biggest heart* YOU MA'AROF!
7.11.08
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i love love opera singers.
esp male ones.
i love the way they project their voice.
the way the make it so darn beautiful.
its so loud & strong.
the way they put everything tog.
the recent opera male singer who died.
he's my fav.
sigh, oh how i wish to attend one of their
beautiful concerts.
TOC IS SO SCREWED!
just when singapore had a miracle.
the whoevers had to screw up everything.
you're disgracing singapore.
you're throwing away our faces.
didn't you ever know we were kiasu??
DXO???
what happened to fort canning?
AGE LIMIT??
wth is wrong with ya'll.
thanks for killing our enthusiasm of few weeks.
2.11.08
lost a good friend.
you choose her over me.
i totally get it(i think)
well im trying to.
& happy being the IN couple.
lost my fav hairband.
wtf, i really need it.
cus' it means smthg to me.
spent tooo much moolah.
so much i need to "top up"
i probably have spent at least 200+++ bucks on things i HAVENt used.
wow right?
im thinking of selling em'.
but it'll be darn mafan.
i want a.. no wait, i NEED a texting buddy, i swear!
it's fucking boring.
what's the use of free unlimted messages, & no one to text.
it's a damn bitch i tell you.
i'm sick & tired of studying more than 6 hours a freaking day.
i rather be standing under the hot sun for 24 hours than study.
it's the bloody holidays and im studying?
im sick of being grounded & bitched abt & doubted.
it fucking stinks.
i love my boyfriend.
i swear i do.
he's the only reason i'm still breathing.
i hate having parents who love criticizing me.
i know im fat, you dont have to exaggerate
& hurt my damn feelings(if i still mean anything to you)
went out with darlingss yst.
im moody.
it was good.
finally get to meet them!
i miss ya'll so fuckg much.
lets go out soon again.
hopefully in dec.
if i dont get my fucking freedom by dec.
i swear over my coffin, tht i'll jump down a 2 storey building.
i dont care if i break my bones & get paralysed.
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